As a child, my mother would always tell me that when you love something enough, you need to let them go.
I remembered this, as they operated on me. I remembered Daisy, the way her hair looked adorable, even when she didnt brush it. I remembered our one night together, I remembered how her blue eyes looked like lightning against a dark sky. I wish that I could hold her in my arms, tell her that it's okay. It's hard to do these things after you go.
I look at her, lying next to my body. I touch her shoulder, I pretend to hold on to her, but she can't feel me. She can't feel me. Or see me. Or hear me. Or anything.
I could still hear though, a blessing and a curse. I can still hear the heart monitor, gasping for my barley alive body. I dont like Daisy seeing me all covered in blood and hardly alive. I wish I could hold my hands over her eyes and coo into her ear. "Oliver, I'm so dumb... I'm so sorry." She welps onto the sheets.
"How could I let this happen to you. I wish I could goddamn go back to a time where we were normal. This isnt a thing."
I want to just hug her so tight right now.
I can still hear though, a blessing and a curse. I
She holds my hand, well my actual hand.
I feel it.
I jolt awake.
this chapter is really short but hey, ONE CHAPTER LEFTTTTT AHHH IM SO SCARED AND HAPPY AND SAD AND IDK THIS BOOK IS SO BAD WHYAYAYYAYYYYYYY SO YAY THE ENDING IS CLOSE AND CLOSE IS DUMB KINDA BUT YKNOW IM GOOD I MAKE NO SENSE WHY DO I EVEN TRY WELL BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE :33 THX FOR READY A CRAPPY BOOK BY A CRAPPY PERSON AND THIS IS MY LAST AUTHOR'S NOTE AND SO YAY I LOVE YOU ALL AND REMEMBER TO READ MY OTHER THINGS EVEN THOUGH THERE PROBABLY JUST AS TERRIBLE AS THIS AND YA SO BYE. (I DIDN'T PROOFREAD THIS BUT I SPENT LIKE FOUR DAYS ON IT AND I HATE IT AND WANT TO GET ITOUT OF MY LIFE.)