i was on my knee , in front of the person who was my world , I hurt her soo much , while all she did was to fix me , i couldn't even trust the woman , who is my everything .
she is hugging me , like nothing ever happened between us ,how she got this big heart ? how can she forgive someone so disgusting like me ?
" I am sorry " i have been repeating this from past half hours , we are like this from hours , tangled with each other ,
" Alwar , I want to tell you everything about my past and me " she said , I raised my head to see her eyes " you want ??" i asked and she nodded her head " you don't have to if you are not comfortable " I said " no i want to tell you everything , because I can't lose you no , I don' t want any miss understanding between us , after hearing all these , you will decide weather you have to live with me or not " she said " Nothing in the world can now make me leave you Stella " I said , she smiled at me and holds my hand and helped me get up from the ground , she took me to my bed and mad me sit there .
" I meet Leon when i was in grade 3 , when we were almost 5 years old " she said " we were best friends , his father and my father was really close friend , even though my father was just an employee in his office , Leon's father used to treat me like his own daughter and me and Leon was bestfriends , we used to spend our soo much time together " she added
" everything was really beautiful but everything changed when my father died , from heart attack when I was in grade 8 , Our family broke and my mother changed completely , she stopped giving me attention and she even stopped loving and caring me altogether , she just used to cry and cry all day , at that time Leon was only one who used to be there for me , he used to care for me alot , i started seeing my big brother in him " she said " but he started acting weird , he started growing more and more possessive over me , to the point that he beat everyone who even try to talk to me , he wanted me to only talk to him " she added
" I tried to understand him at first , but I couldn't , his aggressiveness grew over time , and one day , he finally confessed to me , that he loves me and he don't see me as a sister , and that he wants to marry me , I thought he was joking , but he was not , I didn't wanted to lose my only bestfriend , so I even tried to love him other way , but I couldn't do it " she said , tears started to flow from her eyes " this time we already passed school and took admission in college that too same " she said
" he started being more toxic , he even beat my male teachers and forced me to only study with female ones , he used to control everything , from my clothes to things i eat , everything , I couldn't even share anything with my mother because she was still grieving over my father" she said " I made new friends in college and he didn't liked it , I was not kid anymore and I knew what he is doing isn't healthy , but I still didn't wanted to lose him because I loved him too much as a brother , but one day he crossed every boundary " she said
she took a deep breathe and started again
"I went to a college party with my friends , there was a male friend also , Leon came there and started mess , he beaten my friend soo badly t-that h-he d-died " she sobbed " i still remember his lifeless body in front of me , and Leon's proud face after he killed someone all my life I thought of him as a brother an he killed someone because of me , I was so disturbed that I couldn't think of anything , I came back home and cried whole night , Leon's family was powerful he got away with everything he did , but Leon's father was very strict , he decided to, Move Leon to America from Spain , I was really happy when I heard this , I thought Finally I will be able to breathe and live my life , but I was wrong , some days Later Leon came home and asked my mother to marry me and he told her that I also love him ,my mother didn't even tried to ask me and take my opinion she just agreed " she said and started crying
" i remember how Leon dragged me away from my house , the dragged me all the way from my corridor , everyone was watching me from pitiful eyes but no one came forward to help me " she said " Leon married me the same day he asked my hand for marriage , just him me and the priest , then he took me away with him to America " she said " the night we reached there , h-he wanted to go p-physical s-saying that h-he c-controlled enough all h-his life and now we are m-married and this i-is our first night together , I refused , but h-he didn't listened " she said , and started sobbing harder , My blood boils , knowing what Motherfucker would have done to her , How i let that motherfucker came anywhere near her ?? how could I let that happened ??
" I swear I tried to stopped him , but h-he r-raped me " she said that and broke into more tears , I pull her closer and hugged her tight , my woman went through soo many things all alone , and she is still standing strong , what did I ever did to deserve someone like her .
