Jimin pov:
I now sitting in frustration after having a talk with my dad . They asked are we ready because the marraige will be in one week I said I will say in few hours ..
I would love to say yes ..but I maybe selfish because I don't want myself to get hurt again... Jungkook needs to know this isn't a game it's a serious bond and we have to be with eachother life long.. mating is such a precious thing every wolves wait afterall.
Even if it is alpha or omega it's still such a precious one . Telling ourselves and others we arr mates it's such a great and proud thing ... But I don't think Jungkook is getting it...
Like yeah I love him so much but he doesn't even have a tiny bit of trust yesterday when I was talking to my friend in phone and he is asking me the same question again . Like hell.. I didn't met him in long time and tryna tell him I would be married soon .
But Jungkook he is asking me am I cheating again.. I am tired of convincing him. Like I wouldn't be there talking with my friend near him if I was cheating on him would I !?
I called kook...
" Hello" I said
" Hi Jimin" he said .
" Jungkook let's talk a little" I said
" Yeah tell " I sighed
" Not here come to my appartment " I said
" Mm. I will be there in few " he said
" Bye Jungkook. Luv you " I said softly
" I too" he said I sighed sadly he doesn't even say back...I literally did the most hardest thing and if it all happened again I will be heartbroken like hell. God knows how many months I spent in that how many body pains I had ... I felt my eyes getting watery.
" No Jimin.. he wouldn't do that again" I said to myself and sat on couch.
I heard the door opened . I turned and saw kook. I smiled slightly welcoming him.
" Hi " I said
" Hi " he said and sat near me .
" Why you called me ?!" He asked .
" This...is important Jungkook" I said he looked at me serious and concerned.
" Jungkook... Are you in any chance getting out of love with me?!" I asked and he looked at me shocked .
" No way in hell why would I !" He said I sighed .
" Jungkook.. this isn't getting in a good way .. we were trying to take a huge step and you are mostly doubting me .. even for simple things .. I don't think you are being full true to the whole marraige thing" I said softly he looked at me
" I ... I was just asking were you cheating on me ?! What would that do with marraige ?!" He asked is he really this dumb...
" Jungkook... marraige isn't a simple thing . It can only work with trust, love , and care at every situation . I repeat again if you said you are out if love with me now .. it will be atleast fine for you too move . But if it's marraige we become mates and at that time if you tell me you are out of love I can't take that " I said honestly .
" No ! Jimin. Why would I ?! Why would I go out of love with you " he said angrily
" Because it's getting like that Jungkook ..please don't hurt me at the edge I beg you" I said getting weak I looked up and gained myself courage.
" No...I didn't " he said slowly like trying to get things in.
" I think... We don't need to rush things out Jungkook.. " I said he looked at me glaring .
" What ?!" He asked angrily
" I would like to postpone the marraige after two months ..." I said he looked at me with the look of betrayal .. I didn't even did anything so bad why is he looking at me like that
" Are you postponding it cause you are loving someone else ?!" He looked at me as if I was disgusting .
" Don't you dare speak such things about me " I said voice dangerous my scent threatening him let him have it he wanna know what is he talking about .
" Jimin.. j-jimin your scent " he said stuttering feeling hard to breathe I controlled it and rolled my eyes in annoyance and anger .
" Where the hell did I even started seeming like a cheater to you huh?!" I asked gritting my teeth he gulped .
" I .. I " I chuckled .
" Don't have a answer do you?!" I asked staring dangerously at him . He insulted me much I didn't even flirted or looked at anyone wrong way.
" I need some time " I said breaking the silence he looked at me with glassy eyes I turned away
" Why?! Jimin..." He said .
" Please don't do this to me I love you so much jimin" he said I fisted my palm . Lies... Again..lies...
" Don't you dare take my love for you as advantage and lie to me " I said darkly he came and hold my hand which is on my knee.
" I don't really never take advantage of anything jimin.. and do you think I don't love you" he asked softly I pulled my hands away from his..
" Yes . You don't ever call me names I didn't mind tho because you maybe shy again and I didn't spat at you when you first accused me for panting and say it as cheating . But you did it again and again . You didn't trust me even a tiny bit " I took a deep breathe and continued
" When all I did was trying to give you literally all my best . My all best . I tried to keep you as happy as you can . I showered you with all love I have . I never crossed any limits . I never made you feel unsafe or bothered did I !?" I asked he shook his head
" I never made you feel like that or uncomfortable with me . I asked you those many questions that day because I want to take a new step with you .. and when you answered I was super happy but ... Now noticing your behaviour I don't think... I even did that thing for you.. and now it's gonna be come..with lots of my efforts and pains just to show you I am all serious about this matter and ready to take responsibility you do this .. again all again." I said gritting my teeth.
