I am sitting at a luxury restaurant inside Taeyeon's Ranch. I am alone with her in this table. Sooyoung and the rest of the girls have left already. Obviously, Taeyeon won.
She forced me to choose! Now I don't know how to face Sooyoung. She must've been hurt because I chose to stay because that can only also mean that I choose Taeyeon over her.
I don't wanna choose between them. They are both precious to me. But something in me that tells me to stay. Because it will be harder to accept that I hurt Taeyeon for choosing Sooyoung. Is this even normal? I feel like I'm not myself anymore. My actions and decisions are unpredictable anymore. It's like I lost control.
"How do you like the place?" Taeyeon's voice brought me back in reality. I look up to her and she seems very calm while staring at me.
"I've just seen the front, Taeyeon. But so far, it's good. I like it." I nod my head.
"I'll tour you around the Ranch after eating." She declared. I just nod at her as a response.
She cleared her throat, seemingly nervous to say what's on her mind. "Did you eat breakfast?" Her eyes is shaking. She can't hold her stare at me anymore. So, you're guilty huh?
"I did." I said in a cold manner. I can't help it! The thought of her rejecting me came back in my mind. And the fact that she may be with Jessica this morning bothered me the most.
"Ohh.." She once again cleared her throat while she shifted uncomfortably on her seat. It's like as if she wanted to say something but she can't bring herself to say it. I raised an eyebrow.
Suddenly, I felt my phone vibrate on my pocket. I fished it out to see my mother's name flashing on the screen.
"It's my mom. I'll just answer this." I didn't wait for her response as I answered the call.
"Mom?"
"Finally! We've been waiting for your call, sweetie. I just can't help it anymore. I miss you so much." I heard a sense of worried but at the same time, relieve on her voice. Right. I haven't contact them for a week. I was planning to contact them every weekend though. And I think it kinda slip out of my mind today.
"I'm sorry, mom. I'll call you every weekend."
"That'll be great. Also, Tiffany. Siwon called me yesterday. He said you've broke up with him because of a misunderstanding. He asked for your address..."
"You gave it!?" I almost shouted. The woman in front of me eyed me worriedly.
"Well, yeah. I feel bad for him..."
"He cheated on me, mom!" I said in gritted teeth.
"Oh no! I didn't know. I'm sorry, sweetie."
I sighed. "It's fine."
"I think he's on his way though. I'm really sorry, Tiffany."
"He won't see me there. I'm out."
"Where are you?"
"Uhhh... Ranch?"
There was a pause before she spoke once again. "Who are you with?"
"A friend." I pouted. I saw Taeyeon raised her eyebrow. I think she knew that we're talking about her.
"What is this friend name?" My mom just won't stop asking. She's always like this.
"Taeyeon." I said in a low voice. I kinda felt embarrassed to say her name. Don't ask me why!
"Okay. I'll hang up now. You take care and be a good girl. I miss you, sweetie. I love you."
"Sure. I miss you more, mom. And I love you. Tell dad too. You both take care there."
We said our final goodbyes before she hang up. I always let my parents hang up first. I don't know why. Force of habit I guess.
"Is your mom worried 'cause you're with me?" Taeyeon asked. Insecurity is very evident on her voice.
"Nah. She's cool." I waved my hand to dismiss that thought.
"I really like you, Tiffany." She leaned forward as she stared at me carefully.
"Uhh... Okay?" I blink my eyes quite a few times. I didn't expected her to say that. Like, out of nowhere?
"I'm serious." She said like as if I don't believe her.
"Are you really?" I raised an eyebrow.
"Yes." She said immediately without an hesitation.
"Who were you cooking breakfast for?" I crossed my arm on my chest.
"I..." She cleared her throat. Now she's nervous. "I always cook for you." She hesitantly said.
"I meant this morning." I glared at her. I saw her fiddle her fingers nervously. This is fun! She's so cute! Now I know why she chose to be cold. Seeing someone nervous in front of you is fun. I love this view of her.
