Harry's POV
Miranda... right. I bet she saw the snaps already.
Me:
Yep?
Miranda Fern - Modest
What was that again Harry? Haven't we talked already?
Knew it. With a sigh, I answered...
Me:
I dont mean to be rude Miranda, but I think you have to deal with it. I have a girlfriend. And I see nothing wrong in watching a movie with my girlfriend.
Emphasizing the word girlfriend.
Miranda Fern - Modest
She's your girl; we get that. But you have to quit being seen in public with her. You were snapped holding her hand, defending her from the paps it's too much already Harry. We have to prevent the damage it may cause if you went full on public with that girl. The band's market is because you're the fan's boys. I don't think they're ready for another member, especially you, to be off the market.
Me:
They'll get over it.
Miranda Fern - Modest
Oh, absolutely. And once they got over it, I am sure they'll get over you and the boys. One Direction will be over. Once the fans got over you..
It's over. I tell you. There are many talented bands out there that are just waiting for a break. We need to strike the iron while it's hot. You get me? You guys cant be here forever but you need to stay as long as possible. It's what you want right? This is your dream. Think about how hard you and the boys fought just to be where you guys are now.
What did she say? I wasnt listening.
Miranda Fern - Modest
Harry you there?
Me:
Yes, okay.
Miranda Fern - Modest
Think about it.
Me:
Okay.
Why cant things be much simpler.
The boys make me happy. The fans absolutely without a doubt makes me happy. Where we are now makes me happy. And she makes me... I dont know, happy? Angry? Pissed, loved, alive; mixed emotions really. And I've never felt that before about someone. Sure, I fell inlove before, but not like this intense feeling I have for her now, last time I was inlove, it was chaos. It almost ruined mine and Taylor's career.
Why do I have to choose? Why do I always need to give up something. Why me.
If I chose my career, I know I'm going to loose her. But if I chose her, I'm going to lose myself. This is where I want to be. Eversince, I have always pictured myself singing my heart out in stadiums. Before One Direction, I didnt know exactly, I had no idea where I'm going. I planned to study law, sociology, bio engineering, business... I considered a lot because I dont know what to do. But when I started singing, it was pure magic. I knew then that this is what i want to do for the rest of my life. I just want to keep singing more and more.
Why cant things just go together smoothly.
Sometimes this evil thought crosses my head where I just leave her behind and not care about her which I flawlessly did with some other flings I had but whenever I imagine what she might feel if I did that... it breaks me apart. Not that she cant make it without me, I know she can; she's one strong girl; But the thought of her moving on with life without me; her... maybe ending up with that fucking fuck Damian, hurts me. Whenever I imagine not being able to see and talk to her anymore.. It shatters me.
She makes me feel less of a celebrity and more of the Harry from Cheshire.
She's like my sunshine. She gives me warmth and light. She has absolutely so much love to give for the people around her and for me to be one of them is something to be proud of.
I don't want to make the same mistake twice. After my break up with Taylor, I thought I can never be the same and find someone who will capture my attention. But I did. This is another chance to start over.
And they want me to give this up again.
No, not again.
I'll hold on.
Whatever they say, I'll hold on as far as I can. Just as much as she is holding on for us.
Me:
Good night. Have the sweetest dreams. I love you. H xx
Nikki:
Cheeeessssyyyyy. But you know I love you more. Night!
Me:
You know you're wrong.
Nikki:
Nope. I love you more. :p
Me:
So stubborn! xx
They want me to let this girl go? No. I love her. I fucking love her. I love her almost more than I love myself.
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Me:
Good morning Ms. Sunshine :)
Nikki:
Good morning Harry :)
Me:
Call me MR. SUNSHINE DAMMET!!
Nikki:
Good morning Mr. Sunshine Dammet!
There you go. Lols. Have a lovely day.
This girl, really... she's getting on my nerves. Thank god I'm inlove with her.
Me:
You know you should be thankful I am crazy about you.
Nikki:
Thanks!
Look at that answer.
