It's been a month and I came back from San Francisco. I woke up at 7:34am. I got out of bed and got ready for my appointment. I had breakfast and did myself some coffee. As I was drinking my coffee I turned on the TV watching the news. Sam was on the screen.
Hehe...cap.
As I looked at the TV screen, someone called. I picked up my phone and noticed Sam was calling.
"What's up cap?" I said with a smile.
"You know?" He asked.
"You've been on the news for three days. Of course I know" I said taking a sip from my coffee. "Sharon got pardoned as well. I didn't know she was struggling all these years"
"Yeah, I called because I was wondering how you've been holding up since we last talked"
"I've been good to be honest."
"And I am also wondering if you wanted to grab some lunch"
"Sure. When?"
"Today?"
"Sure, I just have a few stuff I need to do right now. Just send me the location and I'll see you there"
"Cool, later" he said hanging up.
I left the phone on the counter and headed to my room to grab my sneakers. I put them on, along with a jacket and a cap. I grabbed my bag, my phone and my keys and headed out.
I walked on the sidewalk towards the therapist office. I opened the door and went towards the receptionist.
"Hi, I have an appointment with Christina at 8:00" I said.
"Yeah, she'll bring you in in a few minutes. Please take a seat" she said.
I sat in a chair waiting for her to call me. I was looking through my phone and I tried to call Wanda.
Nothing.
"She's ready for you"
I stood up and walked into her office.
"Morning" I said.
"Sit" she said.
I sat on the couch and crossed my legs.
"You haven't been here for a month" she said.
"Yeah, I was doing some research across the country" I said.
"Let's discuss what you told me last time. Remind me"
Didn't she write it down? Bruh
"Um, well my friend passed away, I disappeared and I've been having flashbacks"
"You're forgetting him" she said.
"Then why did you make me repeat it, if you already-"
"Have you talked to him?"
"No"
"Why not?" She asked.
"I deleted his number"
"Why?"
I stayed quiet and looked at the floor crossing my arms.
If I ignored it, maybe I would forget about him.
"You're not gonna talk again?"
I sighed. "I'm trying"
She shook her head and took out her notebook.
"There's no need to take out the notebook" I said.
"You're not talking, so I'm just writing"
"That's passive aggressive" I said looking around.
"You know I have another patient just like you" she said. "Stubborn. He said the same thing"
"Why thank you" I said. "Thank you for comparing me to another mentally unstable person"
"Listen Y/n why don't you try meeting new people?"
"Because I don't want to feel like it's something I need to be happy doc..." I said. "I don't want it to feel like a chore, or something to distract me from my problems"
She kept writing on that small ass notebook. She eventually dismissed me, and I went back home.
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I stayed at my apartment for a while. I had my day off, because I start to work tomorrow. I got ready and walked towards the location Sam sent me.
I kept walking until I spotted him using his phone. I looked at him with a smile.
"Captain" I said making a salute.
"Really?"
I laughed and we walked towards a table sitting down.
"I saw your suit. I like it, the colors suit you" I said.
"Thank you"
"So can I have your old wings?" I said.
"Actually, I gave them to a friend"
He really gave them to Barnes?!
"Barnes. Really?" I said crossing my arms. "And not me?"
"Not that friend." He said. "I met him in the military"
"Really? What's his name so I can have a talk with him"
"You're not getting the wings, besides you can already shape shift"
"No I'm actually curious, what friend?"
"His name is Joaquin"
Torres?
"Torres?" I asked.
"Yeah? How did you know?"
"Short, brown hair, nice teeth, Hispanic?" I asked.
"You know him?" Sam asked.
"Yeah he's an old friend"
"How?"
"I have connections everywhere Sam. We were in the same unit until I switched" I said. "I'm surprised I didn't know you back then"
He nodded and a waiter approached us taking our order. He left and Sam took a sip from his water and we kept talking.
"I was gonna ask you for a favor"
"Depends on what it is" I said mocking him.
"If you can help us with the wings"
"Why?"
"You know John Walker?"
"The asshole that got the shield after you put it on the memorial?"
"Yeah, he basically destroyed the wings"
"So not only, you didn't give me the wings, now you want me to fix them?" I said smirking.
"Help us fix them"
"Fine, will Torres be there?"
"Why?" He asked raising an eyebrow suspiciously.
"I haven't seen him in forever" I said.
"You know who you haven't seen in forever?"
"Who?"
"Bucky"
I stayed quiet and looked at him.
"Yeah, I'm not going down that road"
"He told me you went to San Francisco for some research"
How did he know that?
"I didn't talk to him, I don't know how he knew"
"So what did you do there?"
"I worked with Hank Pym for three weeks." I said. "I figured out why the veins appeared, it was because I shapeshifted a lot. The veins in my arm and my neck, just stayed permanent"
"I figured." He said. "He's been talking about you"
"Who?"