"Ohh... I... cooked for a friend."
"Who's this friend?"
"Jessica." She replied without an hesitation. I blinked my eyes several times. I didn't really expected her to be so honest.
"And who is this Jessica?" I squinted my eyes. It's now or never.
"I think you perfectly know who she is." She eyed me with a challenging expression. I raised an eyebrow.
"The girls told me she's your girlfriend. How could you say you like me if you have a girlfriend?"
"Very simple, I can speak." She smirked.
"So you really have a girlfriend, Kim Taeyeon?" I glared at her.
"No. I was just teasing you. Geezz!" She fan herself using her hand as she look away.
"Did you bring the foods to her?"
"Yes."
I huffed. I knew it! She was with that girl. She is still meeting her ex. Who am I to complain anyways? We're not together. I'm not even sure if I really like her in that way. And I'm still contemplating about that kind of relationship with a girl. I'm in no place to be possessive.
"Look, I'm sorry for treating you that way. The girls are there. I'm not used to show them my warm side anymore."
"But I'm used of your warm side." I quickly cut her off. Her eyes widened. It's like as if she finally realized the reason why I'm sulking. "Whatever." I rolled my eyes.
"Please don't be mad? I'm willing to do anything." She said with an hopeful eyes.
"Really?"
"Yes."
"Where is she?"
"Who?" She furrowed her eyebrows.
"Where is Jessica?"
"I'm afraid I can't tell you that now." She pouted.
"You said you're willing to do anything. Guess not." I shrugged nonchalantly.
"Fine. I'll bring you to her tomorrow." She glared. I kissed the air in front of her as I smiled sheepishly. She rolled her eyes but I saw a ghost of smile on her face.
Soon after, our pasta came. I've been eating too much of meats and seafoods from the past week so I decided to eat pasta today. Taeyeon just ordered the same as mine so yeah. We're eating the same thing.
"How was your day? Did Jeonju met your expectations?" She asked while we're eating.
I nod my head yes. "It was better."
"Where did you go by the way?"
"We went to Hanok Village. We ate at the kimbap restaurant of the ahjumma."
"Really? That's great! She makes the best kimbap in Jeonju." Taeyeon chuckled.
"You didn't told me that you made the kimbap you gave me on the first day of class." I squinted my eyes on her.
"Not my fault if you expected me for buying it somewhere." She shrugged teasingly at me. I rolled my eyes. Right. It was me who assumed that. How would I know? It's my first time meeting her that day and all I heard about her is nothing but bad accusations.
"When did you made that kimbap though?"
"When you left the apartment." She answered coolly. "I actually cooked us breakfast that day but I'm aware that you've heard quite a few words about me, so I don't wanna scare you away so I let you go and find your breakfast. I made the kimbap for alternative just in case you didn't found something since we're running late." She explained more than she has to. She's very cute though. I wanna pinch her cheeks.
Now I know why was she late that day. She made me a kimbap! She didn't mind getting late on our first day of class just to make me a food to eat! Now I just felt so much in debt to her. How can she be so kind on our first time meeting each other? How can a cold woman become so warm to someone she have never met before?
"Why?"
"Excuse me?" She tilted her head, didn't understood what I was asking her.
"Why are you so kind to me?"
"Do I really need to answer that? Shouldn't it be just normal for people to be kind?"
"But that's not normal to you. People know you as a cold blooded person, Taeyeon."
"I know that. And I want you to be different from them. I want you to look at me as me. The warm and real Kim Taeyeon. Not the rich with accusations hanging on her sleeves Taeyeon. Do you understand?" She gave me a warm sweet smile.
"Why me all of people?"
"Simple. I like you." She didn't even think twice to say that.
I cleared my throat. I can feel the butterflies in my stomach. My cheeks is heating up as I'm blushing from the fact that she sincerely likes me. I couldn't even look at her. But her eyes, I can feel them staring at me.
