Chapter 107 The truth
Saying goodbye to Mo Chu, Qiao Zhenzhen ran towards Chi Shen: "Why are you here?"
"My psychiatrist sent me a message saying that there are lectures here and I can make an appointment for a follow-up visit." Chi Shen replied.
Qiao Zhenzhen suddenly said: "I am here for a follow-up visit, I thought..."
Halfway through the conversation, I suddenly stopped talking.
Chi Shen's expression is calm: "Why?"
I thought you were following me. But this kind of thing is definitely impossible to say. Qiao Zhenzhen stared at him for a long while, and his mind was full of the doctor's words. After a long time, he reluctantly smiled: "It's nothing, are you going to see the doctor now?"
"I seem to be late, so ask this afternoon, have you eaten yet?" Chi Shen's tone is the same as usual.
Qiao Zhenzhen shook his head: "No, go home and eat. I'll call my mother."
"Um."
After Chi Shen agreed, he opened the door directly, and Qiao Zhenzhen sat down with the co-pilot and asked him, "Where did you get the car?"
"If you ask someone to prepare before you come, it is convenient to drive by yourself." Chi Shen replied.
Qiao Zhenzhen nodded and didn't ask any more questions.
It was still a working day, and there were few vehicles on the road, and the cars flowed unimpeded all the way.
After a long while, Chi Shen asked indifferently: "Aren't you coming back to accompany Grandpa? Why did you show up there."
"Ah...Come to see a friend." Qiao Zhenzhen didn't dare to say that he came to a psychologist.
Chi Shen's eyes were dark: "Yeah."
Then there was no more words.
In the next two days, Qiao Zhenzhen and Chi Shen were both at home with their elders, but Qiao Zhenzhen was absent-minded, and from time to time, he picked up his mobile phone and took a look, as if he was chatting with someone.
In the face of her abnormality, Chi Shen was always calm and showed unprecedented patience. He pretended to be so good that he even lied to himself. He stayed in Qin's house these days, and his mood has been very calm.
However, Qiao Zhenzhen always felt that something was wrong with him, but he couldn't figure out what was wrong. After thinking about going there for a long time, she finally decided to have a good chat with him.
Yes, she felt that she couldn't continue to pretend to be confused.
But the home is obviously not a good place to talk about this matter. After thinking about it, she decided to return to City S in advance.
"Isn't it three days? Why did you leave so early?" Qin Jing couldn't help complaining.
Qiao Zhenzhen smiled and said, "If you miss me, I will come back again next month."
"Who missed you anymore," Qin Jingheng glanced at her, "but I still have to come back if I should come back, grandpa has been thinking of you all the time."
"Well, I know mom." Qiao Zhenzhen finished speaking, and reached out and hugged her.
Qin Jing sighed and turned to look at Chi Shen: "Don't you get used to her knowing? If she bullies you, call your aunt."
"Mom!" Qiao Zhenzhen was dissatisfied, "How bad I am in your eyes, how can I always worry that I will bully him."
"Are you doing less bullying?" Qin Jing sneered.
Qiao Zhenzhen curled his lips and couldn't say anything to refute.
Chi Shen was gentle and calm, holding Qin Jing's hand in front of her: "Auntie, don't worry, Zhen Zhen didn't bully me."
"You can protect her." Qin Jing glanced at him helplessly. After hearing the announcement reminding him to board the plane, he urged them to leave.
The two said goodbye to Qin Jing and got on the plane together.
Although the flight tickets were booked earlier, there was a delay after arriving in S city, and it was already more than one in the afternoon when the two arrived home. Qiao Zhenzhen relaxed on the sofa, not wanting to lift his fingers.
Chi Shen sat down beside her and held her hand again: "Tired?"
"...Well," Qiao Zhenzhen closed his eyes, "He obviously didn't do anything, but he was so tired."
Chi Shen looked at her face quietly, and then slowly said, "Whatever you want to eat, I'll cook for you."
Qiao Zhenzhen lightly snorted: "Stop eating, you should take a break, too."
"I'm not tired." Chi Shen replied.
Qiao Zhenzhen laughed: "If you are not tired, take a rest. Just wait for a takeaway."
Chi Shen responded softly when he heard the words, still holding her hand.
