"Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends."
-John 15:13
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“Colleen's POV”
Naging busy kami ni Adamir sa pag-aayos ng mga gamit sa bago niyang condo, Although ako 'yong nagdedecide siya 'yong gumagawa. In end pareho kaming pagod na naka upo at sandal sa couch.
"Let's rest for a while then let's take a bath." He said and lay at my lap facing my stomach. I don't mind it and close my eyes. He put my right hand to his head, napamulat ako at tinignan siya. Did he just want me to caress his hair?
"You were such a puppy." I chuckle and caress his hair, sinubs*b niya ang kaniyang mukha sa tiyan ko, halatang pagod na pagod.
"It's tiring even though it's a small place. What's more if we buy new house?"
Napatigil ako saglit, I know na panandalian lang 'to. We don't even talk properly. I just don't know what's running inside of his mind. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko kaya nagpatuloy ako sa pag suklay ng buhok niya gamit daliri ko.
Am I too much to ask for my happiness? Can I be selfish a second time? No, that's not what should I do now that I am back. The purpose of what am I doing this is to have a serious talk with him. But every time na uumpisahan ko na magtanong, nauuwi sa 'you know that thing'.
"Adamir, I am back not because of you."
"Hmmm."
"Adamir listen, You have a wife--"
"Were not anymore." Blangko bigla ang utak ko, umayos siya ng upo pero nakaharap sa akin habang nilalagay ang hibla ng buhok ko sa likod ng aking tainga, nakatingin lang ako sa kaniya. I'm about to open my mouth but he touch my lips so I was taken a back.
"I prepare everything, all I need is your permission. So please allow me to make you mine. Allow me to kiss you everytime I want, Allow me to spend night with you---"
"Stop saying dirty things, talk properly." I blushed! Pakiramdam ko uminit ang mukha ko sa pinagsasabi niya. Lumambot ang ekspresyon niya. Para siyang maiiyak. I wonder why. He rest his head into my shoulder. I gasp.
"I am affraid, Kapag may nasabi akong mali—you will left me again without saying goodbye infront of me." Ramdam ko ang lungkot sa mga salita niya. Medyo na guilty naman ako.
"You don't need to worry Coleen, I fixed everything. So don't leave me again please..." Teka, ano ba 'yong na 'fixed' ?
"What are you talking about? May asawa ka na hindi ba? Gusto mo ba maging kabet ako ulit? Secret mistress again?"
Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin, although hindi naman niya nakikita reaksyon ko. Halos mapalundag ako sa gulat dahil sa pag hawak niya sa dalawa kong balikat at nakatitig siya sa akin habang dumadaloy ang luha sa mga mata niya.
"It's not what you think! We're married just because we should, but we end it for good! You will never be a mistress again! Do you hear me?! I won't let that happen!" He's angry. He's shouting at me. But I'm surprise, his tears are beautiful, his eyes are sparkling. He look handsome!
"Are you listening?!" Niyugy*g niya ako. I touch his cheeks and touch his tears. His eyes widen.
"Colleen..."
"You are handsome..." I mumbled.
Hinawakan niya ang dalawa kong kamay at sinamaan ako ng tingin.
"Colleen this is our serious talk, can you be more serious too?" I chuckle and hug him.
"I know, hindi lang ako makapaniwala. Seems like a dream, Nakaka over whelmed lahat. I'm very happy... I am... I mean it, for real."
Ako naman ngayon ang umiiyak. Hinagod niya ang likod ko.
"I'm affraid Adamir... What if your love for me fades? What if you fall in love with other girls that are better than me?"
"Hush.. That will never happen. I will only love you. K*ll me if I hurt you."
"You hurt me every night." I joke.
"That... That's not included."
"Tsk. But I have a confession." Magkayakap pa rin kami, nakasandal ang baba niya sa balikat ko.
"What is it?"
"I don't want to hide any secrets to you, It happens a long time ago, I have s*x with unknown guy but I don't know him." umalis siya sa yakap at napahawak batok.
"Actually, it's me all along."
Nataas ko ang kaliwa kong kilay.
"That unknown guy you talked. It's me. I remember you, think of you most of the time. That time I don't want to admit it, but I misses you. Sorry,"
"How about noong tumawag ako kay Levi, is that you who came?"
