KELLIE'S POINT OF VIEW...............
A Couple Days Later
It's Friday, and I'm dreading having to see Mr. Gibbs again. I worked really hard on my paper, hoping that when he reads it, he would realize that I'm not the complete idiot that he thinks I am.
On a happier note, Collin and I are really settling in together, I've spent almost every night this week at his house, in his bed as he took me to newer heights of pleasure every morning and every night. In the short space of time since we started seeing each other, I've come to realize that I have fallen for him.
I love Collin, I know that I do, with my whole heart. The way he makes me feel, the little things that he does, I've never felt this loved and cherished by anyone before. You would wonder, so what about your family, surely they have loved you and cared for you?
The truth is Sharon is the only family that I have left.
My story is not one that I like to talk about too much. My mom was really young when she got pregnant with me, seventeen years old to be exact.
When she told my dad that she was pregnant, he said that he was too young to be a father and he left her.
He took off and she never saw him again.
At that age, she dropped out of high school and got a job as a waitress.
My grandmother would watch me when my mom worked the late shifts.
We had an apartment even smaller than the one Sharon and I share presently, but it was all that she could afford on her minimum wage salary.
My mom worked two jobs to make ends meet.
When I was ten years old, my mom died.
Late one night, a drunk driver knocked her down while she was walking home from work. It was a hit and run. My grandmother took me in and I lived with her until she died when I had just turned eighteen, two years ago.
She died before we even found out that I had won the scholarship to go to university.
It was my dream to make her proud.
Sharon and her family are the only family that I have now.
Sharon has been my rock through all the difficult times in my life, my best friend forever, my ride or die.
I guess that's our special connection, we are both broken in our own ways.
It's why I guess that I'm still a virgin, I didn't want to end up like my mom.
Abandoned, alone and pregnant with a child to raise.
It would take someone very special for me to want to share that part of myself and for a really long time, I really didn't think I would ever meet the right person, until I met Collin.
It's been such a short space of time, but I know that he genuinely cares for me.
Ugh! I hate to think of all the struggles and hardships that my mom had to go through to raise me and I'm so grateful and thankful for all that she and my grandmother did to give me the best life.
I've worked hard in school, to make my mom and grandmother proud of me, wherever they are.
I always cry when I think of them, which is every single day, but I do my best to be strong and make it through each and every day and I do it all for the both of them.
Last night, I stayed at my apartment because I needed to spend some time alone. I know how I feel about Collin, over the past couple of days, I literally had to stop myself from telling him that I love him.
I'm just afraid to get hurt, I have that insecurity, that stupid voice at the back of my mind that says that I'm not good enough.
It's stupid, I know, Sharon tells me to stop feeling and thinking that way about myself, but I can't help it, it's there!
It's one of my biggest flaws and I hate it!
Sharon suddenly bursts into my room and jumps on my bed.
"Hey, what's going on with you?"
"Not much, just really dreading seeing Mr. Gibbs today!"
"Ah, Profesor Douche!"
"Yeah, about that, I really could murder you!"
"What have I done, this time?"
"He heard you!"
"Who?"
"Professor Douche! Oh God............ now you have me calling him that!
Mr. Gibbs heard everything you said at the library the other night!"
"Well if he heard everything, then he knows that I only speak the truth!"
"Oh my God! You really are insane!"
"What? It's true, Kels! The man could do with a good fuck! At least he would release all that pent up tension he is carrying around!"
"The man is totally upset with me and thinks that I'm a complete idiot, not to mention a gossip!"
"Well what do you want me to do, Kels? I can swing by and apologize to the man in person, if you think that would make things better?"
"Hell no! You've been enough help as it is!
I'm just gonna resign myself to the fact that I'm probably gonna have to repeat this course next semester.
I'm quite certain that he is going to fail me!"
"Come on, Kels! Be realistic!
Although, the more I think about it, I think Professor Douche may have the hots for you!"
"You think............WHAT?"
"Yeah, some guys behave like that when they are really into a woman! I hate you.........but I really like you thing!
Kinda like magnets.........you feel that push and pull. They do say, opposites attract doll!"
"OK yeah..............hell no! That's not it at all!"
"You will see for yourself, babe!"
Ugh! It's about time to start getting ready for my class. I kick Sharon out of my room and strip for a quick shower and I'm just about to start getting dressed when Collin walks into my room.
"We are never sleeping start, ever again!"
He walks over and pulls me into his arms. I can feel the tension leave his body as he inhales the scent of my hair as he bends his head and kisses me senseless.
"What's wrong, sweetie?"
"What's wrong? I didn't sleep all night, Kellie!"
"Awwwwww, you missed me?"
"Yeah I did more than miss you babe......I lo......um I love waking up with you in my arms!"
"I love everything about you too babe!"
Oh my God! I just blurted it out, just like that! Hopefully he doesn't notice my slip up!"
"I'm not spending another night all alone in my bed, Kellie!"
"You don't have to, babe!"
"You promise?"
"I promise!
Now I have to get ready for Mr.Gibbs class though I would be honest and tell you that I'm not looking forward to this class today!"
"Don't worry about Gibbs! Just focus on your work and you will be fine, babe!"
Collin leans back on my bed and watches me as I get dressed. First I moisturize my entire body with my favorite body lotion, then I put on a matching black lace bra and thong.
I can feel his eyes boring into me and when I look over his eyes are hooded and I can clearly tell that he is extremely hard.
"Fuck me! Now I'm gonna have a hard on all day at work!"
I giggle as I pull on a pair of black jeans and t-shirt, slip on my black boots and grab a light denim jacket. I brush my hair out, a swipe of lip gloss and I'm all set.
Meanwhile, I let my eyes roam over Collin, he looks as hott as ever, dressed casually for a Friday at work. He makes looking good so effortless, he just throws clothes on and looks like he just walked off the covers of some magazine. Damn, guys have all the luck!!!!
"You are all mine tonight, Kels!"
"Whatever do you mean, Mr. Prescott?"
"For starters, it seems that you need reminding of all the amazing things, I can do to your body with my tongue!"
"Oh trust me, I'm fully aware!"
"See I would believe you, but I think you need a reminder of all the delicious things that happen when you are in bed with me!"
"I promise babe, no more nights apart!!"
"Fuck Kels, I'm serious! I want you so much, it fucking hurts babe! I don't just mean the sex, I really do miss you when we are apart, Kellie!"
"I feel the same way, Collin! No matter how much time we spend together, it never seems like enough, does it?"
"I don't care what we do Kels, just as long as we do it together, that's all that matters!"
I tip toe and kiss him, it amazes me sometimes that he is so open and honest about his feelings. Most guys don't like to talk about feelings, I guess they feel vulnerable or weak.
With Collin, even though he may feel vulnerable, it also shows how deeply he cares about me and about us!
"Come on babe, let's get going! I don't want you to be late for class!
Collin grabs my back pack, meanwhile I make sure that I have my phone and wristlet and I'm out the door.
"Hey Shar! I'm off to class! Talk to you later!"
"Okay bestie, laterz!"