The air calmed down again, and Qiao Zhenzhen couldn't help but opened his eyes again and looked at Chi Shen's quiet side face. Since meeting the psychologist, the doctor's words have been planted into her mind like a curse. Whenever she looks at Chi Shen like this, her mind will play the doctor's voice in a loop.
She moved her lips and finally plucked up the courage to talk to him.
"Chi Shen..."
As soon as he called his name, the phone vibrated suddenly, and the two people looked at it at the same time. It was a string of unfamiliar numbers.
Qiao Zhenzhen recognized the phone number of the psychologist at a glance, so he quickly got up with his phone: "Let's take a look at some takeaway. I'll answer the phone first."
After finishing talking, I went back to the study directly.
Chi Shen looked at her hurriedly leaving her back, her eyes gradually darkened.
In the study, after closing the door, Qiao Zhenzhen went straight into the bathroom, and then answered the phone: "Hello, doctor."
"Hello, Miss Qiao, this is the case. When I checked the case, I suddenly found a precedent with similar performance to the patient you described. After thinking about it carefully, I still think I should contact you." The voice of young people.
Qiao Zhenzhen hurriedly responded, "You said."
"That's it. Because I haven't seen myself, everything is just speculation, not a diagnosis. If Miss Qiao wants to get a specific diagnosis, she still needs to take the patient to visit, so you will treat me as not a doctor for the time being, it's just a relationship. Good friends are good."
"I understand, just tell me the doctor." Qiao Zhenzhen pressed his lips.
The sound of turning pages of paper came from the earpiece, and then the doctor: “According to conventional judgments, patients are heavily dependent on a person’s life. They often show that they lose their personality, give them wholeheartedly, and don’t hesitate to give their lives when necessary. , This kind of case develops to the most serious point, that is, it will give rise to self-destructive emotions, and finally cannot control the thoughts of suicide..."
Qiao Zhenzhen's heart became more tense as she listened, and when her energy was tense to break, a slight noise suddenly came from outside the door, and then the bathroom door was pushed open, and she subconsciously raised her head, catching Chi's dark eyes unexpectedly.
She was shocked, the phone fell directly to the ground, and the phone that was playing on the receiver instantly fell into a public release, and the voice of the psychologist sounded in the entire bathroom——
"But no matter how serious the self-destructive emotion is, it will not harm the person who is dependent. But you said that the patient still loses his mind while driving while the other person is sitting in the co-pilot. This shows that his condition is more than just dependence... …I now suspect that he not only has self-destructive emotions, but also has a desire to hurt the dependents. In short, this patient is very dangerous. I think you should bring him to see me as soon as possible."
Qiao Zhenzhen opened his mouth and couldn't make a sound.
Chi Shen looked at her blankly, as if he hadn't heard that the person on the phone was him.
The air is almost stuck.
For a long time, the doctor heard something was wrong and asked tentatively: "Miss Qiao?"
No one answered.
"Miss Qiao? Are you okay?" The doctor's voice was a little anxious.
Qiao Zhenzhen returned to his senses, hurriedly picked up the phone, and responded dryly: "I, I'm fine...I know what you said, I will as soon as possible...I will find you if I need it."
"Okay, let's do this first." The doctor kindly agreed, and then hung up the phone.
The bathroom fell silent again.
For a long time, Qiao Zhenzhen said dryly: "Why did you come in?"
Chi Shen stared at her for a long time: "I thought you were calling Mo Chu."
Qiao Zhenzhen was stunned for a moment: "Why should I fight him..." Halfway through the conversation, she reacted suddenly and asked cautiously, "Do you think I have something with him?"
Chi Shen said nothing.
Qiao Zhenzhen helpless: "I am just friends with him. He has been married a long time ago. The object is my university roommate, and I have children. I will take you to see them next time."
Chi Shen remained silent.
After Qiao Zhenzhen's explanation, he fell into embarrassment again. It took him a long time before he smiled and tried to explain to him: "The call just now was not what you thought..."
"When was it discovered?" Chi Shen interrupted her.
Qiao Zhenzhen pursed his lips: "The day you rescued me from Li Chang."
Sure enough. Chi Shen lowered his eyes.