After our little chitchat, we continue eating the remaining foods quietly. But it was a comfortable silence which I actually appreciate a lot. I wouldn't be able to finish my food if it was awkward.
"Let's ride my horses." She said after we eat.
"Not so fast, Tae. We just ate." I said as I rub my full tummy.
I didn't hear her say anything so I look up just to see her smiling widely while staring at me.
"Why?" I raised an eyebrow.
"You called me Tae." She giggled.
"Ohh..." I was speechless. Am I getting too comfortable around her?
"Don't worry it's not a bad thing. I like it." She held my hand on top of the table. I just realized, she likes to hold my hand. And I don't seem to bother at all. I kinda like it too.
"Let's go. I'll introduce my horses to you." She cheekily smiled. I shook my head with a smile on my face. She's cute as fuck!
We made our way to the horse's shelters. There are a lot of them. Taeyeon took turn on her right as I followed suit. There, is a stable that's sheltering 4 horses. There are 3 adult horses and a baby. I noticed the one she's riding a while ago that has a brown skin.
"Let me present to you, my personal horses." She smiled widely as she open her arms.
"Your personal horses eh?" I chuckled.
"Yep. They're mine. No one can ride them but me."
"Which one's your favorite then?" I smirked.
"There's no such thing as favoritism here, Ms. Tiffany. Come, let me tell you how did I got them." She rested her hand at the small of my back. I can't help but to focus on her hand there. My heart is beating fast. What are you doing to me, Kim Taeyeon?
"So, this is my very first horse. Her name is Luna." She pointed to the white horse that is quietly eating. "I've had her since highschool. It was my father's gift to me." She chuckled. I saw a bit of bitterness in her eyes though. What's wrong?
"The next one is Sol." She pointed to the brown horse that she ride a while ago. "He's been with me after two years of having Luna."
"And yeah, this is Galaxias." She gently rubbed the skin of the black horse.
"Last but not the least, Venus. Sol and Luna's daughter." She smiled sheepishly as she pulled me closer to her.
"Why are their names like that?" I curiously asked. Those are some unique names.
"You see, I'm in love with the universe." She started and just by talking about it, I can see how her eyes lit up in excitement.
"Specifically the moon. I just feel like there's some sort of connection between me and the moon. So when my father gave me my first horse, I didn't know what to name her. Simply because I was young and I haven't think about it. But as days and weeks passes by, I realized that there's some sort of connection between me and this horse too. Almost the same as the moon. So I decided to name her Luna. The latin name for the moon." She removed her hand from my back and I was a little disappointed until she held my hand. She intertwined our fingers carefully and when she saw that I'm not resisting, she held me firmly but in a gentle manner.
She pulled me to walk closer to the brown horse. "I named him Sol. The latin name for Sun. Simply because I know that Luna needed someone or some horse for that matter to be in her side." She cutely corrected herself. I chuckled and she smiled. Then she pulled me to the black horse.
"I named him Galaxias, the greek word for Galaxy. I want him to know that he is not alone. Sol and Luna are together because of him." I nod my head. At this point, I truely believe that she loves the universe. After all, naming her horses after these celestial bodies in the universe says a lot to it.
"And of course, our new baby, Venus. As you can see, she's a Skewbald. A two colored horse. Mixing the color of her mother and father. I named her Venus simply because I want her to remember that no matter what color she has, she is beautiful. And we love her." I felt my heart melting when I heard that.
"That's adorable, Tae." I said, touched by her thoughts.
"Thanks." She giggled shyly.
"How do you take care of them?"
"I always visit them every weekend. At weekdays, they have their caretakers. As I said, they are not allowed to be touched by others. They are exclusively mine. So I ride them every week. I also trained them whenever I'm free."
"Isn't it hard?"
"It is hard. But I like them so much so I'll do everything I can to take care of them." She said with a deeper meaning. I know she's also referring to me. She said she likes me and that's why she's taking a good care of me since the first day.
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