It's now Monday and I've texted Jennie a little throughout the weekend. She's still saying that she'll break up with Jackson soon she's just WAITING FOR THE RIGHT MOMENT
But what if the right moment never happens and I'm just stuck as her secret make-out buddy? Don't get me wrong making out with her is great I would just like her to be my first girlfriend, although there is one problem ever since that kiss with Tzuyu she's been appearing in my mind at random moments
I don't know what to do because I'm so confused. I'm seriously discombobulated right now with a sigh, I dragged myself from the little home I made in my bed and got up
Now in my school uniform, I am ready to go. As it raining my mom is driving my brother and me to school. Bambam is called shotgun so I'm stuck in the back seat, I always like being in the car in the rain because it feels like I'm in some sort of music video
It didn't help that there was the perfect song on the radio to be in a sad music video. Under my breath, I slightly hummed the lyrics just of earshot
I am always careful with humming in the car ever since I was little, when I was younger single ladies came on when we were in the car and I started blasting the lyrics out and dancing, but as it turns out I'm a horrible singer and dancer and wish to never think of that moment of my life again
Although as I try to forget that terrible moment of the past it still gets mentioned by my parents at family reunions
Once at school, I say goodbye to my mom and she kisses me on the cheek, I let her do so because she's my mom and I don't want her to cry with all the pregnancy hormones
At the door waiting for me is Somi like normal but she's talking with Tzuyu. Feeling nervous I walked up to them and we greeted each other with a 'Hi'. Surprisingly Tzuyu didn't back away but instead gave me a timid smile
When we are all walking into the hall I couldn't help but look Tzuyu up and down a bit. Her skirt was a bit higher and her top clung onto her figure perfectly, every curve of her body looked great and her legs looked so long with the most amazing shape
Wait....was I checking her out? As I thought this a little blush came rising onto my cheeks. I couldn't like her I like Jennie. But is Jennie some kind of fantasy I want to happen but never will, is Tzuyu my reality someone I never realized I could like or even love one day if I gave it a chance?
What if she's over me and that's why we can be friends again if she even wants to, this whole situation has come to be a lot more confusing with every thought. Maybe I should just distract myself and talk to Bambam about this later
It may be lame with me always going to my brother for advice but he has dated a lot more people than me
"Hello, earth to Lisa" Somi remarked waving her hand in my face when we got to her locker. Tzuyu chuckled next to her while waiting for me to answer
"Sorry I was in my world" I uttered blushing an even darker red
Whilst Somi grabbed her books and other bit's and bobs from her locker she asked "So what or who were you thinking about?"
"Uh....No one...Um I mean nothing" I stuttered turning redder than a tomato
"I don't believe you but okay" she shrugged turning around shoving books in her bag
When that was over we headed to our separate classes. Mine happened to be chemistry with Jennie, I'd normally be excited for that reason but today I feel sick with dread
As I entered my class my breath hitched when I saw Jennie, her hair looks amazing in beach wave curls and her makeup is stunning. She's tapping her nails on the desk that have been painted a different color since Saturday when I last saw her
I trudged over to our desk feeling timider than ever. Even though I know our date went well I still had a gnawing feeling at the bottom of my stomach. What if this isn't right after all?
With a deep breath, I reached the desk and sat down next to the most beautiful girl I've ever seen
"Hi," she said brightly whilst grinning at me
"H-Hey" I replied my words coming out shaking
Jennie held my hand discretely under the table and squeezed it slightly
"Why are you so nervous?" She asked and again for the millionth time I blushed
"I-I don't know" I responded scared of what she might say. It's stupid that I still care if she's secretly judging me or even playing me just to humiliate me in the end
But then I remembered the teddy bear she won for me and how it made me feel, that night I'd set the teddy bear on my bed and stared at it until my eyes willed me to sleep
"Hey it's okay, I just thought after our date we'd be able to talk to each other more without being nervous" Jennie expressed stroking my hand with her thumb comfortingly
"Yeah, sorry I've just never really done this kind of thing before" I replied sighing slightly
"It's completely fine" she replied before quickly looking around to see if anyone was there and kissing me on the cheek in a chaste kiss. I smiled in return shyly then looked at the door opening where more students and the teacher came in
The class went okay, Jennie and I got a chat quite a lot. It was fun because I got to get to know her even more while experimenting with how different foods react with chemicals
When class ended Jennie practically dragged me out of the room and into a janitor's closet nearby
Jennie closed the door behind us and pulled me into a kiss by my blazer. The kiss is sweet at first but gets more heated by the second
Her hands slide up and down my waist until they land on my hips, I wrap my hands around her neck pulling her impossibly closer, she pulled away from my lips slightly and kissed down my jaw and my neck.