"Y/n You know who"
"So?"
"You should talk to him"
I shook my head slowly closing my lips shut.
"I've been trying to do good" I said. "I feel like if I talk to him, everything will go downhill"
"It won't, he misses you"
I do too but I rather avoid it.
"You're funny" I said.
"Y/n I'm not joking" he said.
"I finally have my life back Sam. I'm going to therapy, I got a regular job, and moved into a new apartment. I really don't need a distraction right now"
"He's been doing the same thing"
"What?"
"Going to therapy. It's mandatory for him"
"I figured"
The food came and we started eating.
"You're not an agent anymore?"
"No, I figured I should drop it and finally stop fighting"
"Why?"
"I don't know, after Nat and Tony's death, I realized I should stop"
"How are you holding up about it?"
"I called Wanda several times to check up on her, but she never answered. I've been dealing with it on my own"
"So you haven't talked to anyone"
"I mean only you now" I said taking a bite from my food.
"I still think you should talk to him" he said. "He's been through a lot"
"I know" I said. "I'm glad he got better, and I forgave him a long time ago"
"Then what's the problem?"
"I just don't want to see him" I said. "I can't"
He kept eating and Sam told me everything that happened the three weeks I was gone. He told me about the Flagsmashers, John Walker, the serum, even how Barnes helped Zemo break out of prison.
"Wow" I said. "The moment I'm gone, everything turns to shit"
He started laughing and shook his head.
"You could've helped us" he said.
"But unfortunately, I had my own stuff at the moment" I said. "So you and Barnes are besties now"
"Besties really?"
"Fine, best friends"
"Yeah, he stayed with us in Louisiana"
"Us?"
"Yeah, my sister and my nephews"
"So you replaced me with him" I said jokingly.
"What? No"
"I see how it is" I said. "In fact, I didn't even know you had a sister"
"I'll take you to meet her"
I smiled and after that, he payed for lunch. We walked out and we walked towards his car.
"Y/n please talk to him" Sam said.
"I don't know"
"Please, I don't want him flirting with my sister anymore"
"Pfftt... so it's for your own benefit?"
"Apart from that. He does miss you"
"I'll figure it out" I said.
"Give me your phone" he said.
"No. Why?"
"I know you deleted his number"
"You know me too well Wilson"
I sighed and gave him my phone. He put his number and gave it to me. I looked at him with an annoyed expression looking at the name he put.
"Seriously? Change what you put" I said.
"What?" Sam said trying not to laugh.
"He's not my booty call"
He started laughing, and I shook my head changing the name on his number.
Barnes.
I shook my head and crossed my arms.
"You need a ride?" He asked.
"I rather walk, my apartment is close" I said. "Thanks for lunch"
I gave him a hug and he spoke up.
"Meet us this weekend to help with the wings"
"Sure" I said walking away. "Text me the location"
He got into his car and drove away. I walked for 20 minutes into the building of my apartment. I entered the building and decided to check on my mail. I grabbed what was in my inbox and headed towards the elevator. I kept looking at what they send, and I accidentally bumped into someone making me drop the letters.
"Ohh god I'm sorry I wasn't looking where-" I said looking up. "Barnes?"
"Y/n?" he said picking up the letters. "You live here?"
"Yeah... what are- what are you doing here?"
"I also live on this building"
Of course you do...
"You cut your hair" I said.
"Yeah..." he said rubbing the back of his neck.
There was an awkward silence for a moment and I weakly smiled stepping away from him.
"Hey do you maybe want to talk?" He said.
I turned around and thought about it.
Bitch no... he left. But he left because he was trying to get better.
"No" I said.
"Listen I just want to say that I'm sorry" he said.
"I know... I forgave you a long time ago" I said walking towards the elevator.
I pushed the button, and the only thing I saw was him standing in the lobby. The door closed and it opened again. He walked in and was gonna push the button, but he didn't, noticing I pressed it already.
"Don't tell me you live on the same floor" I said looking up.
"I won't tell you then" he said.
I shook my head and waited for the elevator to open.
"How are you?" He asked.
"Fine" I said in a serious tone.
"How are you holding up after everything?"
Terrible, Nat and Tony are dead, I was diagnosed with ptsd, you left and now I have to go with a terrible therapist.
"Fine"
"And what have you done?"
"Alright I'm gonna stop you right there. We're not doing this" I said looking at him. "I really don't want to talk"
The door elevator opened and I walked out. He followed me through the hallway.
"Can you not" I said.
"My apartment is the same direction" he said.
I took out my keys as I stood in front of my door. I turned around and he was doing the same thing with the door in front of mine.
"You've got to be shitting me" I sighed.