Qiao Zhenzhen looked at him quietly and approached him cautiously: "Deep, I have no other meaning, I'm just worried about you..."
"Now that I know, what are you going to do?" Chi Shen interrupted her again, "Tell grandpa and grandpa, and then send me abroad like when I was 18 years old? What will you do afterwards, You lied to me and said you would wait for me, but turned around to associate with people?"
His tone was calm, but Qiao Zhenzhen still heard a strong hatred, his heart seemed to be beaten in an instant, and the pain spread from his heart to his body for a second.
She was silent for a moment, and then she spoke a little dumbly: "I'm not associating with anyone."
Chi Shen looked at her with a deep ridicule. Qiao Zhenzhen saw such an aggressive expression on his face for the first time.
"I'm not the original Chi Shen, you can't lie to me," Chi Shen looked at her seriously, "I will not leave, nor will I leave you, let alone let you leave. No matter who you like, you must follow I am together, whether alive or dead."
It was obviously a threat, but there was a hint of despair.
Qiao Zhenzhen's eyes were red, and he bit his lip and hugged him. Chi Shen's dark eyes flashed in a daze, and then he pursed his thin lips, before he said coldly, "I want to kill you, aren't you afraid of me?"
"Will you kill me then?" Qiao Zhenzhen's face was buried in his chest, and his voice sounded muffled.
Chi Shen did not answer, because even he himself was not sure.
"At least when I lost control on the road that day, I wanted to die with you." He finally told the truth.
"Why?" Qiao Zhenzhen raised his head and looked at him. After being quiet, he suddenly remembered something, "...you saw me chatting with Mo Chu?"
Chi Shen looked at her blankly.
"...I really have nothing to do with him, why do you care about him so much?" Qiao Zhenzhen had a headache.
"I said, you can't lie to me, I know you much better than you think." Chi Shen stared into her eyes.
Qiao Zhenzhen was stunned: "When you were abroad... investigate me?"
Chi Shen said nothing, trying to find a bit of disgust in her eyes, but besides being stunned or stunned, he was not bored at all by himself, and he couldn't help being a little disappointed.
Yes, disappointed.
The secret he has hidden away so hard has been discovered by her. I believe that soon more people will discover it. At that time, he will once again become the patient in everyone's eyes, and once again he will be forced to leave his homeland, leave the person he likes, and go to a place unfamiliar with his life to receive treatment until he is'healed' back.
He was tired of this kind of life, and he didn't want to repeat the last part of his life, he just wanted to end it all as soon as possible.
The way to end all this is for Qiao Zhenzhen to treat him a little bit more cruelly, so that he might no longer be soft-hearted and let her belong to him forever.
Qiao Zhenzhen clearly saw the despair and violence in his eyes, and he also knew that he was very dangerous in this state, but the magical thing was that she was not afraid at all. On the contrary, after he revealed his original face, he had some insight in her heart.
It was like when a big knife was hanging over her head, she would be tortured day and night by fear, but when the big knife fell, she would feel that it was nothing more than that.
She was quiet for a moment, and then slowly said: "I don't know how you investigated, but Mo Chu and I really have nothing to do. He chased me when he first went to college, but I refused, and then it was a good friend relationship. He helped me a lot when I started my business. As a thank you I gave him a share of the studio. Now he is my roommate’s boyfriend. We have these relationships."
While speaking, she looked at him firmly, "I have always been the only boyfriend you are, and I have been waiting for you to come back."
Chi Shen's eyes moved slightly, seeming to be a little shaken.
Qiao Zhenzhen let go of him and took a step back. He looked at him coldly, and suddenly couldn't help but punched him, and complained with blushing eyes, "You bastard, you said you would be cured soon. For more than six years, do you know that I am going crazy waiting for you?"
"I still dare not let my grandpa and them know, I'm afraid they will be cautious, I dare not let you know, I'm afraid you don't like me when you are better, my waiting will make you feel burdened, how about you? You won't give me a good treatment, Instead, all day long thinking about making myself more ill, what is the point of our separation for so many years?!"
"Forget it if you pretend to be cured, and you pretend not to like me, do you know how uncomfortable I felt when you said we started again, let's go fart again! I never ended with you!"
The more she talked, the more sad she became, and the hands of Chu Chishen became red. In the end, she knelt down on the ground as if she collapsed, and cried with her face in her hands.
