Jayami POV
December 24 2021
1 day before Christmas
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I was otp with Toni she was showing me videos of her boxing Aysa sister(is that's her sister Paige?)
We was otp all night to...
"Dang u did that's gurl bogus"I said laughing
She then laughed after
I was going to invite her over to the Christmas Dinner to make olé guhh jealous and mostly of all to enjoy myself and make a memory with her .
"Toni"I said I don't know why but I feel a lil nervous 😬
"Wsp"she said all cheesy 😭👋
"U wanna come to our Christmas Dinner"I asked
Her
"No...Duhh"sh said laughing
"Ok bring extra cloths"I told her
"Ok well bye I got to eat"I said throwing up the peace sign and she copied and hung up .
I went to peck down stairs to see what they were doing
They were all laughing and my "dad" and my mom was all hugged up on Mirah and stuff all smiley
Ngl I was hurt 😞 that's shii hit hard asl
I went up stairs to get my slides I had on sum shorts and a crop top...I wanted to freeze to death 💀
(Funny way to do suicid)
I walked down the stairs they didn't even see me and I know I was in a very noticeable spot .
I just went down stairs it was snowing
I didn't even care I just wanted to die not because I'm jealous that's my dad and my mom was all on mirah just because
I fell unloved . . .
I was cold as fuck I felt my nose slowly turning red and my skin was burning a little .
I wanted that . . .
But I knew Toni probably needed me.
I texted her .
Wifey 😩❤️
I have a question ?
Toni:go for it....
If I killed myself how would I feel?
Toni:I would cry forever cause yh are my only true friend...but keep yo head high Jay jay ❤️🥺
You loved this message
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I don't want her to be stuck on me forever she has a life to live.
Maybe I'll try another time...
I walked home cold as fuck
I went inside the the house they were still all smiley
When I slammed the door real hard out of anger....
They all turned to me my dad scrunched his face up
"Why the hell u look so cold"he said
"I was outside duhhh"I said popped my lips out
"We left u some food" my "brother" said
I walked into the kitchen cause I was hungry not because he said so . . .
I went in there to see 1/4 of a pancake in there
1 half a bacon and no eggs wit no Serb...
"Wtf is this"I said looking at the cause wtf y'all really don't care bout me . . .
"Be grateful that we cooked u something"my mom said
Bitch just trying to empress that man the dick can't be that good ima ignore her cause ion wanna say nun that's would hurt her feelings 😭
"Y'all really left me with 1/4 a damn pancake a half of ONEEEE Focking bacon ate all the eggs and serb WTF BREAKFAST IS THIS minds we'll kill my self " I yell the one part
"Y'all didn't even think about me WALKING IN HERE LOOKING LIKE A GODDAMN SNOW MAN"I yelled at them
"Sorry -"Mirah said
"BITCH SHUT UP FOR I COME OVER THERE AND DECK U RIGHT IN YO MF THROAT"I yelled knowing my face was red and my vains piping out I was crying to
I just went up in my room they down but it's all good . . . Not really
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Ok I'm making a lot. And posting one a day so yea
I hevent been posting I'll start
But not every day because I got school
It might be like 40 parts or 50 but I Don't think 50 because I'm lazy
And I just remembered to do my homework
On Augesg 31 2021
The I gatta study so I can re-do my test to at least make it to a B but I got a low C because I didn't study at first 😭
And I be trying to make the story's 500 word or more
It's 700 words now
Lol 😂
😭😭😭😭