He noded. Napa facepalm ako.
"Okay I worry for nothing."
"But Colleen I will not do it anymore without your permission I swear."
I chuckle. He is being cute.
The day end with full of happiness.
Nasa condo kami ngayon ni Levi,
"Tita!"
Angel hug me. Nakangiting nakatingin sa akin si Levi.
"Dumating ka na pero si Adamir una mong pinuntahan, nakakatampo ha parang hindi ako ang first love mo."
"Next time kayo una kong pupuntahan." Biro ko pero inakbayan ako ni Adamir.
"With me, dadalawin namin kayo."
Tumawa si Levi, ngayon bigla akong nakaramdam ng hiya. Adamir always give me butterflies. Sabay kaming nag dinner. Then may kumatok,
"Colleen open the door." Utos ni Levi kaya ngumuso ako.
"Tinatamad ako,"
"Ako na," pinigil ni Levi si Adamir at umiling, kaya no choice at ako na ang magbubukas.
"Sino---"
"Colleen!" Dinamba nila akong dalawa ng yakap.
"Elyza? Ruth? Ano ginagawa niyo rito?"
"Well I'm here too."
It's Claus.
"It's going to be a long night." I mumbled.
Nasa sala kaming lahat maliban kay Angel na tulog na sa silid nito.
"So ano ang ginagawa niyo rito?" Tinignan ko sila isa-isa. Ngumisi lang ang mga ito.
"Syempre pa welcome back sayo, tagal mo nawala eh."
"Ah talaga? Eh noong matagal ako nawala wala namang pa welcome back ah?"
"Ngayon meron na." Hawak babang sagot ni Elyza, may patango-tango naman si Ruth. Si Claus naman naka ngiti rin.
"I forgot si Kiza pala nakaisip nito, susunod siya may tinatapos lang daw." Tugon ni Ruth bago tumayo at nagtungo sa kusina. May mga dala silang pagkain na mukhang pinagplanuhan talaga nila.
"The both of you, seryoso na talaga kayo?" Elyza stare at us like we are a criminal.
"Wala ng makakapigil?" Taas kilay ni Claus, with accent pa.
"You want? You are not allowed." Adamir glare at him. Sumiksik naman siya kay Elyza pero tinulak lang siya nito.
Tumunog ang phone ni Adamir kaya napalingon ako sa kaniya.
"Ah it's margaret, about company I guess?" Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.
"Oh ano naman?"
"What's 'oh ano naman?' hindi mo ako tatanungin why?"
"Bakit? May dapat ba akong malaman?"
"Gah, this is annoying." Tinampal niya ang noo niya at nagpipindot sa cellphone niya. Tinignan ko naman si Elyza na ngumiwi.
"What?"
"Gag* hindi ka manlang magseselos?"
"Bakit?" Nakakunot noo kong tanong.
"Ay t*nga, ewan ko sa'yo." Pagsukong sabi nito. Napa isip ako, ano naman kung may ka text si Adamir? Should I be mad? Kinulbit ko si Adamir, lumingon naman siya.
"Uhm, I'm jealous?" Nagsalubong ang dalawa niyang makapal na kilay.
"Seems not to me, don't fool me it's not convincing."
"Yeah whatever. Text well."
I pout,
"Hey nasiraan daw si Kiza, sino magsusundo do'n?" Sulpot ni Ruth na may hawak na bowl.
"Ako na, bibilhan ko rin si Angel ng vanilla cake." Levi wave at us, before he leaves he look at me and smile. Sure thing he tease me again with his playful grin in his face. We continue chatting while waiting for Kiza and Levi, then someone call me.
"Hoy may tumatawag sagutin mo." Nguso ni Elyza kaya naman sinagot ko. I was about to say 'Hello' nang may marinig akong tili kaya nailayo ko ang phone sa tainga na ikatingin nila sa akin, naka on speaker ang call.
"Kyaah! Don't please... D-dont hurt him anymore!"
"You little!" Namat*y na ang tawag. Kiza is the one who called me, then... What is going on?!
Natahimik kaming lahat, aligaga namang pumunta sa gawi namin si Ruth na busy sa kusina kanina.
"G-guys... Levi sent me a message..."
Napabaling ang tingin namin sa kaniya,
"Levi... I think he's in danger."
To be continue....