[Khirro's POV]
Annoyed, but I tried my best to act normal in front of mom. Ayaw ko talagang sumama dito sa Bacolod pero hindi ko na ulit gustong makita ang lungkot sa mga mata ni mommy when I refused to her.
Gusto ko mang manatili na lang dito sa bahay pero ayaw kong sirain ang isa sa pangarap ni mommy. Ang makasama nila ako sa bakasyon. It's been 4 years na hindi ako sumasama sa kanila. Pakiramdam ko kasi hindi ko deserve sumaya.
But then, I never expected that going here in Bacolod would be so fun. I met this girl, parang isumpa niya na ako sa sobrang galit niya when I accidentally and intentionally destroyed her sand castle. She even slapped me na kahit si mommy hindi ako nagawang sampalin. Akala ko 'yon na ang una at huling pagkikita namin pero naging kaklase ko siya sa university where I chose to transfer.
I don't want to involve a girl in my life anymore but then, Aestherielle's one of a kind. She's like a drug, addictive and irresistible. Siya 'yong alam kong bawal pero paunti-unting pumapasok sa buhay ko, na nagugustuhan ko.
Siguro nga nasanay lang ako sa presensiya niya kung kaya lagi ko siyang naiisip pero no matter how many times I deny, I'm starting to like her. Nagseselos ako kay #futuremo kahit wala naman akong karapatan. Hindi totoong allergic ako sa sunflower, ayaw ko lang na may ibang tao especially lalaki na nagbibigay sa kaniya ng kung anong bagay. Gusto ko 'yong akin lang ang tanggapin niya. Parang naging blessing in disguise pa nga ang pagkakaroon ko ng lagnat dahil nakasama ko siya ng matagal. Inaalagaan niya ako at natatakot akong masanay.
Her debut came and I felt special to be her last dance. Kahit alam kong masasaktan na naman ako, umaasa ang puso ko na sana may gusto siya sa'kin. Hindi nga ako nabigo dahil umamin siya ng nararamdaman niya sa'kin. She likes me. I felt like I'm the happiest man on earth but then I have hesitations and what ifs. Paano kung malas talaga ako pagdating sa pag-ibig?
I saw her enter the guy's car. I thought she likes me? Bakit iba na agad ang kasama niya? Mas dumagdag ang selos na naramdaman ko nong makikipagkita na sa kaniya si #futuremo. Dapat gumawa ako ng paraan para pigilan ang pagkikita nila pero... Hindi ko nga tinanggap ang feelings niya diba? Ano ang pakialam ko kung sakali?
Mas lalong nawalan ako ng pag-asang suklian ang pagmamahal niya nang naulit ang isa sa pinakanatatakutan ko. I don't deserve her love. I don't deserve her. Mapapahamak lang siya sa'kin.
"I don't like you. "
I felt like my heart shattered into a million pieces. Si Caesium lang ang dahilan ng lahat ng 'to! Ganito ba ako kadali mapalitan? This time, I had enough! I will claim what's mine. I kissed her like there's no one watching. I kissed her like I own her. I set aside all of my fears because with her I learned to be brave again. I need to, I must be so I can protect her. Finally she's mine.
"Let's end this relationship. "
I want to scream but words can't find their way out of my lips.
"Be happy, Khirro. "
With that, she left me. Pumunta siyang USA. She's unfair. How can I be happy if she's my happiness? Watching my happiness turned her back to me is the most painful ever. I know it's all my fault. I am weak! I let her slipped away. My grip isn't that tight to hold her, to let her stay with me. I don't love Shanaiah anymore, all I feel is guilt. Hindi ko makakamit ang totoong kalayaan hanggat may mga taong galit sa'kin kaya even I'm at the lowest state of my life, humingi ako ng tawad sa mga magulang ni Shanaiah. I cried hard while I'm on my knees begging for their forgiveness. I know it's hard for them to forgive me but I hugged them tight when they finally accepted my apology.
Nagpatuloy ako sa pag-aaral. Sinikap kong mabuhay ng normal kahit alam kong may kulang. Nakapagtapos ako, naging engineer na tanging siya lang ang inspirasyon. Ni hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa o napagod man lang sa araw-araw na paghihintay sa kaniya kasi alam ko, nararamdaman ko sa puso ko na babalik siya, na may pag-asa pa kahit walang kasiguraduhang ako pa rin ang mahal niya.
Almost 5 years na pala siyang hindi umuuwi. I promised to mom that I'll bring back Aestherielle and marry her. I'm not doing this for the sake of my promise but this is what my hearts been wanting to do.
"Hey bro? Nasabihan ka na ba ni, Athaliah? "
Inayos ko ang suot na necktie habang nakatingin sa salamin. Kai Smith, my architect friend at magkasama kami lagi sa mga project at ngayon tumawag siya to ask about Athaliah's boutique and bookshop construction.
"Yes, see yah. "
Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng biyahe when heavy rains poured. Fudge! Traffic pa. I looked at my side and I saw Kai's car. Mukhang pareho kami nitong male-late.
Sabay kaming bumaba ng Dahlgren's cafe' and we're 10 minutes late.
"Athaliah's there! "
I fished out my handkerchief from my pocket at nagpupunas ng sarili while approaching Athaliah's location. I sat beside here and when I finished wiping my hair, my phone beeped.
'From: My mommy ♥
Don't be late son for the family dinner with Caled family. '
I replied 'Yes, mom. See you.'
"It's okay, 'di naman kami nainip kasi napasarap din ang kwentuhan namin. Bago ko pala makalimutan, Aestherielle? Meet Architect Kai Smith and Engineer Khirro Nixon Ledesma. Sila ang kilala kong makakatulong sa pagpapatayo ng boutique at bookshop mo. "
Automatic na nag-angat ako ng tingin when I heard the name of the person I've been longing for. I've been missing always.
Our eyes met and I badly want to hug her tight. So tight that she cannot escape anymore.
She has mesmerizing beauty. I was stunned that I can't find my words to talk to her. I missed her so much.
All my hopes died when I heard that she has a boyfriend. Huli na ba ako? Naghintay lang ba ako sa wala? I let out all of my frustrations to her. I even said to her that I never tried waiting when all I did was to wait her every single damn day of my life. That day, we both misunderstood the situation. We talked and ended up having in each other's arms again.
Damn! I really love this girl with every atom of my being. Feels like a fairytale everytime I'm with her. I'm her prince and she's my princess.
Soon, I'll make her my Queen and I'll marry her inside our own castle.
[A/N: Heyyowww my Zingers! ♥ ngayon lang naka-update kasi pinaghandaan ang speech ni Khirro natin 😂.
Khirro natin inlab na inlab 🙊
Stay tuned po! May pahabol update pa. Enjoy reading. ]