Dear diary,
I've fallen deep into love. Way too deep in. Every time I see her and Suga I try to be happy for her, I really do. But then I get this swelling in my chest, it gets harder to breathe, and I have to look away from them.
They've been on several dates now and it's only a matter of time before he officially asks her to be his girlfriend. That day will ruin me. I should want it to happen for her, I know, but I feel like I'm choking every time I see them together. Always so close.
Her happiness is important. But so is mine.
It hurts me to be the one she goes to for help on what outfit to wear for their dates. It hurts me to be the one she talks to about the dates. It hurts me to be the one she always talks to about him. It just hurts.
I love her with all my heart. She loves him with all of hers. And I know Sugawara loves her just as much as she loves him.
Guess I'm the only one who ends up with a broken heart, huh?
Being in love with your best friend isn't always easy. Especially when that best friend is someone of the same sex and likes someone else.
Thanks again for letting me write in this journal.
sincerely, Shimizu