I can't wait to come over The Nest and argue with her.
Or not.
I dont want to see that irritating prick that is Damian. He's a good guy I know. He's Liv's family friend but he likes my girl and that's foul. Me and him can never be mates as long as there's Nikki between us.
I might lose my temper.
If only I could get her out of there. Besides, i flew her in to spend time with me not work there. But... I know it's my fault why she ended up there; besides, she's obviously happy with what she does there and what makes her happy makes me happy as well.
I was about to sleep again and take advantage of the break we have when Niall texted me...
Niall:
We just arrived mate. You okay?
Me:
Im good. Why?
Niall:
We'll come over!
Me:
I need to sleep.
Niall:
Who needs sleep? Sleeping is for losers. Come on mate! We on the way there !
Me:
Fine. I'll leave the door unlocked.
I went downstairs to unlock the front door. The boys know the drill.
Afterwards, I went to the kitchen and took a spoonful of my favorite Christmas pudding flavored ice cream that me and Nikki picked up from Cheshire then I remembered our roadtrips and our lovely time together. I just ehmm... I can't help but smile.
I went back in my bed and tried to catch my sleep again but I cant seem to have my sleep so i checked my phone. Checked for any texts from Nikki but there's nothing.
What the hell is she doing with that bastard now?
Maybe I should just buy a cafe and pretend it wasnt mine and get her to work in there just so she might be away from that fucker.
That is crazy, Harry. You trust your girl... right. She's yours and she's got a good head on her. She wont do that.
I never thought I would go mad for this girl, really. Given that she somehow lied to me at first... but I understood why she did that. She was pressured that I might not like her once I knew everything about her. She's a strong girl but I know that she has her insecurities; Now I wanna take that away from her in every possible way I can. When I knew the truth about her, I thought I could easily throw her away but I was wrong.
The thought of her kept coming in and out of my mind and I kept missing her. That's when I knew that I was already inlove with her.
That feeling kind of suddenly crept up and it took me by surprise. Maybe I'm under her spell, I'd gladly be in it anytime though.
'Harrrreeeehhhh'
Niall.
He suddenly jumped in my bed then Liam came next.
'How was Vegas?' I asked.
'Good. Zayn and Louis were a bit... ehhh nevermind'. Niall said while he shrugged.
'Bit what?'
'They were absolutely positive about you leaving the group because of your girl, Nikki. They said she's bad news'. Liam suddenly said.
Then Niall shouted at Liam
'Payno! You are officially an arse!!'
'Im clearly aware that they dont like her. But shes no bad news. I wont leave the group'. I told them.
'Thats what we told them... when are you guys gonna talk again anyway? This has gone far enough. It's time you guys patch things up; taking seperate private planes just to avoid them? Is insane mate. The media is starting to notice. And honestly mate, me and Niall dont know what plane to choose everytime we fly'. Liam told me.
'I know they are concerned about me but if you were in my position... they called your girl rude things. What would you do? They called her a piece of shit? I even heard them called her cheap, And that I went on downgrade? Listen, I can take it if the others attack her. I can deal with that. I can just block them all. But if it's them... they're not just someone to me. They're like my brothers; I care about them as much as I care about Nikki. And hearing that from them is fucking bullshit'. I explained.
'Cool down. Im sure they'll like her soon enough. Why dont you arrange a house party or some dinner party stuff so we could all get to know her? What do you think?' Liam suggested.
'That can be a good idea. I was considering that but I dont know if she wants that'.
'Does she know Zayn and Louis doesnt like her?'
'No. Why would I tell her. It might stress her out. Tis enough that I keep this to myself. She's dealing with enough hate already. The fans the management and of all people even them'.
'Keep your cool Harry. I think if you let us get to know her, it will all come together, Niall what ya think?'
Me and Liam looked around and then there's Niall sleeping.
Sleeping is for losers huh.
Liam grabbed a marker on my side desk and wrote LOSER on Niall's forehead.
We used to do this while we're on tour. Whoever sleeps first will be the victim of our pranks.