" I didn't jimin...I was just.." he started saying I pulled him close by arms harshly making him face me
" Just what huh ?! Wanna hurt this little toy you are using " I said harshly he looked at me hurt even I was hurted he is not the only one hurted here.
" Jimin..it hurts " he said I left his arms afterall I can't just hurt him even if I wanted to..
" Just why are you being like this kook... I am totally done with you being like this. It makes me feel you don't even love m-" I was cut off by his lips on mine ..he kissed me I didn't kissed back even if I wanted to I don't cus I want answer .. I don't want my love to think low of me doubt me .
He sighed and pulled away .
" I was scared Jimin..." He said I looked at him confused .
" I was thinking I wasn't enough for you.. I thought you got someone who doesn't restrict you from having them . Who can fulfill your needs .. I thought when you panted I was aldready insecure and that made me think otherwise .. I thought you are .. getting fun .. you .." I just looked at him blankly fuck it does he think that low of me .. I got up not saying anything and went to my room shutting it .
" Jimin open the door " he said I didn't respond . He opened the door with the key I gave him . I chuckled to myself. I really did that right.. and he thinks I will be cheating on him. When I gave him even my room key and he thinks I would be fucking someone in this room.
" Jimin" he said softly I didn't turn
" Go away " I said coldly.
" Jimin...my insecurities took best of me ... Believe me " he said crying and sat on his knees in front of me I didn't looked at him.
" Jimin..trust me please " I chuckled
" Did you ever trusted me even a little bit .. I tried my whole heart Jungkook and still if your insecurities took you I don't know what else to do " I said
" I am sorry jimin.." he said crying I sighed it hurts me to see him like this but he did this he hurt me too .. still I can't let him have pain .. love is really something .
I slowly took his face in my hands making him look at me .
" I have never and never will cheat on you Jungkook... And don't forget I told you I am a virgin too and wanna do after marriage and the person I am gonna marry is you " I said he looked at me crying I sighed even when I know I shouldn't let this easily I can't see him hurt like this .
I wiped his tears . " Don't just tell me I am a cheater please .. I took all you said when you talked low of my job I didn't said anything because I don't want us to fight for everything . But you know even if it's just a translation job I still work non stop without sleeping some days and nowadays I take double the amount of work just so I could make more money for our marraige . I do other one thing I was doing for months for you and only you.. know and it took me all in me . The pain I had every night when I went to sleep. It's all hard but I took it for you"
" Wanna show you I am ready to take risks and responsibilities for you for us .. and when you are being like this .. it just makes me rethink my decision I did it with strong belief that we will be with eachother forever but after the marraige stuff you started getting more more wierder " I said softly crying myself
" You wouldn't know how it would be when you did all you can and recieve a lowest thing from your love " I said softy crying hard he shook his head and wiped my tears .
" No.. you are not low Jimin all you did was care for me love me made me happy" he said even it maybe a lie I still wanna believe it just so the pain in my heart can less a little
" Even if it maybe a lie thank you" I said he shook his head
" No I am saying truth .. I am just thinking. I am not enough for you Jimin.." he said I looked at him he cried silently I looked at him sadly ..
" Why always you wanna make things hard when we can be happy Jungkook?!.." I asked softly caressing his cheeks he nodded crying harder .
" I am ..right.. I am such a nauisance aren't I !?" He asked I nodded childishly he made a pout. I chuckled while crying .
" But I still don't want you to be hurt... And want the best for us . I think I am idiot" I said he shook his head .
" You are an angel " he said looking at me . I sighed .
" I will just tell we can have marraige in one month hmm" I said and he looked at me sadly for few minutes. Before nodding . I smiled faintly and stood up he grabbed my hands and hugged me tightly. I hugged back stroking his back he cried hard .
" I am sorry hyung, I love you so so much don't leave me " he said I stroked his back softly making him relax in my arms .
" I will not baby~ we both just need some time it's not long too just one month " I said softly he leaned in and I kissed him softly he gone weak in my arms I held his waist protectively and placed him near my body .
" You are getting weak and you look so lean . I will go and cook for you " I said and pulled away he chuckled and backhugged me .
" Jungkook?!" I asked .
" No prepare me food with me being like this I don't wanna leave you" he said childishly I just nodded chuckling .
" Fuck my insecurities this king will only love me " he said to himself but I got it I giggled .
" This king only loves you baby true . So cut off your relationship with that insecurities " I said childishly and he faked cutting something near his head . I laughed .
" Cutie " I said softly after so many days having fun with him..after clearing things out .
" Your cutie tho" he said with his bunny smile .
" My cute muscle bunny" I said and he blushed and hid his face on my shoulder
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