Author's Note: Because it's my birthday today, here's a gift :) Thank you so much for supporting me and this book, Team ShiKi. For better or for worse, let's keep holding on. ♥
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9:02pm
Kise: You didn't come to school. Why?
Kise: I wanted to talk to you.
9:30pm
Ken: I'm sick.
Kise: Really?
Ken: Yes.
9:35pm
Kise: You're not lying?
Ken: I'm not!
Seen 9:37pm
Kise: Yes, you are. You didn't come to school because you knew we're going to be there for the practice game.
Kise: You can't face me, you can't face him! That's the truth!
Seen 9:38pm
9:46pm
Kise: See? You're a coward.
Seen 9:48pm
Kise: Why don't you explain? Enlighten me about everything.
Kise: Because honestly, I don't know what to think anymore.
9:50pm
Kise: Shinomiya Kenly!
9:52pm
Kise: I need an explanation!
Seen 9:53pm
Ken: You can't understand me, Ryouta.
Kise: I know I'm an idiot, but I have a brain. And right now all I need is your explanation.
Shinomiya Ken is typing..
Kise: I don't want to get mad at you. I don't want to hate you. So please..
Kise: Please explain and tell me everything about your past with Kasamatsu-senpai. I want to understand you and your reasons for not telling me the truth.
10:06pm
Ken: Kasamatsu Yukio and I didn't have a closure. I'm so sorry for not telling you that.
Seen 10:06pm
Kise: So your relationship never ended?
Kise: What does that make me?
Ken: Sometimes, not having a closure is a closure, Ryouta.
10:09pm
Kise: No, it's not! Because he's still hoping for a chance even until now! He's still inlove with you!
Ken: I don't care, okay? I don't give a fuck!
Seen 10:10pm
Kise: You're so cruel. After you left him, that's all you have to say?
Ken: Don't you judge me! You don't know anything!
Kise: Then tell me! Why did you left Kasamatsu-senpai and why did you lie to me! For the sake of my sanity, stop being so selfish for once!
10:12pm
Kise: You don't know how much that hurts! To know that everything we had is a lie!
Ken: What we had isn't a lie! I know you know that!
10:13pm
Kise: I'm not your boyfriend, Kenly Eah Shinomiya. Kasamatsu Yukio is! And I even called him off yesterday when in the first place, you were never mine!
Ken: What the fuck, Ryouta! Stop that! Kasamatsu Yukio and I are over! That's it!
Kise: That's not what he told me.
Ken: So you're choosing his words over mine?
10:15pm
Kise: He's my friend.
Ken: How about me?
Seen 10:16pm
Kise: I love you. But I don't know where I stand in your life anymore.
10:19pm
Kise: Do you really love me?
Ken: Yes, I do. You know that, Ryouta.
10:20pm
Kise: Then did you love Kasamatsu-senpai? Why did you leave him?
10:30pm
Ken: Because I gave up. You're right, I was a coward. Maybe I still am until now because I can't face him after what I did.
10:32pm
Kise: No. You were cruel and selfish enough to just leave him without even saying anything.
Ken: I'm not!
Seen 10:33pm
Ken: You have no right to judge me! I know I made a mistake, but I'm sorry for it!
Ken: I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I left him for his own sake! I had no choice, I was still so young.
Kise: What do you mean?
10:35pm
Ken: His mother despised me and my family because of us being the talk of the town. Our reputation being an illegitimate family and my mother being a mistress, we were so poor and we had to do everything just to get by.
Ken: Yuki's family didn't approve of our relationship, they tried every means possible just to separate us. They even talked to my mother about it, they insulted her and told her how much of a whore she was.
Seen 10:37pm
Ken: I couldn't understand why they were so against us, but then his friend told me Yuki was already betrothed to another girl even before we met.
Ken: Yuki never let me go, he kept on holding on. They cut off his allowance and treated him indifferently. But he stayed by my side no matter what.
Seen 10:39pm
Ken: I loved him so much, and I knew he loved me as much as I did.
Ken: He said that it's going to be okay as long as I'm with him. He wouldn't mind everything as long as I tell him that I love him.
Seen 10:42pm
Ken: Then one day, when I came home from school, we were already thrown out of our house. Our things were already all over the street. The owner of the apartment said we had to leave because somebody bought the entire place.
Ken: I didn't know if it's Yuki's family or my father's legal wife again, but I was depressed seeing my family cry and homeless again.
Kise Ryouta is typing..
Ken: I got a call from Yuki after that it was his mother who bought the house to get rid of us. He said he couldn't take it anymore. He said he'd wait at the park where we used to hang out and that we'd run away together.
Seen 10:46pm
Ken: For the young me back then, it was so overwhelming. Him choosing me over his family.
Ken: But I loved him so much, I could never let him do the wrong thing. We were still so young, what future was waiting for us if we had actually ran away together?
Ken: He was so precious to me that's why I couldn't let him throw away his life just for me.
Ken: So for his sake, I didn't come to our meeting place. To stop my family's suffering too, we moved here in our current house without telling anybody. Even him.
Ken: I blocked him in my account, in my phone, in everything. Our common friends had been such a great help too, they didn't tell him where I am or any news about me.
Seen 10:48pm
Ken: Guilt consumed me every second of my life since then. I didn't know if I did the right thing, but I had no choice.
Ken: I cried and cried. Yuki was all I had, it was very painful.
Kise Ryouta is typing..
Ken: Years had passed and I thought I was going to be okay alone. But you happened..
Ken: You came and made me fall for you.
Seen 10:50pm
Ken: And now it's happening again. I'm crying because I think I'm losing something so important and precious to me again.
Seen 10:51pm
Ken: You made me forget all the pain, Ryouta. You became my happiness.
Seen 10:52pm
Ken: I'm so sorry I lied to you. I'm sorry I didn't tell you everything. You were only someone I met on the internet back then and I couldn't tell you about how complicated my past with Yuki was.
Ken: I didn't expect US to happen. I didn't expect I would love you this much.
Ken: I didn't know how I could correct the lie I told you. I wanted to tell you the truth but I didn't know where to start. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Ryouta.
Seen 10:54pm
Ken: Please don't hate me..
10:55pm
Kise: Never.
Ken: Please don't leave me..
10:56pm
Kise: I'd die without you.
Seen 10:57pm
Ken: I love you so much, Ryouta..
10:58pm
Kise: Open the door and I'll tell you how much I love you too.
Seen 10:59pm