Chapter 5:
Felix's P.O.V
It's been the whole weekend since I last talked to Jake. I've seen him all day at school, so he isn't exactly avoiding me, he has— we have just been keeping our distance from each other. I sighed as I dumped my bag on the table in front of me, plonking down in the chair, staring up the front. I was early, so when Mr Bates saw me in class already, he had a little freakout.
I sighed closing my eyes as the bell rang through school, shocking me slightly. I sighed opening my eyes to see a girl sitting next to me. My eyes widened when I realised who it was. The long brown hair, the short height— what the hell?
"Ellen?" The girl turned to me with a small smile on her face,
"Hi, Felix." My eyes widened. I think it was the clothes and make up that did it. I never knew my best friend could look so— normal. She wore the school dress, and jumper like it was a normal part of her routine, but from what I remembered, she hated the school dress and never wanted to wear it.
"What happened to you?" Ellen shrugged as if the question I was posing was completely unimportant and didn't matter if it was disregarded.
"I realised I was pretending to be someone I'm not, for someone who doesn't even like me, so I went back to my normal self. And as if you care, you've been a jerk to me the last few days." I scoffed at her, still confused about the entirety of the situation.
"Ellen, you've been avoiding me or ignoring me. I haven't even had a chance to talk to you. That and I was giving you space because you seemed pretty pissed last Monday." Ellen stopped and thought for a moment,
"But what about before that? When we were walking to school? You were a jerk to me then," I rolled my eyes,
"We both said we had this weird feeling that the day was going to be different, and we were right, I was just acting weird because of the feeling." Ellen just continued to stare at me,
"So it was all me?" I nodded lightly. Ellen gasped,
"Oh god Felix I am so sorry— oh god— and I said I liked you— oh my— I urr— I'm really sorry." I shrugged at her, not really bothered by the notion of her liking me anymore, I was worried about if Jake still liked me,
It was so hard to reject him and not tell him about myself when he asked, but the look on his face when I told him to leave, tore the tiny fracture of my heart that I had managed to rip back together, almost ready to give it to him.
"Trust me, last Monday was really weird, so don't worry about it— but what is with the clothes?" Ellen sighed, almost slipping back into the Ellen I used to know, but she didn't.
"I just wanted to fit in again. Felix, I am really sorry, I hope you know that." I smiled weakly at her. I knew where she was coming from with that one. I guess she was sick of all the bullying and ridicule.
"Yeah, I know. But it doesn't change anything. Now you can go and be whoever you want to be, and I guess we can go what we call 'Our separate ways' yeah?" Ellen nodded,
"But we can still talk yeah?" I nodded,
"Sure— but right now, we need to be paying attention in class." Ellen nodded before pulling out a book and getting to work. I followed suit. Eventually class was over, and Ellen left me and went straight over to one of the popular girls, Mia. I scoffed, a look of disgust crossing my face,
"Weird—" I muttered, but someone else muttered it from behind me as well. I turned around to see Jake standing there. I closed my eyes, turning around again, pretending I didn't see him,
"So what, are you just ignoring me now?" I rolled my eyes and did really ignore him. Jake sighed before sadly following me. I quickened my pace by just a bit, and in no time, I made my way to the back of the school. I stopped when I was sure no one would see us,
"Why are you talking to me right now?" Jake sighed,
"The better question is why aren't you talking to me right now?" I sighed turning around to face him,
"Jake— it's a bad idea to be seen with each other at school unless of course, you want to become the bullied instead of the bully," Jake growled before coming over to me, grabbing my hips and shoving me against the wall. As hard as it was, I really liked Jake doing that to me. My eyes widened and I shook the thought from my head,
"What were you thinking about just then?" Jake asked. My eyes widened again and I shook my head. The consideration of even considering saying that thought out loud was blasphemy, and I wasn't going to ever say it— I think—
"Nope— not telling you," Jake growled, pulling me away from the wall and shoving me into it again. I bit my lip, holding back a moan— I never knew being thrown against things felt so nice—
"Do it again," Oh shit my eyes widened as Jake stared at me confused,
"Do what again?" I groaned, throwing my head back against the wall, annoyed that any sound even left my mouth. I wish that I could just find a hole to crawl into and die!
