Chapter 55
☆Una't Huli☆
••Aristia Rain Soleil VonClyde's POV••
It's already been 3 years when the mafia war ended.
That day, maraming buhay ang nawala kahit nag wagi kami and Aris also died but fortunately, Vlad got everything he need from him for experimentation.. We lost a lot of people but we saved a lot at the same time kasabay ng pagligtas sa mga inosenteng napag eksperimentuhan at wala na ring nangahas na kumalaban pa basta para mag eksperimento ng Soleil's blood dahil mas lumakas na ang DarkBlood.
Our people is now feel at peace than ever at ngayon ay may new leader narin after I lost my fight on deathcage.
Hindi ako nag patalo dahil binigay ko yung best ko dahil gusto kong makasiguro na deserving at handa na talaga ang papalit and also my body can't handle it more longer so now, Jade is the new Empress habang si Raven.... kuya Raven is the new Emperor.
Kuya Raven and I are ok now, I didn't blame him and forgave our parents dahil siguro nasa dugo narin namin magpaka hero. We're willing to sacrificed something para sa ikabubuti ng lahat.
Kuya Raven wants me to just spend my life to be peaceful and normal, away from fighting then Kuting challenged me for a duel to get my throne kaya binigay nya lahat ng best nya sa laban dahil gusto nyang patunayan na kaya nya, na kakayanin nya and I can say that I'm really proud of her. I'm proud of a strong woman she become with a golden heart.
I heard that her and kuya Raven are starting to go out a lot and won't be surprised kung in the end sila talaga para sa isa't-isa dahil too much admiration lang sa tingin ko nararamdaman non sakin since I was with her eversince pero kay Raven, I can see the difference. She matured a lot in a good way but still clingy when it comes to me pero kay kuya, she's acting differently and hope ma figure out nya agad yung feelings nya na yon at ni kuya na laging nag aalala rin naman sa kanya pag hindi nya to basta nakikita.
Karsen and Chase are also doing fine and Chase, he's already dating someone at nag matured narin finally habang si Karsen nag focus na muna na matulungan pamilya na naiwan ni Nana.
I told him that I'll help but he insisted na sya na bahala dahil yon ang gusto nyang mangyari para makabawi kay Nana.
While Vladimir, he's really a genuis when it comes to science at nag pursue ng maging doctor at binalik sakin lahat ng binigay ko noon na hindi ko naman na kailangan so I gave it all to Trisha.
Trisha on the other hand, she's still didn't able to stand seeing me, nasakit ng sobra ulo nya pero kilala nya ko as tita Tia.
We're just calling each other sometimes through phone since safe sya don at laging nag kukwento kung kamusta araw nya then I told her that I'm the one who's using Kuting's face para lang makalapit and since then, madalas ko ng gamitin mukha ni kuting pag nabisita sya para lang mag kalapit kami but unfortunately, she can't stand knowing or hearing the mom word dahil may trauma na rin sya about Angel's death so it's like I'm living two different identity as Tia and Phoenix pero enough na sakin yon dahil sa paraan na yon nakasama ko sya, nayayakap, nahahagkan kahit tita tia or tita Phoenix lang ang naririnig ko sa kanya.
Vladimir tried his very best to treat Trish but just like the Soleil's blood before, it's nearly impossible dahil aksidente nya lang nagawa yung pampawala ng ala-ala pero mabuti na yon dahil forgetting someone you treasured the most sometimes is the most cruel thing that you can do to yourself dahil parang binura mo narin lahat pati katauhan ng taong yon sa buhay mo.
Honestly, I do feel sad knowing that the one I treasured the most won't gonna be able to see the real me and let alone call me her mommy once again but it's ok.. sometimes it's ok not to be ok.
And lastly sila mommy Shine. They are still the same, they are badly hurt yes but still happy and love me more than I could wished for dahil sigurado raw na masaya anak nila kahit ano man mangyari dahil ako yung dahilan.
My life as assassin and Empress ended already. I'm done with my missions and mission to secure Trisha's safety.. marami ng naka protekta sa kanya kaya sapat na sakin yon.. masaya nako nagawa ko na yung last mission ko bilang Empress, bilang Phoenix at bilang ina.
~What you think hurts the most?~
I remembered that question from one of my professors during my college days.
I still remembered that I'm not even listening to the discussion kaya ako yung tinawag ng prof dahil graded participation daw sa klase.
I was in deep thoughts that day while staring outside, to be exact sa botanical garden dahil twing nakakakita ako ng garden ay maraming masasayang ala-ala ang nag babalik pero kasunod lagi non yung sakit at galit kaya napaisip ako ng malalim bago ako tuluyan sumagot.
"For me, that is losing the people that meant the whole world to me and get betrayed by the person I loved and trusted more than anyone."
Those are my exact words mixed with hatred knowing that the person na pinatutungkulan ko ay nasa iisang kwarto lang at nakikinig sakin.