The good times.
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After Niall slept, we went for beers and barbecues in my garden. We talked about how Miranda had no chill when I immediately left Vegas and they were laughing about how stressed out she looked because she might get fired by Simon.
Anyways, since our debut as One Direction and Simon Cowell as our manager, we thought it would be hard because we are under Simon; and knowing Simon, he's known to be an absolute terror but it's the opposite. He is like a father to us and we listen to him. He is strict but he knows how to have fun. He understands us. So I know he will understand me. He understands Zayn, Liam and Louis for having their girlfriends. So why not me?
Miranda is just over reacting. Im sure that when I got to talk to Simon, he will be cool about my relationship with Nikki; because Nikki is a just a normal girl. It's different now than whst I had with Taylor... they wanted me and Taylor to laylow because of the attention we get for dating because we're both celebrities. But now with Nikki, she's not a public figure and I'm sure we can figure a way to let this work.
Ehhhh.
I know they would still instruct me to laylow with Nikki but... I'd like to keep thinking positive that maybe they'll allow me to date her officially.
I dont want to choose again for the love of god.
'See ya then!'. Niall said as he walks out towards the door.
While Liam, already on his car opened the window and said,
'Bye mate!' And he waved goodbye followed by Niall who slid inside Liam's car.
'Yeah thanks for dropping by'. I told them.
7pm.
It is already 7 in the evening and I got no texts and calls from her. What is she doing?? What are they doing?
They are busy at the cafe, Harry.
Dont text her.
Harry.
Dont...
Me:
Hey :)
Nikki:
Hey.... sorry. Talk to you later. Im busy.
Fuck.
Me:
Pick you up later?
Nikki:
What? We just went out last night. Lol
Me:
I know. But still...
Nikki:
Let's just hang here. Or maybe at your place?
My place? She wants to hang at my place. Whoop. Yessss. Ofcourse my love, we can hang here.
Alone.
Gemma is gone. Yesss. Yessss.
Last time Gemma was here with us, I wasnt able to do my plans. A romantic candle lit dinner for the both of us. If my sis was here she'll definitely think I'm being cheesy.
Now is the perfect time. Yes.
Me:
My place. Pick you up at 9
Nikki:
Okay.. :)
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Before I pick Nikki from the cafe of course I took a bath, did a bit of cleaning around the house... ordered good food and did my set up in the dining area. Roses, candles... the usual stuff that every madly inlove guy does.
Hope she likes it.
When I parked my car infront of the cafe, I saw that fuck's motorcycle still parked. So he's still here.
I entered the cafe and the customers are already gone. Nikki was mopping the floor with Damian and they're laughing.
I fucking hate that guy. Really.
I cleared my throat and then Nikki turned to look at me and smiled...
'Hey, babe!'
Heard that... fucker? She called me babe. She's mine. So fuck off.
I smiled while i walked towards them keeping my cool. Keeping my manners. Keeping my patience. Keeping myself from puching that guy in the face.
I still remember that snap where you kissed my girl, Damian.
I gently grabbed Nikki's waist to pull her close to me and then I kissed her on the cheek.
Eat your heart out. This girl is mine.
I know I'm sounding mean and immature but. I showed him.
It's payback time. He needs to back the fuck off from Nikki.
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While driving, Nikki suddenly told me...
'I know what you did'. Then I looked at her and she was smiling; smiling because she's teasing.
'Did what?'
'Mr. Styles dont you ask questions you know the answer to'.
Hahhh. This girl. Really.
'I showed him. Sorry'.
'You didnt have to. He already knows I belong to you'.
'I cant help it. I was keeping myself from punching him'.
'Harry!' She said with a tone a mother would use when her kid did something bad at school.
'But I didnt, you see'. Then I smiled at her. I know she likes this smile so I tried the best and cutest smile I could so she cant say anything anymore.
'Fine'. She blushed.
It worked!