Her lips pressed onto a sweet stop which made me moan slightly with pleasure. When she went back to my lips she kissed me softly before the bell interrupted us signaling the next class
We pulled away from each other both slightly out of breath, once we straightened out our clothes we walked out one by one so it wasn't as suspicious as to why we were in the janitors closet
It was now lunch and I place my tray down on the table. Somi and Tzuyu were chatting about the gossip going on at school
"Hey! Have you heard the rumors about Jackson being pan?" Somi asked
"J-Jackson who?" I asked taking a shaky breath
"You know Jackson as in Jennie's boyfriend" Somi exclaimed
"Okay, I just don't think it's any of our business on who he likes or is attached to" I replied shrugging slightly
Somi and Tzuyu were looking at me with intense glares so I stared down at my plate of food suddenly finding it interesting
"I guess you're right"
"I guess you're right," Somi and Tzuyu said in perfect unison
We carried on talking about random subjects and we caught up with Tzuyu. Suddenly there was a huge argument in the canteen
"Come on Jennie admit it I know you're seeing someone else!" Jackson shouted
"That is completely absurd! Why would I cheat on you?" Jennie retorted
"You've been acting different for weeks!" Jackson stated
"So have you! What about the rumors about you being pan! You must be seeing someone else!" Jennie exclaimed annoyed
Jackson looked shocked it was clear he didn't know about the rumors going around about him, instantly his face drained of all color
"T-There are r-rumors going around about me b-being pan?" He stuttered sheepishly barely getting the words out
"You didn't know?" Jennie asked at this moment Bambam walked into the room with a few of his friends. Bambam wasn't out at school yet but I did know he has had a few fellow closeted boyfriends
"No No No! Please tell me you didn't do this" Jackson begged looking at my brother
"Tell everyone about me being P-Pansexual," Jackson asked coming out to the school. There were a few gasps from the audience they had accumulated around themselves
"No, I would never have done anything like that!" He protested
"So you are," Jennie said with a smug smile
"Yes I am and I'm so sorry that I never told you or tell you that I have been seeing someone else behind your back"
"I knew it! Were over!" Jennie retorted storming out the room
I followed her out of the room leaving the whole scene that just happened
She'd walked into the girl's restroom so I did as well
"Hey, are you okay?" I asked looking at her brushing away tears that are coming down her face
"Yeah...I don't even know why I'm crying I was doing the same thing by cheating on him with you" she admitted
"it's fine to be a little upset," I said wrapping her in an embrace
"I guess but I was going to break up with him anyway" she replied hugging me back nuzzling her face in my neck
"I'm just happy we get to be with each other now" Jennie added pulling away from me and giving me a soft tender kiss
"Will you Lisa be my girlfriend?"
"Isn't it too soon after Jackson to be making decisions like this?" I asked staring deeply into her eyes
"True me it's not I've been thinking of this moment every day since I first had a crush on you" Jennie expressed
My mind raced back to Tzuyu then Jennie again doing pros and cons
Did I even like Tzuyu like that?
I looked at Jennie, but this time looked at her. I looked at how her eyes sparkled and had flecks brown in them and saw how her pupils are dilated
Then I remembered the date, I'd never been on a date before unless you count that picnic with Tzuyu it was the best date I could have ever asked for. Jennie has been my longest crush and I'd imagined myself countless times being with her
It was at this moment I had made my decision
"Yes, I'd love to be your girlfriend"
With that said she wrapped her arms around my neck as did I but with her waist and both leaned in for our first kiss being each other girlfriends