"Don't worry," Jake smirked, pulling me from the wall and throwing me back against it. This time I moaned. Jake smirked,
"You little— god you just get better with every passing day." I blushed looking away from Jake. The thought that something like that aroused me, made me both very confused and very excited.
"What do you want?" Jake sighed at me, a shy look on his face. From the sounds of it, he doesn't hate me just yet.
"I wanted to make sure you were okay after last week." I frowned at the memory of what happened last Friday when I almost blew my cover. I didn't want Jake to know I had anorexia— I mean, I fucking lost it when I found out Oscar knew.
"Oh— I'm fine, I just— you just asked a question that I coul— didn't want to answer." Jake made an 'oh' face as if understanding where I was coming from.
"Right— sorry, I didn't mean to tackle you, and I really didn't mean to pry. I hope you know I mean that " I nodded, smiling weakly at him because that tackle didn't at all hurt me. I was so frail under my clothes, but no one ever notices, thankfully, of course, it was going to fucking hurt like hell,
"Don't worry— I know you didn't mean it," Jake's smiled turned into a smirk,
"Well— now that I have you alone for the next half an hour until lunch is over—" I smirked at Jake, wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him hard onto my lips. His lips were chapped again— this was seriously the first thing I noticed? Why? I sighed into the kiss as I trailed one hand from its place around Jake's neck to the bottom of his shirt where I grabbed a hold.
Jake stiffened and gripped my hip tighter, pushing himself into me more. I smiled and almost laughed, which allowed Jake to enter my mouth. I moaned as his tongue explored my mouth quickly and viciously. I groaned grabbing a hold of the hair at the back of his neck and pulling, this caused Jake to throw his head back and groan. I smirked and attacked his neck with my mouth, kissing his Adam's apple lightly causing him to groan.
One of his hands lashed up to grab my head and forces it into his neck more. I laughed, my tongue flicking out and licking his Adam's apple. This caused Jake to grip my hair tighter causing me to moan and throw my head back giving Jake the advantage to my neck— not that I cared,
"Your turn Felix," Jake smirked up at me. I groaned closing my eyes as Jake's lips moved ever so slowly along my neck, from my chin to just below my ears, which made me groan. Jake smirked and kissed my spot, before biting down and licking. I moaned gripping his head,
"Jake—" I couldn't say anything else, it was too good. I was blinded by— who knows what; that I didn't see the head in the far corner of my eye. Jake finally pulled away I sighed and leant more into the wall.
"Whoa," I muttered and Jake nodded, agreeing with me.
"'Whoa' is right," Our breathing was in laboured pants. Geez, if I knew kissing someone would give me so much energy, I might consider participating in sport sometimes. But maybe it was only kissing Jake that did that to me. I wouldn't know— Jake then suddenly laughed; I was confused as hell,
"What?" Jake laughed even harder moving away from me. I frowned, "What?" Jake laughed even harder, before waving his hands,
"Don't worry, it's nothing, you just have a hickey." My eyes widened and lashed up to the place under my ear. I growled but then smirked,
"Okay— you're a jerk, but you have a very red mark on your neck," I muttered before running off, leaving Jake standing on his own in his own wave of shock.
Sam's P.O.V
I swear I didn't mean to find out— I was just looking for a place to hide from Mia so she doesn't kill me. I mean— I know I'm not going to tell anyone— it's just wow— I have never seen two guys together before, let alone two polar opposite guys. It's weird because I had never made out with Mia as passionately as they made out with each other.
