𝐂𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐓𝐨 𝐘𝐨𝐮 // 𝐓.𝐇

*ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕊𝕚𝕩*

Y/N's POV

Friday came around faster than I thought it would, I can't say that I was happy that I was finally going to find out the reason why Tom stopped talking to me, I was nervous, when I was in California, I often wondered what really happened between us, did I do something wrong or say the wrong thing at the wrong time but every time I had those thoughts, I told myself, that I had to focus on studying and my exams and try to forget about him.

Did I? No. He was just always there in my head, and I knew he wasn't going to get out any time soon

So I was in my room, putting on my shoes, it was late in the evening, about quarter past nine, we wanted to get everything we wanted to do out of the way and then have the talk now, it seemed like a good idea but even now I'm still nervous so when I finished putting on my shoes I was about to leave my room when I saw the heart-shaped locket Tom gave me sitting on my nightstand, the locket really meant everything to me, it brings back many memories, it made Tom and I closer than we already were, and it was probably one of the only gifts that I've kept with me

I picked it up and opened it, there was a small picture that, Nikki took of me and Tom, it was just like any normal day, I was over at his house, and we were in his backyard and we were playing tag with Tom's little brother Paddy, he was eight at the time, and Nikki was taking photos of the backyard, and the trees with the sky and everything and we just happened to be in the background

When we were running, Tom was behind me and I wasn't looking where I was going and I tripped, with Tom being behind me, he tripped as well, we both busted out laughing, we turned over and laid on our backs, I rested my head on Tom's shoulder, we were still laughing, we heard a flash and we looked up and saw that Nikki took the photo and on my part, I'm happy she did

I put the locket down and remembered I still have to go to Tom's since we literally lived beside each other, it wasn't much of a problem, I went downstairs and out my door, I walked over to his house and knocked on his door, my heart was beating so fast, I didn't know why but I felt a little lightheaded maybe it was my nerves

After a few seconds, the door opened and Tom stood in front of me, and neither of us looked happy to do this, and that made me scared

"Hey," He said as I came in

"Uh, Hey" we went over to his living room and we sat down on his couch beside each other

"Uh, would you like anything?"

"Water would be nice" Tom nodded and went to his kitchen, my throat started to get really dry and my hand was shaking, I hid them in between my thighs, to try and get them to stop, I took a deep breath in and exhaled

"Here's your water" Tom handed me a glass cup of water and I drink about half of it then set it down on his coffee table, he sat back down beside me

"So, where do you want to start?" Tom asked me

"I just want to know why you stopped talking to me. Did I do something wrong?" I felt this heavy weight on my chest and my heart was beating at a rapid pace again. If I'm being honest I was scared what Tom's reply was going to be

"You didn't, I-I uh, I stopped because I thought that was the best way to get out of my head, to forget you because after that kiss we had at the airport, I knew I liked you but then you just left and I thought that I was never going to see you again, and that messed with my head a little bit, I missed you so much, that I couldn't focus, I couldn't focus to the point where I would keep messing up my scenes or I would just zone out, my directors and my co-stars complained even Haz did so one day I told myself that enough is enough, you weren't coming back so I tried everything to forget you"

Tom couldn't look into my eyes anymore and I couldn't either, my eyes stung with my tears, my head was throbbing, I couldn't even think straight anymore but Tom continued

"I tried anything, I stopped answering your calls, texts and facetime I threw away photos, deleted videos, anything that had you in them, I threw away, I basically tried to erase you, but I knew couldn't-"

After that everything turned to a blur, my throat closed up and I couldn't breathe, it was like I was trapped in my own head, I couldn't even hear what Tom was saying anymore and then everything else just turned to black

Tom's POV

It hurt me to say all of this to Y/N and I could see that it was hurting her, this was not what I wanted but I knew that if I wanted her, I had to tell her the truth of everything I tried to do, I felt tears well up in my eyes I couldn't look at her

I heard a thud and my head shot up and my heart sank, I saw Y/N collapsed on my couch, I stood up and tried waking her up, I shook her but nothing, I poured the water I gave her on her face, still nothing

"Y/N! Y/N! Please wake up" I started to panic, tears were running down my face

I quickly picked her up bridal style and ran to my car, I gently placed her in the back seats and raced to the driver seat, I started the car and my drive to the nearest hospital, when I got out, I took Y/N out of the car and rushed into the hospital

"She needs help! Please!" I shouted, doctors and nurses came through a door with a stretcher, they gently took her from me and placed her on it, a nurse came up to me

"Hi-"

"Tom, Tom Holland"

"Hi, Mr Holland, can I ask you a few questions?" She said politely, I nodded

"Are you a family relative?"

"I'm her-" I thought about what I was going to say next but I ended up saying it anyway "I'm her boyfriend" the nurse just nodded her head

"Does your girlfriend have any diseases or illnesses?"

"No"

"Has she shown any signs of stress or anxiety?"

"Um, No, not that I've seen"

"Has she been stressed lately?"

"Uh, no not really but we both have been working a lot"

"Okay, thank you, you can sit here, we are going to run some tests on her and make sure she's okay," she said and walked away, and went through the door

I couldn't sit down at all, I couldn't hold back my tears and I decided to call Zendaya

"Hey, Tom"

"Hey, Z, I need you to come to the hospital"

"Tom!? What happened? Are you okay?" She said worriedly, I could hear noises in the background

"No, well I am but it's not me, it's Y/N, I don't know what happened, the next minute we were talking and then she just fainted, I tried waking her up, pouring water on her but she wouldn't wake up so I started to panic and I quickly took her to the hospital and now I don't know what to do, Zendaya, this is all my fault" my tears kept racing down my face, what if this really is my fault? Maybe all the things I said to her were too much for her to handle? If this was my fault I wouldn't be able to live with myself

"Tom, hey, Tom, listen to me, this is not your fault, I need you to calm down, sit down and breathe, okay. Y/N is going to be fine, I'm on my way so hang tight and call Harrison" I took a seat and took in deep breaths

"Okay, I'll see you in a minute" she replied and hung up

I called Harrison, he went to visit his parents so he had no clue about what happened, I told him everything and he said he was on his way too

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Within a few minutes, Haz, Zendaya and Darnell came through the entrance door, Haz and Z's eyes were puffy and Darnell tried to comfort both of them

I ran up to them and we all hugged, we cried into each other's shoulders after we calmed down a bit we all sat down in the waiting room and waited for the doctor to tell us what was happening

It was a few minutes when the doctor came in, we all walked over to him

"Is she okay?" I asked

"She's fine, she's sleeping in her room, her blood pressure was really high and it looks like she had a little panic attack, she is doing okay but we do have to keep a close eye on her over the next few days" the doctor 'Dr Porter' explained,

It felt like weights were lifted off my shoulders hearing that Y/N was okay, if she wasn't I don't know what I would've done but hearing all the other things Dr Porter said really worried me

Dr Porter suggested that we all go home seeing that Y/N was sleeping and it was really late, it was nearly midnight but we all drove home

All I kept thinking about was Y/N, it scared me what happened tonight, I thought I was going to lose her, and I got a glimpse of what that might be like and I never want to experience that again, she is way too important to me

And I won't let her go