(A lone female voice whispers)
Will you remember me
Like grey smoke slowly rising in London's old Southgate
Each morning as I slowly open my tired red eyes in here
Filled with dark thoughts and whispers of the past
I still think of places in Enfield
I used to visit
Or people who’ve died
I’ve lost in an unholy war
Who have now entered
Gods gates
Now I am forever 27
I always wake up with a body and soul inside that’s slowly crying
With tears that don’t dry on their own
Here in my own dark painful version
Of Heaven
Will you still love me
My old lovers
Tomorrow
Even though you all once knew deep down
Inside
I’m was so addictive but really no good
Hey little rich girl
I once heard you say
But what is it about men
Who just like to play
When you still wake up all alone
Rich but still so poor in Camden
Wearing your deep depression like a familiar loved cherished
Old coat of darkened dreams
In tandem
Which still sing and silently
Screams
I now know
There is no greater love
Than the Almighty
For to know him is to
Love him even more
My day will come
Like me and Mrs. Jones
Love is maybe a losing game
Where you pull in
Fuck me black heels and white pumps
Where your soul is love drunk on cheap vodka and
From long lines of
Tempting cocaine
I now watch in silence at
All those subtle moments
As my life on this big screen in here
Flows
Forever tumbling like forgotten red and golden
Autumn leaves
As I stand
Close to the front of
This Great In-Between
You may be wondering
If I still visit London
Or Enfield
My answer is always
Yes
For
My reflection in gilded silver mirrors
I still see
In passing shop windows
Whispers of doubts slowly
Still
Swim on the molten surfaces of my mind
Seeking out all my hidden kingdoms
As me they always stalk and follow
Looking for lost shores to walk and run upon
And remain there
Haunting me forever
In some of my vintage old clothes
Especially through
Half time
When the black cockerel crows
And the
Great Golden Horn blows
Some say I was always doomed
Just
Another singer simply eating
And drinking
New and old
Pharmaceutical and alcoholic treasures
Walking the long mirage filled ancient
Winding roads
Towards
A certain death or salvation
But still a winding
Road to the end
Filled and overflowing
With such darkness
I thought was just there
For my pleasure
But through the blurred white lines
And the distorted visions
I speak this
My life’s story is
A song for just you
I believe my soul will soar again
In time
My inner faith will create a silver bridge
To leave this dark pathway to self-destruction
And instead, lead to my own spiritual
Resurrection
For I believe
Jesus died on the cross for me
All I can do to repay his sacred
Belief
His sacrifice
Is to conquer all my demons
And share my inner dreams
I used to bury
So deeply hidden within me
Before I am called back
By he who always calls
To fade forever into the
Black
Before I go
Can I ask a question
Of you
Swear on your
Body and soul in the middle
Of this dark night
Standing between all those
You still love but also those
Who you know still cheat
We’ll always be best friends
Right
For fame and love is such a losing game and I need you
To always remember my name
I was simply thrown under the
Freedom Train as I couldn’t hold on any longer
Due to my everlasting
Pain
Remember me
My name is Amy