'Anyway, let's not talk about that fuck-- I mean, I'm sorry... ehmmm let's not talk about that decent guy friend of yours cause it spoils the mood'. And I smiled at her again. She's blushing. She's so cute when she blushes. I should do this more often.
'I hate it when you do that, just so you know'. She suddenly said with her arms folded around her front.
I chuckled.
You know you love it.
'Do what? Do this???' Then I beamed at her. I know I look like a retard but it's making her laugh and blush; I love it.
'Stooop!!' She begged while she chuckled.
'Okay then'. I like it more when I'm the one making her laugh like that and not him.
'Soooo what are your plans?'
'You'll see'.
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The moment we reached my house, I parked the car and then I went on to cover her eyes with some eye mask I got from one of the hotels we stayed in during tours.
'Whaaaat is this Harry?'
'Just ehmmm just some typical boyfriend duties'. I told her then she chuckled.
I grabbed her hand and led her to the kitchen where I did the set up and made her sit.
'Stay put'.
'But'...
'Don't'. I warned.
Always so stubborn, this donut.
I lit the candles and turned on the speakers which played the song Smile by Uncle Kracker to set the romantic cheesy mood.
Then I went ahead and removed the mask. When she saw everything, it was priceless.
'Typical boyfriend duties huh? This is beautiful. Thank you'.
'My pleasure'.
After we ate, I decided to do the cheesiest thing a man could ever do... and that is give her a rose and dance with her.
While we were dancing to the songs we had for each other which is Tupelo Honey, Once in a lifetime and my own composition for her Dont let me go. I cant help myself but to hug her while we swayed and just let ourselves be lost. I love the feeling I get when I am with her. It's inexplainable. But I know that this feeling is something I want to have for the rest of my life. Then the song shifted to Lady in Red by Chris de Burgh...
CHEEK TO CHEEK
THERES NOBODY HERE
ITS JUST YOU AND ME...
ITS WHERE I WANT TO BE...
I gently kissed her forehead, her cheeks, her nose... I gently touched her lips and I saw her blush... I smiled and then kissed her. While we were kissing, I pulled her closer and closer to me, my one arm at the back of her waist, the other at the back of her head. Suddenly, we slipped and fell on the floor and then we chuckled.
'It's your fault it's too dark in here!' She said.
'It's your fault you make me crazy like this'. I looked at her and she blushed again trying to look away from me but then I gently held her face so she cant look away and I kissed her again. This time more passionate. I kissed her neck, my hand tried to unbotton her shirt, the other lightly touching her legs.
'Harry'. She suddenly held my hand to stop me from unbottoning her shirt.
'Sorry. Im really sorry, Nikki'...
I was too in the moment I forgot to respect her values. Damn it, Harry!
'It's okay. But, Uhmmm... I dont wanna go too fast'..
'I know. I understand and im sorry'...
'Can I just uhhh... go to the toilet? Uhmm I'll be back'...
'Yeah. Sure'.
While she's on the toilet I fucking wanted to kill myself for doing that. She's not your typical girl Harry. She's not like that. God, I found a keeper. I admit, I have slept with women older, younger, same age as me and it was easy. But with her... she makes everything different. She's a game changer.
I went to my room's toilet and saw myself blushing. Right. How long was I blushing? Did she see me blushing then?
I washed my face so I could simmer down and changed my shirt. Then I went downstairs and grabbed 2 mugs and filled them with ice cream.
'Ice cream?' I asked her.
'Yes, please'.
'Perfect'. I smiled.
We sat at the couch on my garden, eating ice cream; her head on my shoulders talking about everything. Laughing about anything. Before, I find this stuff boring... I used to get easily bored with women. I admit, she's an introvert, she doesnt party, she likes pretty normal stuff and Im the complete opposite. I like to drink and party but when im with her... I forget all of that.
I asked her if she wanted to come at the house with my mates for dinner this weekend and she agreed. Liam is right, I think this is the right time to formally introduce her to my pals. She's a winner. Zayn and Louis are absolutely wrong for thinking she's bad news.