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Y/n, this might be one of my last pages of this journal.
I'm tired of apologizing for being a complete disaster and a disappointment to everyone.
You were the only one that understood me, my only sunshine.
Nothing helps anymore.
I don't feel alive anymore, I am just numb and tired. Both, physically and mentally.
If I would end it all will I finally see you again? I think so.
I'd get to see your pretty smile, I'd hear your contagious laugh again, sing to you and hold you until my arms give out.
If I would have the chance, I would kiss you, that's what I've been wanting to do for such a long time.
I wanted to know how it feels like to be loved by you, I would've brought you the moon, I'd do anything for you, just to make you smile.
Is it worth to keep fighting?