you said forever now I drive alone past your street
It had been two years since Jisoo's first break-up. It had also been two years since she first tried for a drivers license but it was only just a week ago that she had the license.
She can finally drive! legally, of course, usually, she would just drive around the neighbourhood and town with him without the license, but that was two years ago.
Him. He was her first boyfriend, he was the one who taught her how to drive but somehow, she kept failing the test.
"I promise you, once you get your license, we would go any place you want" He swears
"What if I want to go to Brazil? How about that?" Jisoo smirked as laid her head on his shoulder
"Sure, I'll take you there" He spoke as he strokes her hair
Jisoo let out a laugh, "You need to have a plane or plane ticket to get to Brazil, not a car, stupid!"
"Well, I can always buy a ticket, it would be like my gift to you" He smiled
"Hmm, ok, promise?"
"Promise, It's us forever Jisoo"
"Us, forever."
Jisoo smiled at the bittersweet memory as she starts the car.
It was such an innocent yet so loving promise, it gave her very much mixed emotions. She felt sadness, happiness and sometimes, betrayal.
"Taehyung, are you going to Irene again?" Jisoo asked as she fiddled with her hands
"Erm, yeah, we're working on this project and we're doing it in her house"
Jisoo's body softened, "Again? I barely saw you this week, when are you going to have time for me?"
Taehyung sighs as he checks his watch, "Ji, I'm sorry, I really am but Irene and this project is the only way I can pass this subject, you know that"
"But-"
He picked up his backpack, "I'm sorry, I got to go, I'll see you, yeah?" He said as he rushed out the door
Jisoo was left standing alone once again.
Her mind wandered again to a distant memory that was once hidden in the back of her mind, It was Taehyung and the blonde girl. He would sometimes spend his breaks with her and not her, they looked more like a couple than they both did.
Which sucked cause she was his girlfriend, not her.
But it looked like she wasn't.
"Taehyung this is the final straw!" She shouts, "Is she your girlfriend or am I?"
He ran a hand through his hair in frustration, "For heaven's sake, Jisoo, why are we having this conversation?!"
"Cause it looks like she's your girlfriend and not me! That may not be a big deal for you but it is for me! So answer me, is it her or me?" She yelled
"You, Jisoo! You're the one that I love! Not her, it was never her" His tone lowering down as he neared Jisoo
"I'm sorry for making you feel like you're not important, but you are, ok?" He whispers
"Are you gonna spend more time with me?"
"Yes, I promise"
She can still remember that promise, how the scene happened and how he said it. Then there was their first anniversary, not her most favourite memory.
She drove to the curb as her eyes still focused on the lane
It was almost midnight and Taehyung was supposed to pick her up for their date. It was their anniversary.
She was on the verge of tears as the clock struck midnight. He still wasn't there, no text, no call, no nothing.
"Fuck my life." She bluntly says as she threw her purse on the ground, taking off her heels.
She dressed back into her normal clothes as the dress she wore just a couple of minutes ago was now on the basket filled with dirty clothes.
The night passed, her eyes were bloodshot red and swollen from all the crying she did last night.
She didn't go to school. The worse part is that, looks like Taehyung didn't even notice.
She lowered down her car window to let more fresh air in, she didn't like having the AC on, she would always have the urge to vomit.
She remembers how she used to stick her head out the window when she and Taehyung would go to the countryside, the air would always be so fresh and clean.
A knock was heard on her door, she reckoned it was her roommate, Roseanne who usually would spend the night at her sister's place when it was the weekend
She stayed in her bed as she knows Roseanne had a spare key with her but the knocking continued
"Who is it?" She yells, her voice was all groggy and raspy
No one answered but the knocking proceeded
"Rosé if that's you, I know you have a spare key" She rolled her eyes
The knocking resumed, making her groan internally, she was weak. Too weak to cry and too weak to do basically anything.
She opened the door, a blanket wrapped around her. She was a mess.
"Rose-" She stopped as she saw who was the person knocking
"Jisoo," Taehyung says
Jisoo gulped, "What the hell are you doing here?" She wanted to yell but she couldn't as she was too vulnerable
"If you're here to say sorry-"
"Jisoo, I'm breaking up with you" He cuts her off
Her eyes widened as the blanket drops to the floor
"W-What? Taehyung..." She sobs lightly, "No, don't do this to me, I forgive you ok? I forgive you just please..." She pleads
Taehyung felt a pang of guilt as she saw the helpless and broken face on Jisoo
"Don't break up with me! Please, you're the only one I have, Taehyung, stay!"
"Jisoo, please..." He said
"Then why?! Why are you breaking up with me? What did I do wrong?!" Jisoo angrily shouts
"It's not you, Jisoo, it's me-"
"No," She cuts him off, "It's Irene, it's her, isn't it? The blondie you're always with?"
Taehyung looked down as he bit his lip
"I knew it, I knew it, It's her, why Tae?"
"I'm sorry, i-i can't help the way I feel..." H mumbled
"Do you love her?" Jisoo asked
Taehyung looked up, "What?"
"I said do you love her?" Jisoo bit the inside of her cheeks, "Cause you wouldn't leave this easily if you don't, so tell me, do you?"
Taehyung gulped, he hates to admit it but he does. He does love her.
"Yes, I love her..." He mutters
Jisoo took a deep breath, "Then our conversation is over" She slammed the door shut as she felt her body go numb
"I'm sorry, Jisoo" Was the last thing she heard as the sound of footsteps slowly disappeared
Jisoo fell to the ground as more and more tears fell, her loud cries filled the room
"Jisoo?! Jisoo!" Rosé's voice was heard as she entered the room, pure panic was seen in her eyes
She threw her bag across the room as she fell to her knees, bringing Jisoo into her arms
"Shhh, it's ok, it's ok to cry" She whispers as Jisoo moved her head to Rosé's shoulder
Jisoo doesn't normally cry in front of anyone, in the past two years of knowing her, Rosé never saw her cry or even show a bit of vulnerableness
This was new to Rosé and Jisoo but the way she solaces the crying girl was comforting, the Jisoo that was once in hysterics was now softly crying in Rosé's arms.
Jisoo smiled lightly, she was thankful that Rosé was there that day. She was thankful that Rosé is in her life, she was the light that helped Jisoo out of darkness, she was the stars and moon that appears every night.
She was her angel.
She reminiscence the next following weeks after the breakup, She was absent for a week but Roseanne, being the sweetheart she is, helped her in finishing all of her assignments and get back on track
After that week, she came back to school, Tired but better. She would often see Taehyung and Irene hanging around the campus, she didn't know if they were official but after that week
As she came back on Monday
It was confirmed, Irene posted a picture with Taehyung on Instagram stating that they were now official.
It took him two weeks to find somebody new so it bothers her how it took her a month or more to do so.
Jisoo's car slowed down as she looked outside the window
It was Taehyung's house, she was driving by his street.
She can't remember when was the last time they talked, probably greeted each other on each others birthday and small hi's and hello's we're exchange but never a proper conversation.
"Cause you said forever now I drive alone past your street."
Jisoo looks down as she raises her car windows back up, the sight of his house got smaller on the side mirror as Jisoo drives.
It took a while, but she was free.
Finally free.