Awake and Away - #1 dec. 2020...

By greasygamerboyloser

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This is my old diary lol More

Before you read
Another Night, well I guess morning
❔Flashbacks❔
A Breakdown
New years!
Feeling like a main character
Update
Confusion and being scared
Past Ruins Future
All night
Eight o Five
Paper
Perfect
Hug.
Bye
Sleepy
Pizza rolls on a Bike
Sitting- Relatable
Crush
To Many Projects
Night Night
I Love Everything
Run Away
Finally Catching Up
Google Meets
Peacefulness
A/N
Another A/N
Mental Breakdown Because Lamp
Goodbye, Till You Snitch
Back To Steady
Thoughts
good person.
IMAGINE IF
dreams of better
The Suprise
I-need
memories of dreams
fly- Fly
Poetry
middle school.
Another Memory
Today
There is a mistake.
No- just no
Suffer
Gifted
daydream
Sonder
Bed.
Jace
why would anyone care. i mean even i dont
Angry at all things I shouldn't be
stop getting your hopes up
texts
:)
I don't like any of it
Everything my way
hurt
Best Nightmare
Bad Timing.
Tsundere
Not worth it.
I miss you.
how do I explain
reminder to all that read.
Conscious
what. the. fuck!
How am I supposed to feel?
Awake and Away
i dont want it to happen again.
Can My Brain Shut Up?
Forced
Exhilarating.
why can't I cry?
Rewriting.
STUPID LITTLE FUCKING GIRl
Kylee Appreciation Post <3
Figure it out
Fucking Idiot
desperation
a cry for help
The worst and best year of my life.

lovesick sucide.

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By greasygamerboyloser

Present
6/10/21
1:06 am
(No music for you reader) uwu

I want to stop thinking about him. It hurts. I hate it so much. He doesn't like me, I've known that since we were little. So why does it hurt so bad that he loves him? I guess I'm jealous. I thought about something I haven't thought about in a long time. I was thinking about him and my mind just said "I want to die.". I don't know what to do. I cried, I was doing good. I hadn't thought that in a long time ig.

I came up with a special poem that would go in Nex's and Ben's letters. I decided that it would be called lovesick suicide. I don't exactly what it would be if I had to write it right now. But I know what topics I would want to be in it.

Including
Jealousy
Hopeless love
Greed
Love
Obsession
Friendship.

I don't know what to do anymore.
(167 words) completed 6/10/21 at 1:23 am.

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