hi:) this is zorry
i am not too sure why i am posting this (or even writing it right now at 2:11am)
it's not unusual for me to open up wattpad every once in a while, just to reminisce about how it used to be and get a taste of that drive i used to have. because holly shit did i love writing, making covers for my fanfictions and just generally spending 70% of my time here hahah
i've grown out of it (obviously, i haven't updated in quite a while) as most of the people around me back then have as well. which right now at this very moment makes me a little bit sad. we used to have a lot of fun on here
wattpad as a platform has changed so much too. i still can't really say if it's for the better (what the fuck is a premium???) everything has changed, to be fair, but this is definitely the place i turn to when i want to see exactly how much it was such an important time in my life, creatively, emotionally and in every way, really.life became much more time consuming since 2016 and i feel like i lost the sparkle that made me write the way i used to write here. i feel like i'm reading someone else's words, i feel like a fraud when i see my name on the covers. i honestly don't know if i'll ever write again, with that passion at least
anyway, the reason i'm posting this (and it might seem like a bit of dumb one or at least one that raises the question "why even?") is to say thank you to each and everyone one of you - friends, readers, creators and every pair of eyes that happen to stumble upon this someday. THANK YOU! thank you for being such a vital part of my every day life for so long. i never thanked you for that; for every kind word, every comment and every silent read. thank you so fucking much. i am still proud of what i was able to create and you all played a huge role in that. i am sorry i never got to finish almost none of my stories. but thank you so much for liking them anyways (god, i hope i'm not being cheesier than i intended to and i sure intended to be very cheesy)
it's a bit surreal to me right now, from this point of view, but it is the warmest feeling. this is something that i needed to do, to offer some closure to me and all of you. even if you don't need it (which you probably don't considering i am just some author from a hundred years ago who simply wrote some stories on a website) i know i definitely do. a proper goodbye was necessary for me. i am sorry and thank you! i loved being even if it's a small part of your life through my words. i will never forget you!!! and i hope at least one of you will remember me:))
with so, so, so, so, so much love,
zorry