Chapter 8
☆Her Pain☆
••Kuting,Jade Soleil's POv••
"My Queen, gising kana?" I asked in front of Aristia's door while knocking but no one's answering.
Humawak ako sa door knob at pinihit ito dahil hindi ito naka lock then I entered.
Humakbang ako papasok at nakita si My Queen na nakadapa habang mahimbing na natutulog.
I wanna smile seeing her peacefully sleeping but i can't cause I know that she's in pain but still, she's forcing herself to keep moving forward, to keep going.
Umupo ako sa tabi ng kama nya para gisingin na sya.
"My Queen gising na." Mahinang sabi ko sabay tapik sa kanya. She just moved a bit pero tulog parin.
Seems like puyat na naman at sobrang pagod.
Pagod sa training araw-araw dahil doon nya na binubuhos atensyon nya at puyat dahil alam kong nagpupunta na sya sa mansion nya dati para pasikretong bisitahin si Trisha kahit sandali bago tuluyang matapos ang araw nya.
Naaawa nako kay My Queen.
She moved again at nakita ko ang panibagong peklat sa braso nya na hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko alam kung saan nya nakuha dahil sa kabila ay mula kay Vlad ng barilin sya noon nito.
It's been almost 2 months now since we got hospitalized at pag labas namin nagbago na si My Queen.
I just can't explain but her eyes are now more like empty. Hindi narin sya nagbibiro basta and worst ilap narin kung minsan or maybe dahil busy lang talaga sya kaka ensayo kaya wala ng time.
"My Queen, wake up.." I called again and this time nagmulat na sya.
Her brows narrowed at lumayo nako unti dahil babangon na sya sabay iwas ko ng tingin dahil iba narin trip nya ngayon.
She's sleeping with her clothes off and reason? Masakit daw masyado katawan nya para magdamit pa kaya maski kumot manipis narin.
Ikaw ba naman mag pabugbog araw-araw whole day tignan natin kung hindi malamog katawan mo.
Napabuntong hininga nalang ako at tumayo na para pumunta sa closet nya.
I just grabbed a pair of clothes for her to used at pa atras rin na bumalik na parang t*ng* lang.
"Here." I said while handing her clothes pero walang tumanggap.
"Woii my Queen damit mo, baka naman gusto mong tanggapin?" Tanong ko pero wala talaga kaya dahan-dahan akong napalingon sa gawi nya.
Her bare back is the first thing i saw na maraming malalaking pasa.
"My Queen.." I softly called but she just remained seating on the side bed habang nakatingin sa labas ng bintana at walang imik.
"It's their wedding day soon.." she uttered like she's talking to herself.
I sighed..
Dahil parang simple lang yung kataga na yon pero dama ko yung matinding sakit na kinikimkim nya ngayon knowing na kada gigising ka ay palapit na ng palapit yung araw na sa iba na mangangako yung taong mahal mo, yung taong nangangako sayo noon.
I grabbed her blanket then i covered it behind her to wrapped around her body bago yumakap sa likuran nya.
I didn't say anything like i used to but just remained silent cause honestly parang naubusan nako ng sasabihin sa kanya para maging ok sya.
She needs to move on on her own. Na kayanin nya para hindi na sya mahirapan kahit mag isa cause nothing is permanent in this world.
Love is not always sweetness, kilig and joy. It's not always about feeling the butterflies in your stomach dahil kapag nag mahal ka normal yung pain and realize that you need to sacrifice for them even sacrifice the happiness pag kasama sya and trying to forget the memories na mahirap kalimutan pero kailangan.
There's time that you need to set him/her free kahit na sobrang hirap, sobrang sakit dahil iyon yung sa tingin mong makakabuti and i think that she knows it really well.
"Jade.. I'm trying, I really do.. I'm on that process now, pero pwede bang kahit ngayon lang ulit pwede bang~~~" she cut her words at alam ko na kahit nakatalikod sya sakin ay tahimik na naman syang naiyak ngayon.
"Iyak mo lang My Queen, i won't judge, no one will.." I said and as if on cue umiyak na sya.
"You're doing good My Queen.. proud ako sayo..just cry, walang masama as long as you know when to stop." Mahinang sabi ko.
I rested my chin on her shoulder at humawak naman sya ng mahigpit sa kamay ko habang nakatungong umiiyak.
We remained like that without minding the time hanggang sa kusa na syang tumigil.
"My... my clothes." She said sabay pigil sa hikbi.
I handed her 'her clothes na tinanggap nya naman kaya lumayo nako.
I saw her bare back again and closer, i saw how bruised and swollen it is. Na gi guilty tuloy akong yumakap pa ko sa likuran nya na for sure masakit, kaya nga hindi na nagdadamit pag tulog eh tapos....