" he raped me everyday , whenever he wanted , wherever he wanted , he used to be so rough and I couldn't even move my body , after he get done . I used to feel so disgusted by myself , that I even tried to kill myself , but failed every single time " she said ," he even used to beat me , he used to torture me ,but he used to do many sweet things also , I tired to adjust myself , but I couldn't do " she said " I was only 17 at that time Alwar just 17 " she said , a tear left my eyes thinking bout little Stella going through all that , I tighten my grip on her , because I swear if Now I will going to let any motherfucker near her
" I was is little puppet , he used to treat me like toy , but he used to say he love me alot , but you don't do these things to the person you love right ?? " she said " he used his money to keep me in cage , but his father found out about everything He came America , and he helped me run away from there , He was like father figure too me " she said " He threw Leon in Mental asylum and promised me that I will live a peaceful life , I came back In Spain , and lived in Orphanage because I hated my mother and didn't wanted to go back to her , I studied psychology because I want to help others who suffers from darkness , I completed my studies and joined my clinic < MY life became really simple and lonely , but one day your father bring me to you , your father is somehow related to Leon and his father and he knew everything about me , thats why he asked me to help you " she said ,
" Alwar you were my hope , you became my everything , first time in my life I fell in love with someone , and this feeling is soo beautiful , I don't want to lose you Alwar , I can lose everything but I can't lose you " she said , I hold her face in my hand and kiss her forehead .
" if you think after knowing all these I will leave you , you are very wrong , because hell I will be able to find someone like you , someone so strong like you " i said , her eyes was looking really beautiful at that exact moment .
" I love you alot Stella , I love you soo much that I want to take all of your pain away " i said " please Stella , don't leave me , please " i said , kissing all over her face " I can't even imagine " she said as she buried her face in my chest .
and this is the exact moment I decided , that I will protect her All my life , I will protect Stella for rest of my life , but before that , I need to fuck a motherfucker really bad
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I felt a huge burden left off from my heart , it was feeling like I am finally healed from my past , I was able to move on from my past and able to distract me , But I was never able to Heal from it , but now after telling Alwar everything , they burn in my heart ,isn't hurting anymore .
I am going to my mother's place , the only thing now left is reuniting Alwar to his mom , because it is the only thing left to fix Alwar completely , He needs his reason , he need to find his why
Alwar was not ready to leave on my own , but I have to force him to let me go for work ,
I reached my mother's door , and knocked she open really quickly
" oh my god Stella I was so worried " she said as she pulled me in hug " now you don't have to " i said with a smile , she watch my face and said " you mean , your Boyfriend and you are back together " I nodded , my head and a grin spread on my face .
she laughed as she pulled me back into hug " when you are going to introduced him to me ? " she asked " very so , but we first need to find his mom for him " i said , her smile drop as she thinks about her friend.
" there is a nurse who helped Kristine in giving birth " she said " she live just few blocks ahead " my mother said " if in this world anyone would know about his mother it must be her " she ended
" why didn't you told me this earlier " I said as I turn around to visit the nurse's house " wait , I am coming with you " she said as we both run out of house
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the nurse was watching me and my mom with a weird and unreadable expression
" please can you help us , we really need to find Kristine Le Deon " I said " why after all these years , why came to finding her now , ask your mother she broke her friendship with her , and didn't even tried to look back to her " she said and i watched my
my mother took a deep breathe and said " Kristine , husband was ruining my life because I was helping her and she and her husband was involve in Stella's Misérable life
" this is not reason to left your friend" she said
" miss , my mother had her reasons , but please tell us about Kristine , I need to him her for his son " i said , her expressions changes " her son wants to meet her ??" she asked " yes , he is living a really miserable life because his mother left me " i said " please don't think about past and help us now , please " i said
she took a deep breathe and said " she is not alive "
my heart drop into my stomach , as i processed what she said " she is dead , she died a while ago" she continued " she died when her daughter was 6 year old " she said
what I was hearing was hard to process , Alwar mother died a while ago , and he is living his life hating his dead mother how i am going to break this news to him ??
