" Faye, it's best to propose your thought properly, why are you hesitating so much it's not like you two are in no-string relationship. You are actually dating, can't you understand what does dating mean, oh gosh stop that there's 'no tomorrow expression' "
Tristin was confused and fumed at the same time, she knows faye well that what she thinks till now. Alex and faye was dating she knows this but they didn't even went for single date, what was this, are they joking? she's telling her that now. If she loves him why did she have to be in this kind of relationship and why she have to hesitate over a confession but first why confess again if they are already dating. They are not even pushed by their parents to get married to anyone, and now she's telling me in roundabout way that it's more like no-string relationship. she can't understand their relationship.
" see, if he didn't love you or care about you, he won't stay in this whatever relationship, he didn't cheat you or two- timed right? maybe he just didn't realise his love for you? You can take this bet, if he really didn't love you then I think you should end this. it's good for the two of you, then there will be plenty of chances to meet the right one for you, the one who will love you. It's not like he's the only handsome guy, out in the world there will always 'one is better than other' in everything.
" B..but he's the most handsome I ever known " Faye defendeded her choice.
" whatever " Tristin rolls her eye " Anyways your meeting him tonight right, so be sure to confess everything if it didn't work out then cut ties with him, I know I don't have a say in your relationship but I don't want you to get in the process that's why I'm insisting you, I have a dinner meeting so I'm going back , good luck faye " she half hugged Faye and headed out of her office.
After her friend departure, she sighed aloud, resting her head in her arms on her work desk.
Not like she don't know why Alex was not interested, she knows everything, she was the one who pursued him. it's not his fault, she still remember the things Alex said vividly
**
" Faye I know you have feelings for me, because of that I start to ignore you I don't want to lead you, I can't reciprocate your feelings " Alex calmy replied to her confession and accussion of ignoring her
" No please, I don't care you can just be with me that's enough for me. we don't have to go for a date, movies, dinner nothing, being with you is enough for me " she pleads, she knows that no matter what, she can't keep the promise, everyone gets greedy towards the thing they like, they want to possess that for themselves but if it's not mutual it will affect them, make them loose their hope of themselves and get hurt. she knows it's not going to work out between them but still the stubbornness in her made the decision.
Alex can't win her over and it's not like he's a saint or monk to resist temptation " I can't one hundred percent be committed in this relationship, I have my family, friends and career to focus on, because of that I didn't date anyone I don't want them to be a distarction. I won't cheat you but if I find my love I can't guarantee that, it's you who insisted this so don't blame me in future, is this okay for you " he replied resolutely.
without hesitating a single second faye agreed to that. In that spur moment she was unbelievably happy but deep down she knows it's nothing more then a no-string relationship, she will get hurt in the end she knows everything but can't get over that man. Alex just as he said only sleep with her, he don't even make a ounce of effort to know her, she first thought he will try to love her but no, he don't . she tried... tried to know him, understand him but Alex was rather busy than answering her question of ' what you like and dislike ' he was clear in his role.
She's dreading the days with him, she know it will not last long, many of them knows they are in relationship even her and Alex parents but they are indifferent in this matter they know Alex character this is nothing to him, who I'm deceiving by saying he maybe loving me, no he was not. That was the reality.
She was preparing to propose once again in this relationship, her last hope to be with him, she wants to say everything that bottles up deep in her heart, her last chance. if he didn't accept she knows it's their last day in this relationship. They two are already fed up but they didn't initiate to broke this already shattered relationship for a long time.Maybe it's for that.
**
she arrived at Alex's apartment half an hour before their meeting time. she's restless so much that her fair slender hands were ice cold.
she waited...waited....waited...
Time is already 9 pm. Her restless mind and heart already calmed down for a long time. Even though they are not close enough, they always meet exactly at the decided time, if they can't be in time at least there will be a message if not a phone call. she already called him several times and messaged him a bunch, she likes to think he was in a meeting or any dire situation so he can't come, but not a single message or phone call came. she wants to say everything today, she wants to know the answer.
**
Alex lead the way after arriving at the desolated place, he kept on walking, there are bushes and trees everywhere, there's no clear path ahead only plants and trees.
jas started to terrifies a bit, okay not a bit but a lot. Alex didn't say a word and kept on walking, it's like he was going to kill him and bury him deep in this place, maybe he was wrong to follow him? but his heart was still in the race to see Alex, he doesn't know if it's the same for Alex, then suddenly Alex stopped in his moments and turned to face him with a caring smile adorned his face, his eyes were in a crescent because of the smile. All the uncertainties were warded off in that second, jas was chanted by his smile. his heart was saying to him, that it was correct to follow him, that it was going to be a happy moment in his life.
" We are here " Alex announced but there was nothing but the plants. He then did some pushing and pulling of plants before they get to witness a beautiful scene.
There's a lake with clean transparent blue water with trees surrounding the lake, leaves were brushing each other with rustling sound because of the wind. The swans and ducklings floating and quacking because of the pleasure they get from the cool water, jas can't even understand how come even ducks are here, it's like a forest. Birds we're chirping everywhere not loud but like a classic melody, it enters their ear and calms their mind, tress was lush green, it seem to be like places where confession held in romantic movies or dramas. The winds brushed off jas cheeks like kissing him. He giggled unknowingly by the pleasant wind, suddenly he was pulled somewhere...
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He was standing and gazing out the windows there was a garden full of grasses and there are swings and seesaws for children.
Suddenly someone hugged his waist from behind, resting his face in the crook of his neck and sniffing." shall we go for a horse ride tomorrow " he was shuddered by that man's touch and alluring silver voice, the shudder caused the man to chuckle.
Before he can answer it, a child's voice was heard saying " Daddy I want to I want to " the man chuckled again and get off of him and hugged the running child " my baby wish is my wish "
jas turn around to see Alex holding a 3 years old child who looks partially like him and Alex, hugging his neck and smiling like a little sun. They fixed their gaze at him for an answer.
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He was then pulled back out to see Alex back at him, he was facing the lake and slowly turned around to look at him.
At the moment, jas saw a panic expression on Alex's face as he hurried towards him asking what happened, he was confused why he was asking that and was not sure that he came back from his vision or not.
A slight cool hand caress his face " why are you crying " Alex asked like he was in pain, that's when jas realized he was crying.
jas placed his hand above Alex and closed his eyes recalling the vision he had just now. He was so happy that he started to cry. so this was his future. he can't contain his joy, this was the best vision he ever had, his heart bloomed by this sudden happiness.
He always longed for the warmth of the family, the one he wants for his future, seeing that in the vision, his future, he can't help but cry. He was going to have a beautiful family and a cute son who looks like Alex and him. The wish he had for his life after his mother died. It will happen.
" it's nothing, I'm just happy. it's so beautiful " jas opened his beautiful hazel eyes with water suspending in them and pointed to the lake.
Alex was relieved thinking that jas was happy to be here, good thing he brings him here instead of somewhere.
" it's my special spot only few people know this " he holds jas hand in his, jas hand-fitted perfectly in his.
jas smiled at the words. he's one of the few important people for him now. ' Maybe he was going to be the key for his happiness '