Chi Shen's heart hurts like a needle, and a trace of bewilderment flashes across his face. The hands hanging on both sides of the body are raised, lowered and raised, but he has no courage to take a step forward. He seemed to have become the eighteen-year-old himself again, even if she frowned, he would make him cautious, let alone see her crying.
From knowing that she went to see Mo Chu in City A, countless dark thoughts surfaced in his mind. Even when he came back this time, he planned to completely seal up the house to prevent Qiao Zhenzhen from contacting outsiders. , He also thought about using the most extreme way to keep her by his side forever, but reason has been restraining.
Just now, he thought that the moment she hid and answered Mo Chu's call, the remaining restraint almost disappeared.
However, in the next instant, she cried and complained.
Now, Chi Shen stared at the little girl crying in front of him, hesitated for a long time, and said: "I'm just afraid you will send me away again."
"It's not that I don't like you, but I just want to approach you like a normal person."
"You just don't expose me, don't...leave me, I can pretend to be forever."
Although his voice has improved a lot, he is still hoarse, and he speaks every word seriously, for fear that she will not understand the same.
Qiao Zhenzhen sat on the ground and did not want to look at him. He lowered his head and cried for a long time before calming down. Chi Shen stood quietly in front of her. He took a step back subconsciously until she suddenly raised his head.
Qiao Zhenzhen couldn't hold back his joy: "...Can I eat you?"
Chi Shen stared at her face and couldn't tell whether she was angry or not.
Qiao Zhenzhen glanced at him bitterly and got up from the ground: "Aren't you very good? Are you going to kill me? Why are you afraid of this when I raise my head?"
"...I really had such thoughts." Even though all the secrets were gone, Chi Shen was still a little embarrassed when he said this sentence.
Qiao Zhenzhen sniffed: "Will you really do this then?"
Chi Shen was silent for a long time, but after all he shook his head.
He will not, because she is afraid of pain and hates being indecent, no matter which way to leave the world, no matter how perfect she is, it must be painful and indecent in the end.
Qiao Zhenzhen glanced at him, only to be satisfied: "I know you won't hurt me."
Chi Shen pursed his lips and said nothing.
The two were quiet for a long time, and Qiao Zhenzhen sighed tiredly: "I shouldn't have handed you over in the first place."
Chi Shen's eyes moved slightly.
"I should take you by my side to take care of him." Qiao Zhenzhen reached out and hugged him.
Chi Shen stood there for a long time, but after all he reached out and hugged her.
The body temperature of two people plus one is always greater than two. In addition, the weather is getting hot now, and the bathroom is very stuffy, and I feel a little sweaty when I hug each other.
For a long time, Qiao Zhenzhen asked in a low voice, "So you really haven't liked others, right?" She has to admit that she is a layman, and it is impossible not to mind his past at all.
Chi Shen was silent for a moment: "No."
"Neither did I," Qiao Zhenzhen reciprocated, and hesitated after speaking, "Do you believe it?"
"Trust." Chi Shen answered without hesitation.
Qiao Zhenzhen raised his head: "Really? Why do I think you don't believe me?"
"I believe it." Chi Shen looked into her eyes and repeated.
Qiao Zhenzhen sneered: "Isn't it just saying that I believe, and then turning my head to play blackening for me?"
Chi Shen: "I don't understand."
"I read so many novels, don't you know the word "blackening"?" Qiao Zhenzhen raised an eyebrow.
Chi Shen really didn't understand, but it didn't prevent him from guilty. After quiet, he took the initiative to hug her.
At this moment, all precautions were taken off, and he became relieved in an instant.
Qiao Zhenzhen was strangled by him, but he was too lazy to let him go, so he stayed quietly in his arms.
Chi Shen hugged for a moment before slowly speaking, "I don't know how to make you believe me."
"It's a coincidence, I'm the same," Qiao Zhenzhen paused after speaking, "It seems that there is another way."
"What?" Chi Shen took the initiative to let her go.
Qiao Zhenzhen's gaze turned around on him, and he coughed before opening his mouth: "Try to see if it is the original unopened package, I won't know."
Chi Shen was taken aback for a moment, and suddenly blushed when she understood what she meant.