Hello everyone! I am SUPER sorry for the wait for this chapter! This story is just in a weird place in the manga and all that. After this chapter, I will be going back to older chapters and rewriting them, some just slightly but others might have big changes in them. Anyways, I hope you all enjoy this chapter!
P.S. I've hopefully got something awesome on the way soon! Can't wait to show you all once I've got it!
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Ryuji POV
"Tin Can, tell us where that damned Deku is" Katsuki says to me in an unusually serious voice
Pause for a second.
"What? Why would you think I know where that idiot is?" I ask
"Don't play dumb with me! We all know you've got something to hide, you always do!" He says
"Back off Katsuki, I'm tired and just wanna go to my roo-" I'm cut off
"Ryuji, please just tell us. I know you don't want him to be out there basically alone either" Toru says
"If you actually don't know, then please, at least help us look for him" Kirishima says
"Ryuji...Do you know how to find Deku?" Uraraka asks me in a surprised and slightly betrayed voice
I look around at everyone as they stare at me.
"I...I do" I give in and admit to it
Everyone looks at me shocked.
"And you were just not gonna tell us?!" Ashido asks
"Not cool man..." Kirishima says
"He didn't want me to say anything to you guys. At first, he wanted my help in his little escapade. Not that long ago, while I was heading over to his old hideout while Uraraka and I were gone, he left a note saying that he no longer wants my help and that he managed to destroy the tracker in the upgraded suit I made him" I say
"Midoriya..." Iida says
"I want to go after him, but I know that he'll do anything to keep all of us safe and away from that All For One business. And honestly, if I was him...I'd do the same thing" I say
"Ryuji...We aren't weak kids anymore. We've all gotten so much stronger" Toru says
"I know, that's what I told him while trying to beat him up while I was annoyed" I say
"So, will you help us?" Tokoyami asks
I think for a moment.
"No...No I won't" I say
"Why not?!" Yaoyarozu asks
"Like I said, I understand how he's feeling. Besides, he's strong, so much stronger than any of us. I'll be honest, if we all took him on together and he seriously fought back...I really think we'd lose" I say
"Deku wouldn't fight us...right?" Uraraka asks
"Who cares if he does or not. If he does, we'll just have to beat the shit out of him and bring him back here by force! With or without your help, Tin Can!" Katsuki says
"If you guys are serious about getting him back...Let me give you a hint. Go and find either Endeavor, Hawks, Best Jeanist, or All Might. Find one of them, you'll find Izuku" I say
"I knew my father had something to do with this..." Todoroki says
"As well as my master" Tokoyami says
"Let's do it. Let's get Deku back" Uraraka says determined
And so, they all form a plan to have Nezu get Endeavor into his office so that they can squeeze information outta him. As they are discussing, I slip away and head to my room.
"I admire their determination to leave nobody behind...but sometimes, you've gotta think about how you can save others, instead of saving yourself" I say to myself
But little did I know, there was someone following me and managed to overhear what I said.
Toru POV
"Ryuji...I knew something was wrong with you..." I think now feeling guilty that I didn't try harder to get him to talk to me
Ryuji POV
When I get to my room, I start going through all my data on my prototype for Alpha.
"I've gotten the body ready to be built, that's the easy part. All I need is an A.I. But that'll literally take years for me to make one that'll be able to learn from past experiences, and be able to think basically like a human" I say
"Sir...what if I-" Arvin is cut off by the door opening
I look to the door and see Toru.
"Toru? How'd you get in here? I locked the door" I say
"You gave me access to enter whenever I wanted, remember?" She asks
"Oh yeah...guess I did" I say
She comes over to me and stands in front of me.
"What's up Toru? Looking for a little fu-" she cuts me off
"Not now Ryuji, I want you to talk to me" she says
"Well, what'd you wanna talk about?" I ask
"Don't play dumb, tell me what's wrong with you?" She asks in her serious voice
"Woah, bringing out the serious voice" I joke
"I'm not playing games. You're gonna tell me what's wrong and I'm gonna help you" she says
"We're you talking to Uraraka? Because I already told her that-" she cuts me off
"Ochaco?! You talked to Ochaco about this and not me?!" She asks
"What? You jealous or something? Come on now, you now I'll always-" she cuts me off again
"No I'm not jealous! I'm just hurt that apparently you'd rather go to anyone instead of me about your problems nowadays!" She says
"Come on Toru, it's not like that" I say
"Then what it is like, Ryuji? You know, ever since we've started dating, you've stopped talking to me about your problems and just either tried to solve them yourself or talked to someone else entirely...It...It's hurts, you know?" She says
"Toru, that's just not true. I always talk to you, even in our special times" I smirk
"God, Ryuji can't you be serious this one time! I am sick of you always changing the subject! Why can't you just talk to me anymore?! Am I not good enough? Or do you just not love me anymore to even bother?" She asks
Toru it's not like that! I love you so much! It's just...complicated" I say
"How? How is it so complicated that you'll talk to Ochaco but not me? Tell me, Ryuji" she says
"I...I just" I struggle to say anything
"Do you just not care?! Do you love Ochaco now?! O-Or do you just hate me now?!" She asks now tearing up
"What?! No! No it's nothing like that!" I say now starting to panic
"Then tell me! Please, Ryuji...tell me" she says
"I...I just...I just can't tell you, this whole thing is beyond you and I don't want you involved...at all" I say
I don't want her involved in this...Or else she'll try to stop my future plans with Alpha.
