EMILY
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Thursday, October 29th
I'm looking at myself and the clothes that I'm wearing at and non-confidently tilt my head. I don't know if I should leave this outfit on. It looks chill and that kind of represents my thoughts on not making such a big deal out of this date. But on the other hand I feel a little underdressed.
After all it is still a date. After months of being just friends I actually realized that that is not the relationship I truly want with Lucas. We flirt, well, I try to flirt and I honestly want to make more out of this. So I asked him out this week. Again. But this time real and genuine. It took me a few tries but in the end I was able to let the sentence "will you go out with me?" leave my mouth. I was able to tell that he seemed surprised but he thankfully agreed. A rejection would've been embarrassing as hell.
I decide to take off the oversized pants I was wearing to switch it with a tighter jeans I found for going through some piles in my closet. That should look more classy. I also wear a bit more jewelery like rings and especially earrings as I was not wearing any before. This looks alright I think. I turn a little in front of my mirror and nod my head to myself.
In a little purse I put my phone, keys and some money before I head outside on the hallway. I find Sam leaning against his bedroom door, one foot cocked as he does something on his phone. "Hey." I speak up to have his attention on me instead. He looks up from the display and smiles, "Hi. You going already?".
Nodding my head I answer "yeah Lucas said lunch at this specific restaurant we went out the first time too is fantastic." I laugh. Sam grins at me. "What about you? Is Lizzy still with Mr. Depp?" I ask.
Sam sighs deeply and scratches the back of his head. "Yeah, she is. She said he wanted to go through some calculations again. Which I don't understand I mean he can do that on Sunday, right? I'm so happy that it's going to be her last detention!".
"Me too. It really is odd though, Mr. Depp seems to dislike her a lot for some reason. Why else would he keep her after lessons like all the time?" I think out loud and adjust the bag on my shoulder. "Yeah." He sighs. "However, see you later!" I say and peck his cheek before walking off towards the entrance.
I smile when I spot the back of Lucas' head through the glass door and gently knock on it so he could step aside. He opens the door for me and grins in a cute way, "hey." He goes. "Hi. Everything alright?". Lucas nods his head yes and a little hesitantly comes to give me a warm and long lasting hug.
I just randomly had a huge smile on my face when we let go again and took a walk to the restaurant. I remember the night I was here first. Me and Lucus started with a rather slow going conversation as I was desperately trying to find things the two of us could talk about. But soon it all came naturally and I had one of the best evenings I have ever had.
I'm having my hands on the bottom of my shirt randomly holding it as we walk beside each other. I remember that the last time we went out for like a real date we held hands on the way back. I thought about grabbing his hand but then I figured that this is something like our first date and maybe I should take it easy. Lucas once told me that he was having a crush on me for a couple of years now but given the things that happened and uncomfortable situations we've been in I wouldn't count on him still crushing like that on me. I don't want to be careless.
"So what are you guys doing this weekend?" Lucas asks after a few moments and points out that we'll cross a corner in a few steps. "Oh um, Ian's boyfriend gives a Halloween party this weekend. We'll go there." I say. He nods his head in understanding. "What are you gonna be?".
I chuckle a little, "actually I'm still not sure yet. I thought about going as a devil because except for the horns I believe I've got everything to dress up as one. Like a red dress and so!". Once again he nods his head, "I could see that.".
"Not too sure if I should take that as an insult or not." I say and smirk as he turns his head to me. "No no!" Lucas immediately says and eagerly shakes his head no. I laugh and go "I'm kidding. What are you up to this weekend?" I ask.
He shrugs his right shoulder. "Not much. My brother invited me to go out with his friends but I'm not sure if I'll go." He says. "Well, if you want, you could always come with us." I suggest and walk a little nearer beside him. Our arms touch. He thanks me but I don't know if I in some way convinced him to come along. I respect that he's not into drinking, partying and all that stuff but I really wished he'd come sometime. That way I could spend more time with him.