" you guys did late " she said " wait , do you know where her daughter live ??" i asked " of course , I raised her after all , she comes to meet me every Sunday " she said
" please tell me where she is , and what's her name , we need to let her meet her brother " i said , she think for a while and said " her name is Bella Crawford , she lives in departmental store and she even works there "
what the fuck is actually happening ?? Bella was Alwar's sister ?? Alwar's sister was was around him all this while . does Bella knew it ?
" do you know where she is right now ?? " she is visiting her mother's grave she does this every Sunday
I without thinking anything , rushed out of her house , and dialed Bella's number , but she didn't picked up , then I dialed Alwar's number and he picked it right away
" Alwar " i said "yes baby " he replied " I need to tell you very important thing , please hear me out , and stay calm " i said " Bella is your sister " "
Stella , taught me alot of things in my life , but he thing she focused most was my anger management , she taught me not to beat anyone to death
but only for today , just for today I am going to forget what she taught me
i jump out of my car , with a bat in my hand , I rushed towards Leon's house , his two storey bungalow was right at the corner of the city .
it wasn't hard to find him , he was sitting in his couch wearing the thing I hate most in this world
' his smirk '
he watched me coming towards him , but he didn't ran away , i raised my bat and hit him across his face , swiping his smirk away , I didn't stopped , I hit him continuedly
" you motherfucker , you thought you will get away with everything you did to my woman " i said as i pull him up from collar and punch him on his face , he again smirked towards me and i lost my control and kicked him in his stomach and picked my bat again and started beating the living shit out of him
he was screaming in pain , but laughing at the same time , what a crazy bastard
" I got to taste that pussy first " he said , and i growled as i hit him in the face with my leg
" YOU MOTHERFUCKER BASTARD " i growled and beat him , i beaten him till i lose my energy , he was almost dead , I wanted to kill him , but I wouldn't do it now , I will not kill him , I don't want to end up in jail for this piece of shit .
I kicked him last time , and turned around living him bloody on floor
" kill me " he growled in pain , I turned around to see him " what did you said " I asked " kill me , today , if survived this , I will not let you both live " he said , I kicked on his face again and left me ,
I can hear him laughing from behind , he is really a sick crazy bastard .
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as soon as I came into my car ,my phone rang , it was Stella's
i quickly picked it up , but what she said next , was the most shocking thing I ever heard in my entire life
" bella is your sister " she said " are you out of your mind ?" i asked " i am serious Alwar , please hear everything i have to say
and i heard everything she had to say , this made me realize how fool I was , my entire life
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I was standing outside the graveyard , with flowers in my hands , I never thought I will meet my mom like this again , All my life , I only had one wish , I wanted to meet my mom and ask why she did left me , but now what should I ask her ??
i felt Stella , holding my hands , This woman, worked so hard to find me my mom , what did i ever did to deserve her ?? why god has given me this woman ?? what kind of deed I ever did ??
" we should go inside " she said as she slowly started walking with me
my mother's grave was not very far away , I saw Bella from far , so I knew its her grave , Bella left my hand and told me to go , I slowly walked near her and sat beside her
its so awkward meeting her as my sister , I placed the flowers on the grave
" hey " and said , Bella turned her head towards me in shock " sister " i said with a smile , a tear fell from her eyes and she started sobbing , I pull her head on my shoulder , MY little sister , I have a little sister
" you should have told me "i said " I wanted to , but i was scared that you ,ight hate me " she said as she cry harder
" mom asked me to take care of you , when i grow up , thats why i was staying near you " she said and this breaks my heart more , a tear fell from my eyes as I watch mother's grave
why I am crying soo much these days ??
i hugged my little sister more tighter as we both cry together , her and I let ourselves to cry as much as we want , because once We will stop crying I will make sure that she never cries again .
my mother never left me , She was there all the time , I was just fool enough not to notice ,
my life is giving me soo= many beautiful things
my head turns over to Stella , she was smiling and crying , this woman is my everything
they all trying so hard to make my life , and now I will do everything to make my life worth living
from today ,. New Alwar Le Deon will born , the Alwar who will make his Stella proud , ALwar who will make his mother proud , Alwar who will make his sister and friends proud
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