Raavi pov....
I was waiting for Shiva at the somnath beach..... I came 30 minutes early as I was getting too restless.... I know the decision that I have taken will surely hurt me bt atleast Shiva ki dosti toh nahi kona parega!!!
Rish ko bol toh diya ki mein kar lungi par abb bohot daar lag raha hai!!!!
I look at the watch it was 3:55 still 5 minutes to go... I hope this time Shiva time par aa jaye!!
At that time rishita call me...
Rishita - hello raavi Shiva aaya kya?? (Tens)
Raavi- nahi!!!
Rishita - dekh raavi phir se sochle.... Apne baare mein soch raavi.... 10 years, 10 years se tu usse pyaar karti hai....!!! (Tens)
Raavi- I know rish.... Par apne khushi ke liye mein kisi aur ki khushi toh nahi chin sakti na...!!!
Rishita - tu hurt ho jayegi raavi!! (Broken voice)
Raavi- I know tu mere liye kaafi tens hai par don't worry mein kudko handle kar lungi.... U don't worry!!! (Softly)
I try my best not to cry.... Right now I need to be strong.... I have to control my emotions
Rishita - theek hai tu jo bhi kar rahi hai, I m with u.... Chal take care aur please agar mere zaroorat pare then call me!!! (Concerned)
Raavi- sure!!!
Then I cut the call....
Kabhi nahi sochta tha ki ek din asa bhi aayega jab mujhse meri khushi ke liye kud ki khushi ko maar dena hoga!!
The weather was getting bad..... Dark cloud were form, as if the whole universe was sad for me ...... It could rain anytime....
Raavi tu jo bhi kar rahi hai theek hai!!!
I closed my eyes n pray for God's blessing..
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As I open my eyes I saw Shiva standing in front of me....
He looks awkward..... Pehle jab hum ek saath hote teh we were so comfortable n happy par ajj meri wajah se Shiva itna uncomfortable ho gaya hai!!!
We both had an intense eye lock....
Shiva - (breaking the eye lock) kaisi hoon tum???
Raavi- theek hoon aur tum??
Shiva - mein bhi theek hoon....
Then we both went in our silent zone.... We were looking here n there thinking topics to talk...... It was strange... There was a time when we couldn't stop talking n today is the day when we could not even say a word to each other..... I decided to talk first..
Raavi- Shiva mujhe tumse kuch kehna hai!!! (Looking down)
Honestly I didn't have the courage to look at his eyes.... Not because I was scared but because if I look at him, I won't be able to control n just cry...
Shiva- mujhe bhi tumse kuch kehna hai!!! (Nervously)
There was a little hope in my heart.... Throught I knew the truth ... But still yeh dil hai ki samajhna hi nahi chahta..
Raavi-ha bolo!!! (Softly)
Shiva - raavi.... I don't know kaise kahu.... Par mein tumse pyaar nahi karta!!!! (Guilty)
My heart broke into pieces..... I knew that he doesn't love me... But hearing that from his mouth was like someone has just stab a knife in my heart....
I just wanted to run to a place where no one can find me n cry out my heart...
I was broken, my world was shatter, my fairy tail world was destroy
I couldn't meet his eyes..... If I do I will cry!!!
Raavi- mujhe bhi yahi baat ke baare mein baat karni thi..... (My voice crake)
He look at me bt I look down!!!
Raavi- Shiva.... Mein bhi tumse pyaar nahi karti.... Pata nahi us din kya hogaya tha ki I told u that..... Maybe mein kaafi daar gayi thi isliye kuch bhi bol diya.... Ha mein tumse pyaar karti hoon . ... (I took all the courage n look at him) but as a friend!!!
I look at him.... First he look shock but then relief....
Seeing him relief n believing in my lie make me broke more n so I put down my head n cry silently...
Shiva- thank god raavi.... Tumhe mujhse pyaar nahi hai.... Mein kitna daar gaya tha... Kaise kaise kayal aa rehe teh.... I m so relief that u don't love me!! (Smiling)
I was hurt.... Very hurt... How easily he believe my lie n was smiling.... Par galti shiva ki nahi hai..!!!
Shiva - raavi.... (Shaking my arms)
Honesty I didn't want to look at him... I didn't want to break in front of him n make him guilty....
At that moment it started raining heavily.... Maybe the sky was crying with me!!!
Shiva - raavi chalo.... Bohot tes barish ho rahi hai!!!
He hold my hand n started running
I stop.... He look at me..... I look at him..
Thanks to the rain now I can cry freely n he was won't even see..
Shiva - rukh kyu gayi?? (Confusingly)
Raavi- Shiva mein tumse bass yeh kehne aayi thi.... Mujhse kuch kam hai.... Mein abhi chalti hoon...
