NIALL'S POV.
I don't want Louis to kill himself, he's just to fragile. Harry and I would miss him dearly. It's actually Liam's fault, he has hurt that boy, MY best friend that I hold dear to my heart. I walk to the lunch room and find a seat next to Harry, I don't see Louis, I'm getting a bit worried.
"Hey Ni you ok babe?" Harry asks setting his hand on top of my hand. I just look at him and shake my head.
"No I'm not ok, its Louis..h-he seems a little bit off lately." I say looking at Harry.
"Yeah, he seems like he doesn't want to talk any more, he also seems a bit paler too." says Harry looking down at his food.
I just sigh and dump my tray. I don't feel like going to school when Louis isn't here, it just isn't the same. So I decide to ditch the rest of school and try to find Louis so I walk to his house.
I knock on the door and I'm greeted by his mum.
"Hello dear, Louis is in his room." she says opening the door.
"Thanks Mrs. Tomlinson." I say heading upstairs. I knock on his door.
No answer.
I do it a second time.
Still no answer.
I knock a third time, I'm starting to get a bit worried.
I open the door and see Louis lying on the floor unconscious
"Louis!" I yell.
No answer. I go over to him and cradle him into my arms and rush him down to his mum. She gasps and leads us to the car and drives us to the hospital.
LOUIS' POV.
Journal Entry Three
I didn't feel like going to school today, because I knew that HE was going to be there and I don't want to see him ever again! I hate that bloody twat! He can just go wank himself in the corner for all I care! I see him every day with his girlfriend and it just makes me want to cry! I just love him too much it hurts so bad
So I have decided to end my life earlier...
good bye From Louis W. Tomlinson
March 18th 3:30 Sunday.
I sigh as I close my journal and go into the bathroom an pull out a container of pills. I take them to my room and swallow them one bye one until my mind goes blank and my vision goes black and soon I'm out like a light.
NIALL'S POV.
I text Harry that Louis is in the hospital and he comes over right away. I look at the motionless body and Louis' mum and sisters sitting across from him. They look so sad, well every one is them there is a knock on the door.
Liam?! What is that idiot doing here, he is the reason why Louis is hear in the first place. I go to the door and see Liam, he looks sad and confused then I walk out of the room and shut the door. I look him in the eyes.
"What do you want?! Can't you see you have done enough damage to this boy already! You will be lucky if he lives through this Payne." I say poking him in the chest. All he does is look down.
"Look I'm sorry ok! I'm sorry I'm such a jerk to Louis, I'm sorry he is in this mess and yes I admit that I am the one to blame and I get it that you don't like me and I'm pretty sure that Louis is the last person he wants to see right now, but when ever he wakes up can you tell him that im sorry for every ting." Liam says tears forming in his eyes. Maybe he is telling the truth, no I can't give in, be strong Niall.
"Just...go away Liam, no one wants you here." I say coldly. Liam just looks down and walks away. I walk into the room and sit next to Louis. I hold his hand and I can feel Harry's big hands on my shoulders, I can't help but let out a small smile.
"I hop he is ok Haz." I whisper. Harry leans down and kisses me.
"Same here." he whispers back."
LIAM'S POV.
I drive to the hospital and see that Louis is there. I know that it was all because of me, I can call myself a jerk, well every one can I guess, because I have been one lately. I knock on Louis door and Niall comes out and starts to yell at me. The things that he is saying are true. I know that sorry wont cut it. I just hang my head and walk out after Niall tells me to go.
I drive back to my house and run up to my room. I lie on my bed and start to cry. Louis hates me, Danielle hates me, lets just say that every one right now just hates me!
I look up at the ceiling and just stare at the flat surface. why do I have to be in this situation? Why can't I just love one person? I just don't get it. When I look at the time I decide to fall asleep. When I wake up my mum is in my room with a stern look on her face.
"Liam." she says. "Your father will be coming home tonight, you know how your father is, so I want you to come home early and bring Danielle with you as well. Oh and dress nicely too." she says I nod my head and she closes the door.
Great my father...my dad. He wants so much for me. He wants me to be something I'm not I only went out for football to make him happy, but really I want to be a singer. He doesn't even know that I'm bi and to bring that up with him...he will have my head on a plate! I groan and fall back on my bed. I get up and walk over to my closet and pick out a nice shirt and pants and head off to school.
Louis still wasn't there, but Niall and Harry were and they were pretty pissed to see me. The walk over to me along with Danielle.
"Payne!" Niall shouts at me. I turn around. "Horan!" I say back.
"Don't Horan me you stupid git! Louis died twice last night and its all because of you! You did this to him! Your a bloody monster doing that to him." Niall spats at me.
"Doing what?!" I ask
"You know what..he cut himself and tried to kill himself all because you don't love him back!" Harry says trying to keep calm, that failed. Danielle just stands there in horror.
"L-Liam is all of this true?" she says backing up. I just look down and don't know what to say. I look back at here and she just turns around. "I'm sorry Liam I can't do this anymore, I see the way that you look at Louis and I'm not stupid. I know that you almost had sex with him and you also kissed Zayn, your a cheater and a liar Liam. I don't want to see you again, we are done." Danielle says walking away.