Soon after our conversation we arrive at the restaurant. Lucas, as the gentleman he is, opens the door for me and I thank him while going in.
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"Have you talked to Margot lately?" I asked as we were walking along the hallways with quiet settled between us. Lucas shakes his head no and grabs onto my hand a little tighter. "I actually still don't know how to feel about this thing. She's been behaving real bad towards me and now out of the sudden she says she's.. into me." He frowns and shakes his head another time like he wouldn't believe what he just let come out of his mouth.
I shrug my left shoulder and say "well, isn't it a thing to pity the ones you have a crush on?". Lucas laughs and looks down to me for a brief moment. "Yeah I did hear of that but I don't get it, honestly. I also wouldn't have thought anybody like her could like me this way if you know what I mean". I raise an eyebrow as we turn a corner and ask him why.
"Well I mean I'm not like.. you know.. the guy from our school. I'm not popular and stuff. I don't get long with most of our co students! I mean I'm fine with that but still". I sigh and lean my head sideways a little against his upper arm. Thinking a little I respond "you shouldn't think that way. You have many abilities to make a girl happy!".
"You think so?" He asks and slowly comes to a stand as we reach my bedroom door. I eagerly nod my head yes. "Sure you do. You're a nice guy, incredibly generous and sweet. You're smart, funny in some kinda way I still hope," we laugh at my joke as I like to tease him at how unfunny he is, then I grab his hand, "you're gentle. Respectful to the people around you, careful with what you say and how you say it. You're.. like, perfect!". I wasn't really paying attention to what I was saying anymore as he just seemed to get closer with every word I spoke.
That is because I stepped forwards until I was really standing like right in front of him, looking into his eyes and starting to feel nervous and anxious but also excited and good at the same time. I looked into his face and couldn't believe how damn perfect he simply seemed to me. Like I could see inside him and only spot the most beautiful soul. "T-thank you." He finally gets to say after gulping a few times. He doesn't smile but rather seems shocked and blushes.
I do smile at him and lose the grip on his hand before carefully laying my hands on his shoulder. I get on my tip toes, coming nearer to his face. To be honest I really really did want to just kiss him right away but I went so slow in case he isn't feeling comfortable with it so there's time for him to step away. But he doesn't. Taking that as a sort of answer I close my eyes and softly connect our pairs of lips into a kiss.
Butterflies, literal butterflies.
I want to be discret with this one so I intended a simpel, innocent kiss and am about to back off and step away. But then I feel Lucas tightening his arms around my waist and keeping me in my place. He leans his head a little more forwards to keep our lips in touch. I smile into the now longer kiss we share and move my hands up to his neck and gently grab into his hair as we start moving our lips around.
The kiss turned out better than I thought, given the facts that I have not a bit of practice and it's Lucas' first. I enjoyed it a lot though.
We stood there a few minutes, getting deeper and deeper with feelings into the kiss. It happened to feel better with almost every second. Not that I thought that'd be possible. Slow and deep breathing is to hear other than the sound of our lips hugging each other in gentle and slow movements.
Then I break the kiss with my face still pretty much close to his and our foreheads leaning against each others. "That was nice." Lucas tells me quietly and I can see him turning up the corners of his lips into a smile. I nod my head yes and bite my lower lip to keep myself from grinning, "it was.".
"Look, I am very exhausted but.. I'd like to repeat this some time." I say and my hands go back to find Lucas' shoulders again. "Which one do you mean? The date or the kiss?" Lucas asks and I can feel his hands gently sliding over my back from the bottom to the top. I pretend to think for a moment. "Both!".
Lucas starts smirking and presses a kiss to my forehead "I'm in. Have a good night!". I wish him a goodnight as well as peck his cheek before actually unwillingly stepping away from him and entering my own bedroom. I speed walked through my room to get my clothes changed into Pyjamas, getting the make up off, my toothbrush and finally under bedsheets. Then, after five busy minutes, I fell asleep with a huge smile on my face.
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I have in my notes that Margot was supposed to be in this chapter. Somehow. I don't remember so..
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