I don't know why
In the middle of the night
(I) keep comin(g) back t(o)
(T)hinking of you
When I get (lonely)
Though it was only
A few months we spent (together)
And (it was) nowhere near forever
It feels like it w(a)s
I (wish) there was never an "us"
Why can I so easily remember
(Th)e w(a)y i(t felt) to be with you
It was so (contradictory), for
I loved it, but (I hated) it too
I was not (who) I was supposed to be
I was not where (I should have been)
I wish you hadn't gotten close to me
But I'm not sure if (I regret being friends)
(You) are so goddamn hard to read
And you've (always) been a mystery
And I know that's why you (liked me)
Because I made it so goddamn easy
(And) when we were close (I hated it)
(But) from afar it looked so good
So (I only) made distance bit by bit
I wish I had just (understood)
But here I am and here (you) are
There's no turning back now
It's been (so) lo(n)g; we've come so far
S(o w)hy do you still make me frown?
The thoughts of (you still plague me)
They won't let me sleep
(Please just let me be)
Why won't they just leave?
They sneak up in the (dead) of night
When (I'm) laying awake in bed
Just (hoping) and trying with all my might
T(he)y (would) bother someone else instead
But I just toss and turn
And I (drown in) despair
How i(s t)his what I've (ea)rne(d)?
Why is life not fair?
(I am so)rry
But that's not what I (mean)