Y/n's POV
People say everything happens for a reason. But the why the fuck did I happen.
I was a mistake which is something my parents loved to remind me of. I had to go junior year of high school twice because I wasn't smart enough. My girlfriend and the only one I truly loved broke my heart In senior year of college after we had dated for two years. And two years ago my parents past. Not that I ever was close to them if they ever cared about me but it was still something and now I have nothing I don't know what to do
I keep my days occupied with training and hanging with the few friends I have. Most of them on the national team of my club team in Seattle.
Most of them know about my life but I keep it to myself that it is affecting me as much as it is
Some days is better then others. Today is a bad day. I feel like a failure and noting is going my way. This morning at breakfast I stumbled and got apple juice over both me and Kelley which wasn't to big of a deal when you have known the girls for 7 almost 8 years but it's still a bad start of the day
We then went to practice number one where it's started of okey. I played okey. Nothing over the moon but wasn't horrible. We then went to lunch were much didn't happen
But second practice. I couldn't pass a ball straight or to the right person. If I wanted the ball at Tobins feet Alex got it by her head. It was horrible and this happens all practice so when Vlatko blew his whistle to end practice I didn't even care about showering I just grabbed my stuff and walked to the bus. No one spoke to me which I was happy about but I know someone is going to do it sooner or later
I have stepped out the shower and put some clothes one before falling on my bed grabbing my phone not wanting to interrupt Alex who is on a call with her husband as Charlie play around next to her on the bed
We switch roommates every camp but I got lucky to land with one of my best friends. When I first got here I was roomed with Alex who had played on the team for three years. She quickly became to older sister I never had and after that we have been as close as siblings. We fight like siblings and we act like siblings. I would also have to claim the title as Charlie's favorite aunt
I don't even notice Alex leaving the room with Charlie and then coming back sitting in her bed. "You alright?" She ask. Something I don't hear as I continue to stare out in the blue
"Y/n" At the sound of my name I look at her. "I said are you alright?" Giving me a look of empathy
I give her a small smile saying. "I'm fine" Even tho I think we both know that isn't true but I hope she doesn't question it. Which didn't happen
"Hey, talk to me. We both know that something is on your mind after practice" I look down at my fingers and start to fiddle with the string of her Orlando hoodie that I just so happen to be wearing
"What ever you say to me here. Will stay here. In this room. You know that right"
"I don't have anything to tell you" I say in a quieter voice then I usually use giving away that I'm lying
"Y/n. Please" At this point she is practically pleading for me to tell her. "What ever you tell me will stay between you and I"
She always knows how to get to me and I kinda hate it. "I feel like a failure. Nothing goes my way. Everyone say everything happens for a reason but in my life it doesn't. In my life everything happens to kill me. I'm 30 and single while all my friends get married and start families. Nothing goes my way and the only thing I have is soccer. Life fucking sucks" When I'm done I'm crying but a par of arms wrap around me as I'm laying down on the bed
I cry into Alex's should for a good 20 minutes before I calm down but I still don't move being to tired to care
"I know that you probably don't want to talk more about it. But let me help you. I can't change the past but get your life back to where you want it is something I can help with. So starting with thing number one. Why are you single"
I debate if I should tell her the truth or lie but land on the truth. "Because I'm scared"
"Scared to get rejected? Scared to fall in love? Scared to ask someone out?"
"All of the above"
"So there is someone that occupies your mind" I blush knowing it's true because one midfielder do live in my head
"So tell me. Do I know her"
"Yea"
"Tell me more"
Knowing she will find out sooner or later I just spit it out. "Kristie Mewis"
"On the team?"
"Yes. Who else"
"Just checking. Now why haven't you asked her out"
"Because she out of my league and if she don't want to go out it will get so awkward. Not just between the two of us but on the team in general"
"Okey. We need to skip that bull shit. Just look at Tobs and Chris"
"That's something else. They were eye fucking each other before they got together"
"Okey do something cute or sweet then. She won't be able to say no and if the first date don't work out it can't be that awkward"
"Fine but you need to help me"
"Okey. Hers the plan. We are going out for dinner in an hour. You will dress up in the white button up you have along with the dark blue suit pants you bring every were. Then I will fix a red rose. On the way back you will pull her aside and ask her. Simple as that"
"It actually sound kinda difficult buts sure"
Well it work and I'm now married soooo it kinda did work. Gonna need to thank Alex the next time I see her