when i was seven,
i had a million obsessions.
sticker books, barbie dolls, birthday presents and more.
i wanted to grow up and be so many things
like a doctor for stuffed animals, an intergalactic warrior, a power puff girl.
all these dreams and aspirations
didn't seem so out of reach.
they seemed so easy and possible
and i felt unstoppable.
add a few more years to that age
and the circumstances change.
nuances and shades of gray,
complicated situations and busy days.
i don't know what i want in life.
i don't know what i want to be.
the future seems so muddled and unclear,
covering my eyes so i can't see
and so begins my greatest fear.