I kinda understand what they're feeling— or I think I did because right now that is all I want to do to a certain nerd boy. I sighed before running from the couple, I suddenly felt lonely. I wanted someone I could talk to. When I saw him again, he was what some people would say close, by that, I meant he was a few metres away. I gasped— this was it. I had to talk to him— get to know him, have him get to know me. I am so talking to Jake after this.
When I knew I was finally close enough to Andy to talk to him, I finally talked,
"Hey, Dude—" Seriously— that's what I say? Oh god, I'm turning into a dork. Andy looked up and looked around himself, before looking at me,
"Are you talking to me?" I nodded smiling lightly,
"Yep, the one and only— I guess." Andy looked confused. He was so cute,
"Statistics say that when a person of a higher class is talking to someone of a lower class, they generally want something or they wish to beat me up," I let out the laugh at the random fact,
"Well, it is a no, to both of those facts from me. I just wanted to talk to you," Oh my, god how does Jake be around Felix without losing it?! Andy looked confused,
"Did you want me to do your homework or something?" I scoffed,
"I ain't that dumb, I know how to do my own homework— it just takes me a while sometimes—" Andy let out a little laugh. I looked around confused,
"Are you laughing at me?" Andy nodded lightly, and I laughed with him,
"Okay, I admit, I am a tad bit stupid. But that doesn't mean you get to laugh at me!" I nudged Andy lightly on the shoulder and he froze. Oh crap— did I do something wrong?
"Why did you do that?" I shrugged, deciding to play it cool,
"That's what friends do." Andy looked confused,
"We're friends?" I don't think this is going how I planned—
Felix's P.O.V
I stopped running shortly after ditching Jake. I laughed lightly at his memory of his face as I ran off. I looked up from the ground to see Sam talking to the uber nerd, Andy Lau. They must have heard me because Sam turned to face me. The second he saw me, he blushed and ran off after giving Andy a quick goodbye. There was a look in his eyes that said he didn't want to leave Andy and I knew instantly— he likes Andy.
Then something popped into my head— to be exact Sam's head. My eyes widened and I realised it, I didn't properly see it before, I was distracted. Holy crap— Sam caught Jake and I— oh shit are we screwed.
Jake's P.O.V
I sat on the ground behind the building that I had followed Felix to after class. I smiled to myself, I can't believe it. Felix is finally mine, after almost two months of weirdness, Felix is finally mine, and if anyone decides to say he isn't, then you better run fast. Unless it's Felix, then I'll just kiss it out of him.
My thoughts were interrupted by footsteps coming around the building. I looked up hoping it was Felix coming back, but I was saddened to see it was only Sam,
"Hey— how did you know I was here?" Sam blushed,
"Hey, Dude— I followed you and Felix—" he trailed off and prepared himself to run. I sighed and gestured for him to come over. I rolled my eyes,
"Well I'm not going to hit you, and there is no way in hell I am getting up until the bell." Sam laughed lightly and came over, sitting down in front of me. It was obvious Sam didn't know what to say, so I asked it for him.
"Let me guess. You want to know what's going on between Felix and me." Sam shook his head, "Then what do you want?" Sam sighed,
"When I said I followed you earlier, I saw you and Felix— you know— getting whatever it was on— and I knew I needed to talk to you." I frowned. What on earth can Sam possibly be asking me about when it comes to relationships?! He should know more than I do!
"Talk about what to me?" Sam sighed blushing looking away. This was weird. I've never known Sam to be so evasive about something before. Has something happened and I didn't notice?
"I um— well you know how I broke up with Mia?" I nodded as Sam continued. This story was going somewhere, yet I still had no clue. All I can think I relationships, yet I can't think of anything for Sam—
"Yeah, well that's because I like someone else." I nodded before asking,
"It's not me or Felix is it?" Sam's eyes widened and he laughed lightly. Honestly, I don't know why I asked the question, I just wanted to get it in the air and off my chest; although I don't know why it was there in the first place.
"Oh god no, I could never— just no. Felix is too weird for me and well— you're my mate so if there was any ever chance. Just no." I laughed,
"Okay, so who do you like?" Sam sighed blushing again.