Shiva - kaha ja rahi hoon.... Itni tes barish ho rahi hai... Chalo mere saath... Mein drop kar dunga!!!
Raavi- nahi Shiva it's k... Mujhe urgently jana hoga!!! (I remove his hand)
Shiva - theek hai... Lekin hum kal milenge... Theek hai na!!(Smiling)
I smile at him n ran!!!!!
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Raavi - hello rish!!! (Crying)
Rishita - raavi !!! Kya huwa tu ro kyu rahi hai??? (Tens)
Raavi- rish tu please humare school ki backyard mein aa ja!!! (Crying)
Rishita - raavi tu theek toh hai na..... Mein abhi aa rahi hoon tu jinta mat kar mein aa rahi hoon!!! (Crying)
I just listen to her n cut the call...
Kyu Shiva mujhe pyaar nahi kar sakta... Kyu??? 😭
Flashback
I was crying hugging rishita...
Raavi- rish mein abb kya karungi??(crying)
Rishita - pehle toh tu rona ban kar.... Kya haal bana liya hai tune raavi... Please rona ban kar (concerned) .... Mein abhi jakar hot chocolate lekar aati hoon tu yahi rukh!!!
I nodded...
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Rishita came with the hot chocolate.... While I was having it I remember Shiva....
Shiva ko bhi hot chocolate bohot pasand hai....!!!
At that time rishita got a call n so she excuse herself n went out to attend the call.....
I was just thinking about my life.... My life was just so perfect... My family is so supportive and loving.... My friends are so caring n crazy.... I was persuing my dreams.... I had everything that one need par phir bhi mujhe wohi chahiye tah jo mera nahi hai..... Shiva!!!
I was frustrated with myself!!!
While I was busing on my thoughts I saw rishita coming..... She looks very tens....
Raavi- kya huwa???
Rishita - kuch nahi!!! (Tens)
Raavi- bol na kya huwa???
I waited for her reply...... She didn't say anything paka dev se ladaee ki hogi..
Raavi - kya huwa??? Dev ne kuch bola??
Rishita look at me n reply...
Rishita- dev kaise Shiva ko justify kar sakta hai ha .... Dono bhai ko sirf apni fikar hai!! (Irritated)
Raavi - matlab??
Rishita- dev call karke yeh bol raha hai ki Shiva ki koyi galti nahi usse pyaar aur commitment phobia hai..... Ha manti hoon ki Shiva ko commitment se daar lagta hoga.... But yeh kya behavior hai ha.... Usne na hi tujhe call kiya aur na hi message... Tera haal thak bhi jaane ki koshish nahi kar raha hai.... Agar itni hi chinta hai... Best friend best friend karta hai toh atleast tujhse baat karta... Teri fikar hoti par nahi call aur text bhi nahi kiya... Instead dev uski wakalat kar raha hai.... Un logo ko teri chinta kyu nahi hai..... Mein na irritated ho gayi hoon Shiva ke behavior hai.....
(Angrily )
Raavi- relax...
Rishita - jaise relax ha.... Yaha tu ro rahi hai aur woh Shiva ko teri itni bhi fikar nahi hai... Aur mein toh shock hoon ki dev bhi uske actions ko hi justify karne mein laga hai.... Usse shiva ko samjhana chahiye na!!! (Irritated)
I saw rishita was getting too angry....
Meri wajah se rishita ka bhi rishta problem mein ha....
Raavi - mein ajj shiva ko bol dungi ki mein usse pyaar nahi karti (sternly)
Rishita look at me with wife eyes...
Rishita- kya???
Raavi- usse mujhse pyaar nahi hai na..toh na sahi par mujhe toh hai na....
Rishita - tu pagal ho gayi hai kya.... Mein tujhe asa kuch nahi karne dungi... Itni mushkil se tune apni feelings ko express kiya hai.... Mein tujhe kud ko hurt nahi karne dungi (angrily)
Raavi- mein uska pyaar na karna bardaasht kar sakti hoon.... Par uski dosti kona bardaasht nahi kar sakti.... I love him.... Please rish!!!! (Crying)
Rishita hug me!!!
I feel so blessed to have rishita... She is not just my best friend, she is my soul sister , mere liye dev thak se bhi lad gayi.... Usse bass meri fikar hai... Woh apne rishte ka na soch kar yeh soch rahi hai ki mein hurt na ho jao.... She is angry with Shiva for hurting me... She is angry with me for letting others hurt me.... I love her!!!!
Rishita - theek hai... Mein tere saath hoon
Mein mere pyaar ki wajah se rishita aur dev ka rishta karap nahi hone dungi....
Dev and rishita were fighting ..... Rishita was supporting me while dev Shiva.... So it's better to do what is needed
Flashback end
Rishita - raavi!!!
Raavi pov end
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~Priya Pariyaar