Ay nako Jade Soliel... wala ka talagang silbi, hindi ka nag iisip.
I want to pull my hair ng tumayo naman na si My Queen na sinundan ko ng tingin.
She tied up her hair and acted like nothing happened dahil dama ko panlalamig nya.
"My Queen, pahinga ka kaya muna sa training mo today?" Sabi ko na kinatigil nya sandali.
"I can't... I'll just get bored." She said and I know that she's just making excuse dahil alam kong ayaw nya lang na walang gagawin dahil malulungkot na naman sya mag isa kaya tumayo nako.
"Mall tayo my Queen, samahan mo ko mag grocery." Aya ko na kinalingon nya then I pout, giving her a pitiful looked.
"Ask the maids or butlers to accompany you."
"Hala.. sila aayain ko eh mas magaling pa nga ko makipag laban sa mga yon, baka ending ako pa magtanggol pag may manambang sakin." Honest na sabi ko na kinalingon nya sakin.
"Kaya mo na pala mag isa, then go alone. I can't right now." She said sabay checked sa mga pasa nya.
Napa pout ako sabay yakap sa unan nya habang pinagmamasdan sya.
In just a short time naging firm na pangangatawan ni My Queen. She have muscles that appeared in right places again since 6years rin yon walang ensayo kaya nawala but now ay parang mas bumongga kaya feeling ko tuloy nagpapa sexy sya lalo.
Nako. Ngayon palang ako na ngingisi pag nakita nila gaano ka sexy at kung gaano mas lalong gumanda si My Queen kahit broken.
"Stop drolling on me Jade Soliel." My Queen said at agad akong natauhan and noticed na literal na pala kong nakanganga. I'm not yet drolling nakanganga lang talaga.
"My Queen, pwede bang mahawakan abs mo?" Biro ko dahil kapa nya yung tyan nya.
Natigilan sya sa ginagawa nya sabay kunot noong tumingin sakin sandali tapos humakbang palapit.
Kumabog kabog yung puso ko at napatingala sa kanya sabay lunok dahil para nya nakong kakainin ng buhay sa paraan ng pag titig nya.
Kalmado mata nya pero para syang naka deathglare kaya subconsciously akong napa atras at lapag ng unan sa kama.
"M-My Queen j-joke lang." Kabadong sabi ko at napahiga na.
Shocks! Yung puso ko parang kakawala na sa dibdib ko.
She was about to remove her shirt ng napakaripas nako ng takbo palabas ng makita ko naman si Raven na lalagpasan ko na sana ng hatakin nya pabalik damit ko mula sa likuran na agad kong kinabalik.
"At san ka tatakbo kuting? Diba sabi ko gisingin mo amo mo?" Raven said at mas hinigpitan kapit at para akong nasakal.
"Ahhh.. awwww!!" Inda ko at agad nagbukas kwarto ni My Queen at salubong na kilay syang napatingin samin.
My jaw felt like literally dropped on the floor when i stared at her.
"Ganyan lang susuotin mo?" Raven asked to her dahil naka sports bra at naka female boxer short nalang si My Queen dahil wala na yung suot nya kanina.
Shocks! Naghubad talaga.
"It's more comfortable like this. Besides I'll be stock in a room alone anyway." Balewalang sabi nya sabay tingin sakin.
"Let her go." My Queen commanded.
Raven released me from his grasped at napaubo ubo pa ko sabay deathglare sa kanya pero mata nya na kay my Queen lang kaya parang gusto ko na syang gulpihin sa mga sandaling to.
"I'm sorry." Raven sincerely said out of nowhere kaya napatingin ako kay My Queen.
"It's fine." Yun lang sinabi nya sabay layas.
"Anong meron?" Di mapigil kong tanong sabay tingin kay Raven.
"Muntik na kitang patayin." Seryosong sabi ni Raven na kinakunot ng noo ko sabay layas nya narin.
Ang gulo talaga nilang dalawa kausap.
Napailing nalang ako at nag pasyang sundan si My Queen since mamaya pa training namin at wala kong gagawin so I'll just wait nalang till she's done since ngayon lang ako nag ka time sumunod sa kanya.
I asked the reaper kung nasaan si Aristia at sinabi nila na nasa chamber room raw.
Namilog mata ko at mabilis na nag punta roon and like a flash naunahan pa ko ni Raven.
He was just standing there crossing his arms while staring on the glass window kung saan kita yung loob kaya lumapit narin ako roon.
I saw my Queen na nakahiga na sa metal bed mag isa habang may mga doctor sa paligid nya na balot na balot.
"Intensify the pain." I heard at may pinag pipipindot sila roon sa machine na nasa harapan nila.