"Serves you right ya git." Niall says and shoves my shoulder and walks away with Harry behind him. I can't believe what just happened, my girlfriend just ended it with me and my father is coming home, my day just keeps on getting better and better.
I walk the long corridor and to my class. I can hear whispers about me. I know its about the break up, watch she will come ruining back to me I know just know it. I sit at my desk looking at the empty seat next to me, Louis sat there. I shook my head No, I can't think about him....The rest of the class was just a work day for our project. I got a lot done in that class, I think that our project is going to look good but I'm not sure A+ material maybe a A- or a B.
When class is over I go to the cafeteria and see all of these girls form a crowd around me saying "Liam now that your single...." "Liam go out with me" I just shove them away and get my food and sit alone at a table because I want to be alone right now. Then Zayn comes over.
"Li whats wrong you hanve't been yourself ever since the Louis incident." I just look down.
"Its all my fault Zayn, I know that I brought this on myself and Louis', I feel an idiot right now." I say
Zayn just pats my back "Don't worry Li he will get better soon."
"Zayn it has been two weeks! Louis hasn't been here for two bloody weeks and I'm starting to get worried!" I say pounding on the table.
"Look I know that I don't know much about love but Liam maybe you need to know that deep down you do love Louis and you just don't want to show it because you are afraid of showing it." Zayn says getting up and walking away.
Maybe Zayn is right...maybe I do love Louis and I'm just too afraid to show it. I grab Zayn by the wrist, I open my mouth to say something then Danielle comes over to me.
"Liam, I'm sorry for the way I acted. I don't want us to break up I want us to be back together." she pleads holding on to my hand. I sigh and nod my head. Zayn just looks at me like I have made a big mistake...which I know I have. Danielle hugs me and I hug her back.
"Oh Dani can you come over for dinner tonight?" I ask she nods and I smile. We both head off to class. I look back at Zayn and he just shakes his head in disappointment.
At the Payne house hold
I run to the door hearing the doorbell ring and there stands my father. Standing up straight walking through the door in his Army uniform. He comes over to me and I straighten my posture and salute to him, he salutes back and walks over to Danielle and kisses her hand then kisses my mum.
When dinner was ready we all sat around the table it was quiet at first then my father spoke.
"So Liam how is school going." he asks wiping his mouth. I look him in they eyes "It's good." I say going back to eating my food. My father nods
"How are your grades going?" he asks "I have all A's in my classes." I say half lying. He just frowns "Thats not what your repotr card says." he says showing my report card. it says that I have a D in Bio. I hang my head low. "I'll get it up father." I say in a whisper.
"You know how I feel about you Liam, you are a bright lad but having a D in Bio doesn't help." I just look down. "Liam you need to be the father figure of this family when I'm not here."
I don that father." I say my voice starting to rise.
"Don't use that tone of voice with me Liam." he says standing up.
"Father I-I'm sorry." I say sitting down.
"No Liam your not sorry! All you do is sit around here playing video games and make out with your girlfriend instead of getting your football scholarship and getting your grades up." He says walking over to me and slapping me across the face.
"I don't do that I work my arse off to be the son you want! But have you ever cared about what I want or what I want to do?! I don't want to be a football start I only did that to make you happy I did that for you!" I start to yell
"Well what do you want to be?!" he asks slapping me again.
I hold my cheek and bite my lip "I want to be in a band and sell records, not play pro football." I say sighing. My father just looks at me and frowns
"I'm sorry Liam but I can't let you do that." he says crossing his arms. I look over to my mum and she is telling Danielle that it is time for her to go. Danielle nods and walks past my father and I.
"You know what I don't care what you think I'm going to do it whether you like it or not! There is also something I have wanted to tell you guys for a long time." I look to Ruth and she gives me a No don't do it . Look. I don't listen to the look.
I stand up to my father. "I'm...I'm gay." I say. He just frowns and turns away. "No son of mine is like that....get out you...fag!" he says and punches me again.
"I knew that this would happen." I say coldly. I walk up to my room and grab a few things and walk out. My last words to them were "I hope your happy." then I was out.
LOUIS' POV.
Journal Entry Four.
Today I just got out of the hospital. It really sucked being in there, I hated every minute of it. The nurses said that I died two times while I was under. I wonder what it would feel like to fall asleep and never wake up again? I think that Life would be better and easier.
If I do die, who would care? Who would tell me to stop? To me besides my family and my two friends...no one would.
When I'm done writing I sit back in my bed and think about what would be happen if I was gone and who's lives it would effect.
My mum would devastated ...
Harry and Niall would be very sad probably wouldn't know what to do with their lives...
Liam..oh Liam..I don't really know about him...
Would he miss me?
March 29, 2012 Wednesday 4:12
BOOM CHAP 9 DONE AND DONE. SORRY FOR ALL OF THE MISTAKES IN IT I WAS KINDA RUSHING TO GET IT DONE.
SO ANYWAYS ITS HARRY'S BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!! HE IS GOING TO BE 19...MAN WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE THEY GROW UP TOO FAST I TELL YA :')
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