Nasasaktan habang sa naririnig mula sakin mga katagang yon na alam nyang sya yung tinutukoy but now, if someone gonna ask the same question, I'll say is that, 'Losing the person that meant the whole world to me, A life full of what if's dahil yung taong yon, hindi na babalik at never ng maibabalik lalo na yung mga oras na nasayang dahil mas pinairal ko ang galit sa puso ko.'
Napatingala ako sa kalangitan na nag babadya ng umulan at nag pasyang humiga katabi sya katabi ng lapida kung saan naka himlay ang mag ama ko.
'It's been years now love.. missed mo narin ba ko? Kasama at kakulitan mo narin ba baby natin?'
Tanong sa isipan ko since I now already lost even my ability to talk or anything else and even my hearing is now gone and my ability to see is the only thing na nagagawa ko pa ng madali dahil lahat ng senses ko halos pa wala na.
It's been 3 years and a lot of things happened but feels like everything just happened yesterday and here I am, I'm still here breathing but felt like I'm already lifeless. I'm still slowly dying even though my blood poison is cured.
My organs been damaged and it's too late to make me completely recover and remedy is the reason kung bakit kinakaya ko pa pero ang kasiguraduhan na mabubuhay ako, wala na dahil kahit opera hindi ko na kakayanin pa so i begged everyone to just let me be and enjoy the time I have left in me since it's been my fate already anyway.
The Phoenix is now finally losing it's flame but I don't see any reason to be sad that I'm now saying goodbye.
Only Raven and Kuting are the one who's assisting me kaya sila pang dalawa nag dala sakin sa lugar nato dahil siguro dama nilang gusto ko mag punta ngayon rito para makasama and dalawang taong nawala nalang sakin basta.
Honestly, hindi naman ako umasa ng sobra na mabubuhay ang baby ko cause in the first place, being pregnant while my body is in really bad condition because of poison and being hit tons of times is already impossible let alone to give birth dahil hindi ko kakayanin but miracle did happened.
I carried my child for a while then lost it at the same time when I lost Grey.
I grasped my chest that now thumping differently than normal but instead of being scared, I smiled as memories of us fills up my head na unti-unti kong kinangiti lalo habang dahan-dahan narin nanlalabo at dumidilim ang paningin ko ngunit nanatili akong nakatingin sa kalangitan habang ang isang kamay ko ay nakahawak sa kanyang himlayan, sa ganitong paraan parang hawak ko narin kamay nya.
Iniisip ko nalang na siguro kinuha si Grey sakin ng maaga at biglaan dahil masyado ko na tong sinaktan noon at pinag antay ng matagal and knowing na there's no way na gagaling pa ko, then lost our baby dahil kailangan ni Grey ng kasama so he won't feel alone while waiting. This set up is not that bad anymore just thinking those thoughts na sila sasalubong.
I treasured my life and lived my life to the fullest, I do dahil yon ang gusto ni Grey na gawin ko. It's just that my body is not working the way I wanted now. It's giving up and i'm just now really waiting for the right time and this time might be the time dahil dama ko na.
Pumatak ang luha ko habang nakatingin sa kalangitan dahil unti-unti nagbabalik muli sa ala-ala ko ang ilang memories kasama sya.
"Lovey... why me?" I asked curiously one time habang naka sandal sa balikat nya.
"Hmmm.. why not you?" Sagot naman nya na kina angat ko unti ng tingin. "If it's not you.. then id rather be alone cause I'm not interested with anyone else kaya bakit hindi ikaw kung alam at ramdam kong ikaw lang?" I just sighed because of his answer.
Nakaka kilig kung sa tutuusin pero malungkot pakinggan kaya hindi ko magawang mag diwang kase alam kong ganoon sya. Kaya nyang tuparin at gawin yon hindi lang salita.
"You're really a hopeless case.. boring ng buhay mo dahil pinapasok mo ko sa buhay mo." Sabi ko nalang na kinatawa nya pa pero nagawa parin akong yakapin ng mahigpit upang ipadama na nandyn lang sya, na wala syang pinagsisisihan na nasa buhay nya ko.
Sunod-sunod na pumatak ang luha sa mga mata ko kasabay ng pag tama ng ulan saking mukha.
His voice, his laugh, his presence that can calm the chaos inside my head, everything about him namimiss ko na. Miss na miss ko na.. I wonder kung ganito din ba nadadama nya ng akala nyang wala na ko but I think it's worst. Ang sama ko dahil sinaktan ko sya ng sobra.
Nakakatawang isipin dahil noon sinasabi ko na sisiguraduhin kong mamamatay sya sa mga kamay ko and ironically it happened in a most unexpected and painful way.
He died in my arms kung kelan gusto ko pa syang mabuhay kung kelan pinapangarap kong panaginip lang lahat pero wala nakong magawa dahil wala na talaga.
It should have been a lifetime but God said otherwise. He has a different plan for us.