"What are they doing?" I asked dahil ito nalang atang chamber room nato ang hindi ko pa nasusubukan pasukin dahil yung mga reapers na ng galing dito, yung iba namatay nalang.
"Have you experienced the most excruciating pain but the wounds are invisible?" Raven uttered na kinalingon ko sa kanya na nagtataka pero mata nya nasa harapan lang ng hawakan nya pulsuhan ko at pinahawak sa metal na nakapaligid sa glass window.
Agad akong napasigaw sa sakit at bitaw nya agad sakin.
Parang akong pinagbabaril at kinuryente ng meron napakataas na bultahe sa ilang segundo ng yon.
"That's just 5% of pain she's feeling right now." Namilog mga mata ko.
"W-what?!"
"She's training herself to endure the most excruciating pain that her body can handle." Raven said in serious tone at agad napabalik tingin ko kay my Queen na nakapikit lang habang kuyom ang kamao.
Is that the reason why her body seems like too sensitive right now cause she is forcing herself to bare this kind of training?
5%? Eh halos parang papatayin nako sa sakit?
"In then you just gonna watched her?!" I glared at Raven na parang walang narinig.
Agad akong lumapit sa mental door and grabbed the knob ngunit agad akong tumilapon kakahawak ko palang nito.
"Arghh!! F*ck!!" I groaned in pain.
What the hell was that?
"Ohh, i forgot to tell you that once you were inside, no one can enter unless you are ready to feel the 15% of pain from that person who's doing the session." Agad akong napatingin kay Raven na nakapamulsa lang.
Mahigpit akong humawak ang nangangatog na kamay ko na wala naman kahit anong sugat pero dama ko parin yung sakit na para bang paulit-ulit itong hinihiwa at parang nasusunog.
Dama ko pag patak ng pawis ko dahil sa sakit. I glared at Raven na parang kung may kakayahan lang magbaon sa lupa yung mga tingin ko ay for sure nasa 6ft underground na sya.
"Tell me Raven... what you really want to gain from Aristia?" Seryoso kong tanong na kinalingon nya sakin.
"Entertainment." He replied sabay ngisi.
My fist clenched and any minute parang handa nakong makipag bakbakan.
"Go inside.. get your Queen." He said at lumayas na.
Kusang nagbukas ang pinto at mabilis akong napatayo upang pumasok sa loob.
I approached her when i saw her just laying there at kitang kita ko halos mga ugat nya at balat na halos nangingitim pa at mga mata nyang kulay pula.
Memories flooded inside my head when the family she thought who loves her used her as Guinea pig for their experiments.
Aristia got up from the metal bed na tagaktak ang pawis at kitang kita ko pangangatog ng katawan nya.
"My Queen." I called and she was about to fall dahil sa panghihina kaya humawak agad ako sa kanya ng agad syang napasigaw sa sakit.
Mabilis akong napabitaw at mabilis na lumapit rin ang ilan mga doctor.
They didn't touch her but they quickly injected something to her at agad kong sinugod yung gumawa non at kwinelyuhan.
"What did you put in her?" Kita ang takot sa mga mata nito habang inaangat ko na sya.
"I-its a substance to stop her body to became swollen after the session." He said at kita kong mukhang nagsasabi naman sya ng totoo.
"Jade.. it's fine.. I'm fine." Napalingon ako kay my Queen na ngayo'y balik na sa dati ang kulay nya pati mga mata nya na ngayo'y malamlam na nakatingin sakin.
Agad kong binitawan yung doctor at lumapit.
"Let's go to your training now." She said at parang piniga yung puso ko na isipin na dito sya nang gagaling bago nya ko ih training mismo.
Wala kong alam. I just thought that she's with Raven dahil hindi naman ako napunta rito.
"Hey, are you ok?" She softly asked at hindi ko man lang namalayan naka lapit na sya.
"Hindi pa tayo nag ti training, naiyak kana." Nakangiting sabi nya habang punas luha ko.
"My Queen... do you really still need to do this?" Natigilan sya at taka akong tinitigan that's why i just continued.
"Everyone thought you are dead already, you can live your life even as a normal person away from mafia, away from this.. no one will gonna go after you My Queen."
Aristia smiled bitterly.
"I know i can but... Trisha will gonna need me... she will gonna need my protection one of this days, I can't just let her get hurt even if i die in the end."
"My Queen.."
"This is my fate.. I can't easily escape no matter what I do... that's why.... i need to regain my throne after Vladimir tie the knot to her." She added and i can see the pain in her eyes.
"I'll get back my throne after he got married." She said kasabay ng patak ng luha nya at sandal ng noo nya sa balikat ko.
"Just for today... just today..." she whispered then i smiled bitterly.
"Cry my Quenn.. I'll stay.." I said at umiyak na syang muli at yumakap sakin ganun narin ako.