So Busani and I finally moved to his house and I must say his house is beautiful well I guess for other girls is wouldn't it has a black grey and black colored furniture a double story house and we obviously don't share rooms and it's been three months since we have been married and have been loving together
I try to avoid him by all means necessary but the problem is he has been wanting us to have sex and I have been telling him the same thing that I am not going to sleep with him but at night he always comes to my room and starts touching me some nights I just become weak and let him touch me but it has never got to the point where we have sex he just finger fucks me
And I've started locking my door recently....so anyway I have started working and I have some acquaintances and a friendly PA Ayanda and now it's knock off time today has been hectic yho I hate mondays
Ayanda:I'm going home Mihle byeee
She's so bubbly yaz
Me:bye babes see you tomorrow
I pack up and as I go out of my office I bump into someone and my handbag falls yerr
Me:watch where you go marniie
Voice:ngiyaxolisa MaDlamini
Damn that voice is deep...I look up and it's my boss dammit I just yelled at my boss Mr Langa Khoza
Me:I'm sorry Mr Khoza I didn't mean to yell at you
Him:its okay I wasn't watching where I was going.....going home?
Me:yes sir
He smiles damn this man is so hot yho
Him:please call me Langa
Me:okay Langa it is then
I smile and he smiles back
Him:let me walk you to your car
Me:okay
Him:what are you going to do when you get home
Me:just eat and watch tv....why
Him:maybe we could go out for dinner as friends
Me:well.....
Him:come on like I said as friends
Me:okay let's go
We go out he goes to his car and I go to mine and I follow him we get to this beautiful restaurant and he helps me out of my car I take my handbag and we enter the restaurant
We have been eating and talking he is a good guy and it turns out he has a girlfriend and they are going through a rough patch he opened up to me and I did the same and told him about Busani it feels good to talk to someone who isn't related to Busani even though he knows him because Busani is kinda famous for the work he does
Him:he is a jerk and as for your parents I cant believe they would do that to their own daughter they are selfish
Me:I haven't talked to them or seen them in 3 months and I have accepted it and well my brothers they were there for me but lately they have been distant even Ndalo I don't even know what happened but it's fine
Him:well I'm your new big brother and bestfriend
We both laugh
Me:how old are you
Him:36 years old
Me:haaa mkhulu
We laugh again....he is really great company we go to our cars and we share a hug and we go our separate ways I get 'home' and Busani is already home well what did I expect its 10PM already I get in and as I'm about to go upstairs.....
Busani:ubuyaphi ngaleskathi(where are you coming from at this time)
Me:ohh you're still awake
Him:I asked you a question Buseka don't piss me off
Me:I was having dinner with a friend
Him: which one because I know it's not Ndalo because I called her
Me:you wouldn't know him
Him:him? So it's a man Buseka you come home late at night and you tell me with a man
He said slightly raising his voice
Me:it's a friend Busani ufuna ndithini voetsek ke because I had a long day and you're interrogating me
And by then I was shouting at him too and he was so close to me.....I felt a sting on my left cheek he slapped tears started falling
Me:Busani you slapped
Busani:yes I did..so?? ungidelela kwam ubuya mawuthanda ubusy namanye amadoda ngathi uyazilibala ukuthi ushadile
Me:Busani it was just dinner
He held me by my neck
Him:ungincisha ucantsi something you should be giving me ulala naye lomfana ubunaye
I'm so scared right I've never seen him this pissed and I'm crying so historically
Me:Busani please I'm sorry...please let me go
Him:yabona namhlanje uzonginika lento kudala ngiyifuna asambe
He pushes me up the stairs....is he going to force himself on me??god please help me....we get to his room he drips of all the clothes I had on even the undergarments
Me:Busani please don't do this
Him:get not the bed,lay on your back and open your legs
Me:Busani no
He slaps me again
Him:ngiqed'ukthini kuwena manje marniie
I get on the bed and lay on my back and open my legs why do my parents hate me so much he strips and gets on top of me and starts kissing me so deep I don't respond until he starts rubbing my clit I hate how my body is betraying me he starts kissing my neck and sucking on it
Me:ndiyakucela Busani dont do this
Him:shhhhh....I'll be gentle don't worry
He always says he's going to be gentle but ends up doing the opposite he fucked me so hard I was begging him to stop but my pleas fell on deaf ears.....so like I got raped by my 'husband's and he hit me he has broken me I give up
Now we are in the bathtub and my back is facing him him and my back is on his chest I'm so numb and I'm crying
Him:stop crying we are husband and wife we should be doing this....don't you ever come back the time you did today are we clear??
I nod
Me:Busani you forced yourself on me I didn't want to have sex with you I told you that you have a girlfriend I don't even know if you use protection with her or not but you just fucked me raw I don't want any disease Busani at the beginning I was willing to give this marriage a chance and maybe eventually fall in love with you but you have done nothing but disrespect me and humiliate me every chance you get and you told you have a girlfriend I accepted that and gave you your space I just went to have a meal with a friend someone I now consider my friend and big brother because in this one night he has helped me deal with everything that happened to me since we got married since Ndalo and my brothers have been distant and you hit me and force yourself on I hope you are happy Busani...
He keeps quiet for like an hour I dont know if he is thinking or what....I need to get out of this bathtub the water is getting cold
Me:let's dry up the water is getting cold
We get out dry up and lotion up and we are using his stuff mine are in my room and he wants me to sleep in his room....we get into bed and he cuddles me
Him:Yamihle Buseka Bhengu I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you especially tonight I think I'm falling for you but I didn't want to move on it and it was because I have a girlfriend but ever since I met you I fell out of love with her and I was scared of loving and admitting it to you please I'm sorry tonightI was going to confessto you but I didn't find you at home and I got pissed....I would like for us to work on our marriage even though I think with everything I did to you...you wouldn't want that even if you don't answer now please think about it....
I am speechless sana yhoo...he kisses my forehead and lips then says..
Him:goodnight mkami
We drifted off to sleep....