Sobrang sakit, sobrang hirap na twing gigising ako, walang sya.. wala na yung taong pinapangarap kong makasama at taong laging nandyn para maging lakas ko at sasabihin laban pa.
Lahat na ata ng sakit nadanas ko na, lahat ng pagsubok pinagdaanan ko but then, i still learnt to be thankful cause through those, i realized that I was never been alone. I still found the reasons to be greatful for all the pain i suffered and challenges I've face because those things made me to what i am today and met amazing people.
To my friends and family who's always there throughout my journey sobrang nag pasasalamat ako dahil hindi nila ko iniwan sa lahat ng laban at pagsubok.
I might be the ruthless killing machine to many but definitely a woman who loves and willing to sacrifice when it comes to those people that I treasured the most without hesitations if it's for my family including the DarkBloods.
I smiled as my vision already losing it's color, it's now turning to gray. It should be gloomy, sad, painful but it's not.. I find it comforting and peaceful, the color that I'll choose in a heartbeat without hesitation than my life that full of shades of red and besides, this is what I wished before na kung may huling mawawala sakin ay ito yon kaya masaya ko dahil sa huling pagkakataon natupad yon.
Hindi ko man nakamtan lahat ng pangarap ko pero sapat na to..
'Meet me there.. lovey.. papunta nako.. pupuntahan ko na kayo..'
I said inside my head as the rain starting to pour really hard kasabay ng mga luha na hindi ko na mapigilan dahil sa saya knowing na pag gising ko muli ay andoon na sya, I smiled genuinely hanggang sa bumigay na ng tuluyan ang katawan ko.
"Good morning wife.." I heard.
I smiled as I slowly opening my eyes and his smile is the first thing I saw then felt his gentle touched on my cheek, it was soothing na para bang inaalis na non lahat ng pangamba, lungkot, sakit at takot.
"Did I... make you wait for too long?" I asked as tears now starting to drift.
Grey remained smiling then shook his head at maingat na pinunasan ang luha ko habang nakaunan ako sa hita nya.
"Even if it takes a lifetime, if it's you.. I'm willing to wait.. we're willing to wait." He replied.
His eyes glistened then his tears fell habang nabangon nako upang makaupo ng ayos ng ikalong nya ko sa kandungan nya at pinagkatitigan ng ayos at hawak sa pisngi ko.
"Na missed kita." Naluhang sabi ko na kinangiti nya.
"I love you Rain.. My wife, na missed rin kita sobra." Anya nya then he kissed my forehead, the tipped of my nose then my lips.
It was longing, full of affection na sinasabayan ko lang at kinapatak lalo ng luha ko dahil dama ko..
Finally, he's here.. kasama ko na.
He broke the kissed then we smiled to each other habang hawak na ang isang kamay ko na kinatingin ko rin roon dahil may nilagay syang singsing.
"No more pain and letting go, let's promise our eternal love in this new chapter." sabay lingon nya ng unti sa kung saan at balik ng tingin sakin.
"Our angel is waiting.. are you ready to meet him?" He softly asked.
Walang alinlangan akong tumango sabay lahad nya ng kamay nya na agad kong tinanggap at nag lakad na sa maala hardin na punong-puno ng samu't-saring bulaklak at sa bandang gitna ay ang isang bata na natakbo pa pasalubong na kinatigil ko.
"Mommy!! Daddy!!"
My sob escaped habang panay ang pagtulo ng luha ko, not from pain but because of overwhelming joy ng mabuhat ko na ito pagkalapit.
"Mommy... we love you.." Malambing na sabi pa nito at punas nito sa luha ko gaya kung paano lagi ginagawa ng daddy nya.
"I love you more than life baby, till our next life kayo ng daddy mo." I uttered at akbay naman sakin ni Grey sabay halik sa ulunan ko then our son giggled at sandal sa balikat ko at nag pababa na upang humawak sa kamay naming dalawa..
Nagkatinginan kami ni Grey habang mas lumilinaw na ang daan papunta sa kung saan kami inaakay ng anak namin.
"I love you.." sabay naming sabi sa isa't-isa habang patuloy na kaming tatlo sa pag lakad.
In life, every person has its own story and to us it's not a story that people gonna dream to have but still definitely feel envy on some parts dahil hindi man maala fairytale na puno ng saya ang storya ng buhay ko pero sa storya ko, nahanap ko ang lahat ng mga tauhan na gaganap para maging malaking parte ng storyang nabuo ko cause my story may not be that great for fairytale but I can assure that my ending will be different na masasabi kong hindi man ako ang naging maala prinsesa sa storyang to pero ako parin ang Reyna kasama ang nararapat na Hari sa dulo.
The story we had is sad, full of sacrifices, tragic yet beautiful cause, I have them in it, I have him in it.
It has the best chapters cause I have my Emperor Grey Leisen in it.
The End..
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Kamsamnida...♥️♥️♥️