Walking into the college lobby, I smile but get nervous. Few people are staring as you can't really tell I'm pregnant, though i'm now almost 5 months pregnant. The baby is pretty small, but the doctors have said, considering i have a tiny, but sturdy frame, they are going to be around 8 to 9 pounds. They said that the baby also won't create my stomach to be too big.
I've chosen not to find the gender, so I've decided what i'll name the baby if it's a girl or boy.
I haven't spoken to Jacob in months. I talk to Easton occasionally. I miss Jacob like hell. I've talked to Isabelle. But not too much.
My moms the one who helped me pick the name.
It's related to Jacob.
According to my mom, Jacob had a sister.
I didn't know that. He never told me.
He also didn't tell me that he lost her to suicide.
She was his twin.
He never told me that.
I wish he had.
Her name was Evvyelan.
I'm gonna name her Evvy, if it's a girl.
And Jake if it's a boy.
That way somehow he's always there. In spirit or memory.