happy sunday!
---
i'm trying to
fill the void
inside me
but it's not working
i've started and
abandoned
passion projects
i've made friends
and lost them
over petty squabbling
i've thrown myself
into love
only to come out of it
halved
and tired
i'm trying to
fill the void
inside me
but it's not working
i've passed through
overgrown gardens
spilling over the
paths
of my soul
and i've dipped my
fingers
into lakes
of tears
that never come
when i need them to
i'm trying to
fill the void
inside me
but it's not working
and i can't pinpoint
the exact moment
in time
when i gave up
hoping
that i would ever
be okay
but i wish that i
could
i wish i could go back
and relive that moment
and make a
different choice
i'm trying to
fill the void
inside me
and i've filled it
with words
because i thought
i could write myself
a whole version
of me
but it didn't work
it only left me
starving
for starlight
and wishes in a well
it left me
wanting
something
that i can never have
i'm trying to
fill the void
inside me
and maybe i need to
fix the leak
to plug the gap
that's letting the
happinesses
slip away from me
first
but the void keeps
growing
and i'm not
fast enough
to stop the slosh of
joy
from spilling out
for good.