"Okay, so you know that nerd boy, Andy Lau?" I nodded seeing where this was going.
"You like Andy?" Sam nodded blushing. I couldn't help but—
"Aww, that's so cute— does he know?" Sam's eyes widened,
"Oh god no, how long was it until you said something to Felix about your feelings?" I frowned and looked down,
"Almost two months and I said something only a week ago. But I guess if you were to look at us now, you wouldn't be able to tell." Sam shook his head, his usual smile back on his face,
"Nope, I would have guessed you'd been together for months." I blushed and punched him in the shoulder.
"I don't know if what you said was a good or a bad thing." Sam laughed just as the bell went off. I sighed standing up,
"Come on Dude, let's get to class." I nodded, helping Sam up. As we walked out from behind the building, no one noticed us, which was weird. It's like everyone has been acting really weird lately. I shrugged the thought and moved on with getting to class.
Felix's P.O.V
The bell rang shortly after my conversation with Andy. Well, it wasn't as much as a conversation as it was a questioning, but now I knew Sam told him nothing about what he saw happening between Jake and I. While I was at my locker, I quickly slid in my snake bites which I had gotten rid of for the last few weeks.
I was still tense as I arrived to class but when I arrived, Ellen had already taken the seat next to Mia, which left me with a seat next to— Sam. Oh, fuck off! This can't be happening. I groaned throwing my head back and going to my seat. I sat down, I tried to have as little communication with Sam as possible, but it seemed he didn't want that,
"Hey Dude," I sighed turning slightly to him,
"Sam." I only acknowledged him, I am not going to have a conversation with this— oh I can't think of an insult right now. I'm too tired; I really need to go to sleep sooner— but then if I go to sleep sooner, there's that higher risk of me having a nightmare. Yep, I am so sticking with only two hours sleep. I placed my head on the desk, as usual, that is something I am not changing just because I am stuck with Sam sitting next to me.
"So what you been up to?" I jumped at the sound of Sam's voice. I turned to check that he wasn't talking to me— but sadly he was. I sighed rolling my eyes turning back away. Sam sighed in return, "Look, I know about you and you know who. I'm not gonna say anything if that's what you're scared of Dude. Look trust me, I've already talked to him and he is fine with it. Because trust me, I'm just like you guys." I frowned sitting up and turning to Sam,
"What the hell do you mean by that?" Sam sighed before surveying the room. When he knew no one was paying attention to us he continued on,
"I'm well, gay— or bi, I don't really know." I scoffed rolling my eyes,
"What makes you think that I am gay or bi?" Sam smiled,
"Well that bruise doesn't look very normal— and neither does that hickey of yours," I instinctively moved my shirt around to cover the bruise which was still fading, and the new hickey,
"That and I saw you with Jake doing some pretty intense things." I scoffed but gave up sighed, resting my head on the desk again. I really need to get some distance between Jake and me, when I realised something. Without raising my head off the desk, I continued talking to Sam,
"So who made you think you were bi?" I tacked on afterwards "Or gay?" Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Sam make a face.
"I so know you won't believe this Dude, but it's Andy Lau." I nodded, I guess I assumed right with the way he was talking to the nerd earlier. I smirked but hid it well,
"I guess I could believe you." Sam smiled,
"Thank god, just as long as you don't hate me for accidentally catching you." I shrugged,
"Doesn't matter now, especially now that I know you aren't going to tell anyone because now I have something that will go against you too. So if you talk— I talk got it?" Sam nodded. I really need to re-brush up on my blackmail skills, I haven't used them for so long.
I sighed sitting up and pulling my book out, as I did so, Sam poked me in the shoulder while still looking at the teacher. I looked at him to see he was holding a piece of paper to me. I sighed taking it from his hand and quickly reading it to myself,
'Hang out after class?' I sighed before nodding, knowing exactly who it was from. Great— this is gonna be a long day.