"I-I see...So you just won't talk to me at all anymore, huh? No matter what" She says
I don't respond as I look away.
"Ryuji...I think...I think we need a break...from each other. At least until you've gotten everything figured out" she says while turning away from me
My eyes widen and my heart drops.
"Wh-What? T-Toru wait! You're overreacting! I-I just don't want you getting hurt! I care about you too much for that!" I say
"No, Ryuji, I've made up my mind. These days there isn't much time for romance anyways...Besides, I'll obviously just be in the way of whatever you're planning to do, so it's best if I'm just not there at all" she says
"So that's it...we're just breaking up because you just don't wanna trust me?" I ask
"I don't wanna break up! Just a break from each other..." she says
"Why can't you just trust me?! I need you here to tell me that everything will be okay!" I say
"Because you clearly don't trust me! How am I supposed to trust you when you don't trust me?!" She asks
"Toru, I do trust! You were the first person I've ever trusted when I came to U.A! You changed me into who I am today!" I say
"No Ryuji, I didn't. I just helped you try to change yourself. And Ryuji, can you look me in the eyes right now and tell my that you fully trust not even just me, but all of us?" She asks
"O-Of course I do! I-I mean, I even gave some of the others my technology" I say while glancing away from her
"Ryuji, look me in the eyes" she says
"I-It's not like I'm the only one! I mean, look at Izuku! He ran away because he couldn't trust you all to help him defeat All For One!" I say
"Midoriya is headstrong and thinks with his heart most of the time so I understand why he ran away. But you, you always think with your head. You always plan ahead. You know when to and when not to do things, it's why you're just trying to keep everything secret from us" she says
"Well if you all would just stop being so...so...god damn annoying! Then maybe I could possibly tell you guys stuff without you all worrying about me and getting in my way!" I shout
I freeze at my words. Toru doesn't say anything as she turns around.
"Toru wait, this doesn't mean that I don't trust you all. I-I just care about you all too much for you all to bother getting in my business" I say
She doesn't respond.
"I-If it makes you feel better, I didn't really talk to Uraraka about my problems! I-I just kinda lied to her so that she would get off my case!" I say now getting desperate
"You lied to her...? Then how many times have you lied to me?" She asks
"Well...I...Uh..." I struggle for a response
"Thought so...I'll see you later, Ryuji...I hope you're able to solve everything alone, just like you want" she says
No words are able to leave my mouth as she leaves my room and closes and locks the door behind her.
"Toru I...I'm sorry" I manage to say after she's already left
I fall to my knees.
"Why...Why can't I just get over my past! Even now, it haunts me and ruins my life! I thought I finall managed to get over it, but ever since that dammed Minato slithered his way back into my life, everything has gone to shit!" I cry out
"Sir, you really just need to finally fully open up. It's because you are too afraid to fully open up again and fully lean on others is what's making you subconsciously push people away" Arvin says
"You don't get it, Arvin! If I let people get too involved with me, they could get seriously hurt! I-I'm just way too dangerous of a person! Whether it be my technology, or the people who want my technology!" I say
"Sir, either way, people are gonna care for you and care about your well being" he says
"What do you know about caring?! You're just a dumb A.I that was made to help me solve problems and simulate me not being alone! You're just a bunch of ones and zeroes! You don't know what it's like to care for a person!" I shout
"I see...If that's the case, I shall get back to running calculations on Alpha's body systems" he says
"Wait no, Arvin. I didn't mean it" I say
He doesn't respond as the silence fills my room.
"I...I'm sorry. I didn't mean any of it..." I say as my head hangs low
I sit in the silence of the room.
"I've really hit rock bottom now...haven't it?" I think
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Hello everyone! That does it for this chapter! I apologize that this chapter isn't all in tune with the manga, but I promise that the next one will be! Also, don't get mad a Toru or Ryuji...please. Remember that in the context of my story, they are teenagers, and teenagers can't really think straight when it comes to emotions like love and sadness and such. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I'll see you all in the next one (: