EZRA'S POV
After kong makalabas sa room na kinalalagyan ni Zack and Claire ay agad akong nag punta sa pinaka malapit na cr, may ilang bodyguards ang sumunod sa akin but I paid no attention at tuloy tuloy Lang ang lakad
Nahihirapan ako sa hindi malamang dahilan, ang bigat ng dibdib ko at ginagawa nung palabuin ang mga mata ko,
I feel miserable than before...
Ng Makarating ako sa cr ay agad akong pumasok sa isang cubicle, nag papasalamat din ako dahil walang ibang tao dto kundi ako lang,
no one can see me cry...
Humarap ako sa salaming then tiningnan ang repleksyon ko dun, I smiled bitterly...
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"Wag kang mangialam sa akin Ezra, Know your place please, Not because your my wife you can control over me, Stay away from my business, I'm warning you"
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"I'm sorry ok?.. I'm sorry, Sino nga ba Naman ako dba? Liban sa asawa mo Lang ako sa papel, arrange Marriage lang ang nangyari sa atin, there's no love between us... Pero I learned how to love you when the time passes by... Why can't you love me back zack? Mahirap bayun gawin?" I whisper in the thin air then tuluyan nang umagos ang mga luha ko sa mata
It pained me badly... I didn't expect that coming, I mean we've been ok this past few weeks... his so sweet. It's like na he actually See's me now, Hindi tulad Ng bagong kasal palang kami na parang Wala ako sa paligid
I'm shock and surprised to be exact, I still can't believe na masasabi nya talaga sa akin yun, he even shout it out loud on my face, and to make it even worst may Ibang nakakita at nakarinig nun, it's so humiliating...
Asang asa pa Naman ako sa mga ainagot nya Kay claire kagabi..
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"She's My wife Claire, her name is Ezra"
"Yes, and I love her more than everything"
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D*mn! Alam Kong sinabi nya Lang Yun para tantanan na sya ni claire at Ang tanga ko na umasa nanaman ako sa mga salita nyang yun
B*llshit!
I'm really jealous on Briar just to be true, because she affect Zack that much, and it's not just Zack because Mathew care for her too, and of course Death loves her.
All the attention is on her and it makes me insecure, I mean paano Naman kami? Ako? Kung puro si briar nalang? Hindi ba sila aware na may risk din sa buhay ko?...
But who's I'm kidding? Of course Alam kong aware sila dun it's just that na hindi Lang talaga ako priority! At Ang sakit nun!
*sighed...
I should be used to this dahil buong buhay ko ay never Naman akong naging priority Ng kahit na sino, lagi nalang ako second choice at last option! I never been first to someones eye... I should have been not surprised at all.
Dapat Hindi na ako umasa pa, pero kase... on how Zack acted this past few weeks gives me hope na baka Ito na Yung start for him to notice me, pero Hindi parin pala
My little affection to him is not enough for me to be prioritize by him, briar still effect him more, siguro Yun Yung sinasabing first love never dies?
but in the other side I won't blame briar either, gusto na sya ni Zack bago pa man ako dumating and I know I can do nothing to change that fact, ako ang sumingit at humadlang sa feelings ni Zack sa simulat sapol kaya Hindi ko masisi si Briar
And more than that I love briar too as my friend and a sister, malaki rin ang naitulong nya sa akin Ng dumating sya dahil kahit papaano Hindi na ako masyadong pinag iinitan ng ulo ni zack, pinaramdam rin sa akin ni briar Kung gaano ako kaimportante sa kanya at sya Ang ikalawang babaeng naging kaibigan ko na nag paramdam sa akin Ng ganun after I lost Vhrandish
she also clear herself to me na hanggang friend Lang nya talaga si Zack dahil Si death Ang Mahal nya, At first of course I didn't care dahil Wala naman akong feelings for Zack so it's just fine for me Kung anong maging relationship nila o Kung ano man
but to my luck mukhang ako Ang pinag diskitahang pakaruan ni kupido dahil Hindi nag tagal at nakita ko nalang Ang sarili kong minamahal na si zack
So yeah... I can't be mad at Briar and I'm trying really not to, and I can't blame her either, she's to important at Yun na rin siguro ang dahilan Kung bakit asakanya ang lahat Ng attention, she's so special in her very own way, and I adore her for being like that
But of course Hindi nun maiibsan Ang sakit sa dibdib ko, it can't change the fact na nasasaktan parin ako...
And there's no one to blame but me, I made a Choice and it has consequences.
"Look at you Ezra your a mess, your parents exchange you for money, you are forced to get married at the young age, you didn't finish your school either so your dumb enough to fall inlove!, and most of all no one is loving you back like you wanted to, your life is pretty miserable..." I whisper again
Ang sakit Lang talaga... Naiisip ko nanaman Ang lahat ng kamalasang nangyari sa aking buhay, and it's not helping me
And for sure I look insane dahil ginagawa kong pag sasalita ng walang kausap, and it's funny on how I'm good on giving advices to others as a psychiatrist but can't even advice for myself
But what can I do? I live on such a cruel society, and I have my own problems too.
In my whole life no one even listen to me, I was a loner so I'm not good at interactions and such things, I was too afraid to humiliated myself, Ito rin ang dahilan Kung bakit kinuha kong trabaho ay ang pagiging psychiatrist
by being psychiatrist I can interact with more people and encounter some people like me that who can be called an out cast
ayokong maramdaman ng ibang tao ang mga nararamdaman ng isang taong nag iisa tulad ko, so as much as possible I'm helping all of my clients to look and find for the brighter side and start living with contentment in life, I Also listen to their problems at sa lahat ng mga hinaing nila sa buhay dahil ayokong maranasan nila Ang naranasan ko na walang nakikinig sa akin and having no-one to be on my side
Being a psychiatrist is hard but it changes me and I love my work, dto sa part na to kami ni briar magkaparehas, we're too kind and it make us selfless
but Maybe meron Lang talagang mga bagay na kahit saan talaga tumingin ay wala kang makikitang brighter side... it's just that. Period. Wala kang magagawa
I sighed...
I should stop this nonsense drama...
I mean, what I'm even thinking? Well at least I'm surviving and have a job to support me even though I didn't finish my studies... I guess that's enough to be proud of? Right?
"Yeah totally... dapat Hindi ako umiiyak ngayun, I should stop this drama, walang matutulong to" I said then tumango sa sarili ko, encouraging myself since Wala namang ibang gagawa nun kundi ako lang
Yeah! You can still do it Ezra! You already come so far it's not time to feel this nonsense things, pag subok lang to at normal sa buhay... Malalagpasan mo Rin to
malalagpasan ko rin to...
Maybe for now I should head back?
Yeah...
mabilis akong kumilos at nag hilamos ng tubig, ilang beses ko yung ginawa bago tuluyang kumalma, hindi na ako nag abalang mag make up dahil tinamad na ako, and besides I much love it when I'm not wearing any make up, slight or heavy Make up pa man yan
Lumabas ako ng cr and as expected my nag abot agad sa akin Ng panyo, I'm not surprised alam kong Isa Yun sa mga bodyguards ko, they always do that kapag alam nilang Hindi ako ok, they might look merciless dahil sa pang labas nilang anyo but their soft inside at may mga feelings parin, their still human
But zack is different. his not so human at all
"Thank you" marahang pasalamat ko sa nag bigay nun he just nodded at me Kaya nag simula na ulit akong mag lakad pabalik Kung saan ko iniwan sila zack
Ng Makarating na ako sa tapat Ng pinto Ng pinaka room ay nakaramdam ako Ng kaba dahil may narinig akong Kung anong kalampog sa loob and that alarms me
Si zack! Baka sinasaktan na nya si Claire! Alam ko Kung paano sya magalit! and to this circumstances ay baka mapatay nya si Claire!
Mabilis akong kumilos at binuksan agad yung pinto, a small gasp come out from my mouth ng makita kong nasasahig si Claire and she's bleeding, while Zack is just standing there looking so terrifying while watching claire bleed
But I know I need to do something, nangingialam nanaman ako... I know, pero Hindi ko naman pwedeng hayaang patayin ni Zack si Claire dba?
"Zack! That's enough!" Nasigaw ko nalang at agad na tumakbo sa gawi ni Claire
"Oh my! Call a doctor!" Sigaw ko ulit agad namang sumunod Yung mga bodyguards ko, Nakita ko kaseng hindi tumitigil ang kadudugo ng pulso ni Claire
This is bad, nahiklas ba ang swero nya?
"Move away Ezra" I heard Zack said at nakita kong hahawakan na nya si Claire but I shu his hands away, Hindi ko kase alam Kung tutulong ba Ito or may gagawin nanaman Kay claire, I can't read his expression, and it's better safe than sorry
"Don't touch her! I can't believe you'll do this!" Sigaw ko sa kanya
"ano? Sasabihan mo nanaman ako na wag makialam? Go on sabihin mo lang! Dahil Wala na akong pake! Anong klaseng doctor ka huh? Hurting your own patient? Tsk! You really is the worst" nasabi ko nalang at Hindi mapigilan sabihin ang lahat ng sama Ng loob ko
His getting too far, he should at least know his line, pasyente parin si Claire!
Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin bago tuluyang intindihin si Claire, tinalian ko rin ng panyo ang pulso nya para at least matigil ang pag dudugo nun
Hindi naman nag tagal at may dumating na na doctor, gulat pa Ito Ng makita si Zack dto sa loob pero I just sign him na mag proceed sa pag aasikaso Kay Claire dahil wala talaga akong tiwala dto kay Zack, Ng dahil dun pinalabas kami ng doctor, Alam kong nakasunod si Zack but Hindi ko sya pinapansin, naiinis ako sa kanya
"Ezra---"
"Don't talk to me, cool down yourself first" agap ko sa sasabihin nya after some time, bago pa Naman sya makapag salita ay bumukas na Ang pinto Ng room ni Claire Kaya agad na akong pumasok dun at kinausap ung doctor, totally leaving him there
" Kamusta sya doc?" I Ask habang lumalapit sa walang Malay na si Claire, pansin ko rin ang pamumula ng leeg nito
Zack did that Hindi na ako mag tataka pa
" She's already fine ma'am Ezra, agad namang naagapan Ang pag dudugo Kaya Hindi ganung lumala ang lagay ng patient, I advice for her to have a lot of rest" magalang na sagot nito sa akin, I just nodded then after that I nag paalam na ito
Nag stay pa naman ako ng ilang sandali sa loob making sure na magiging ayos Lang ang lahat dto Kay Claire bago tuluyang lumabas, tanghali narin kase and I'm feeling tired already dahil sa mga nangyayari
After nang nangyari kagabi about kay lucas ay nakatakas parin ito, kaninang umaga Lang Naman nagising si Claire kase after Namin syang mailigtas kagabi ay nawalan na Ito ng malay, si Briar Naman ay naging double Ang ginawang pag o-observe sa kanya dahil sa nangyari
The plan is to wait for Claire to be alright and fine pero mukhang inunahan ng init ng ulo si Zack dahil sa lumalang lagay ni Briar at nag kagulo hayss
This day is too much already, Hindi na nga ako nakatulog Ng maayos kagabi kase madaling araw na kami naka uwi then Ito Naman ang nangyari, another stress
Pag labas ko ay Wala na akong nakitang zack but I didn't mind it at all, binilinan ko Naman Ang mga bantay ni Claire na bantayan Ito ng mabuti bago ako umalis, pinadoble ko rin ang security system Ng buong hospital incase na may mangyari ulit
After that ay umalis na ako at nag punta sa parking lot, dun ko naman nakita si Zack and his smoking kaya agad ko syang nilapitan at inalis iyun
Ito Ang unag beses na nakita ko syang mag sigarilyo, nakakapanibago...
"What the!" Inis na sabi nito
"Don't 'what the' me! What is HAPPENING TO YOU ZAIREN BRICKSON!?" Pagalit ko sa kanya, nakita kong umamo naman ang mukha nito ng makitang ako ang kaharap nya
Yes, his full name is Zairen Brickson, but I don't know who make his nickname 'Zack', and who gave it to him, basta nakasanayan na namin na tawagin sya Ng Zack
"Ezra..." Nasabi nalang nito at medyo gulat pa, astang hahawakan ako nito pero agad akong lumayo sa kanya
"Don't, I already have so much for today Zairen, wag ngayun, magulo pa Ang isip ko Hindi ko maiintindihan Ang mga rason mo, maybe some other time, mag focus ka muna Kay briar total sya Ang priority mo ngayun, Friday na bukas and it's her operation" seryosong Sabi ko sa kanya, nagbuntong hininga naman ito pero bago pa man sya may nasabi ay pumasok na ako sa car namin
Ilang sigundo pa naman bago sya sumunod sa akin but I did not mind it at all, Hindi ko na rin Naman sya kinibo Ng makasakay sya at pinanatili Lang Ang paningin sa daan
We ride on silent hanggang sa Makarating kami sa bahay, Hindi ko na rin sya inintay na bumama to open the door for me at nauna nang pumasok sa loob, agad Naman akong sinalubong ni zef at marahang napawi Ang alalahanin ko Ng pumulupot Ang mga maliliit nyang kamay at braso sa binti ko, kasunod Naman nya ang yayang nag babantay sa kanya
" Ma'am Erza nakarating na po pala kayo" Sabi ng Yaya ni zef then kinuha sa akin Ang dala kong bag
" Thank you, paki dala nalang Yan sa room ko, ako narin Ang bahala Kay zef" sagot ko dto, agad Naman itong umalis pag katapos, then binuhat ko si zef bringing her to my arms
"How is my princess doing?" Nakangiting tanong ko dto, nag pout Ito Kaya napa Tawa nalang ako dun
How cute
"Why didn't you and Daddy come home lach (last) night?" Tanong nito, pinisi ko lang naman Ang pisngi nya na mas ikina pout nito
Hayss nakakatanggal ng stress
" We did come home princess, but your already sleeping Kaya Hindi mo kami nakita" I explained as I walk, balak Kong mag luto ng lunch namin today
" Then bakit Wala kayo here kaninang morning?" She asked again, natawa nanaman ulit ako dahil sa way Ng pananalita nya
" Maaga po kaming umalis Ng daddy mo for work, tulog ka pa" sagot ko dto then nilagay sya sa ibabaw ng counter dto sa kitchen
" Hmp! Namimich (miss) ko na po kayo dto, I have no one to play with in here" maktol nito, napailing Naman ako dun then kumuha Ng isang Chuckie dto sa ref at binigyan sa kanya yun, agad namang nag liwanag Ang mga mata nito
"Sorry my princess, hayaan mo mag lalaro tayo later after lunch, Hindi na aalis si momy" paliwanag ko, napapalakpak Naman Ito dun
" Yey, promich (promise) po yan huh!" Masayang sabi dto, tumawa lang naman ako dun at hinayaan na syang mag pakaungis dahil sa Chuckie nyang iniinum
" How ich (is) momy bri Po pala?" Biglang tanong nito, agad naman akong natigilan dun at tumingin sa kanya
I stare at her for a moment before i totally respond back
"Well she'll be getting better tommorow, your daddy zack will help her get better" marahang explain ko, tumango tango Naman Ito pero asa Chuckie'ng iniinum parin Ang attention nito
Napailing nalang ako, she's too young after all, she wouldn't understand a thing...
how I wish to be young again, Yung Walang prinoproblema sa ano mang mga bagay
Aalis ang attention ko ko Kay zef ng marinig kong bumukas ang pinto ng kitchen, agad namang bumungad sa akin ang dalawang pares na mga Mata ni Zack, nag iwas ako Ng tingin duon at inasikaso na Ang niluluto ko...
I don't have time for him like the way he is to me.
But anyway i'm craving for something soupy...
Parang gusto kong humigop ng mainit na sabaw ng tinolang manok, Alam Kong kakalmahin nun ang sistema ko
Mabilis akong nag prepare ng mga ingredients sa tulong narin Ng ilang mga maid naming andto, I know Zack is just near me at kinakausap nito si zef dahil I can hear them chatting while zef is more on laughing and giggling, but Hindi ko sila nililingon at mas binigyan ng attention Ang niluluto ko
Not that long ay ayos na Ang lahat at iniintay ko nalang na lumambot at kumulo Yung karne, Kaya naisipan Kong mag basa muna Ng dyaryong andto sa ibabaw ng counter
While waiting naramdaman Kong may kumalabit sa akin Kaya agad akong napatingin duon, natawa Naman ako ng Makita ko si zef sa harap ko at napaka ungis nito, may mga amos Ang bibig nya gawa sa ibinigay kong Chuckie, mukhang kumain rin Ito Ng cookies kase may mga muyang muyang pa sya sa damit
What a mess yet cute thing she is, so adorable
"Zef baby you look messy---" natigil ako sa pag sasalita ng biglang may inilabas itong bulaklak galing sa likod nya then nginitian ako, pero puro chocolate Ang ngipin ng bulinggit
" Daddy Zack want you to have thich (this) he chaid (said) chis (his) chorry (sorry) and I love you, mhua mhua" she said, ilang beses Naman akong napakisap at napatanga sa harap nya
My heart skipped...
" Mommy, daddy ich (is) really chorry (sorry) pleache (please) forgive him mommy" Sabi pa ni Zef then nag popy eyes pa Ng Wala akong naging sagot, napailing Naman ako dun bago binigyan sya Ng isang ngiti at tinanggap Ang bulaklak na inaabot nya
How dare him used Zefrianna on me!, how childish of him! And yet I'm still falling for his tricks!
Ahhrgg!
"H-how sweet of my princess... Thank you" I responded after a while, tumingin Naman ako sa paligid to look for Zack pero Hindi ko sya nakita Kaya nabalik Ang tingin ko Kay zef na ngiting ngiti Kaya napangiti narin ako
Nakakahawa tagala Ang ngiti Ng batang to
"Chowww (so) do you forgive daddy already? " Nanglalaki Ang mga Matang tanong nito sa akin, pinisi ko Naman Ang pisngi nya
"You little cutie thing, don't mind your daddy, his just being childish, why not go to your Yaya then ask her to clean you up first? Then I'll go talk to your dady? How about that? Maybe after that we can play too" marahang Sabi ko dto, then medyo pinunasan ang mukha nya kase puro Chuckie talaga iyun
" Of courche (course) mommy! I'm excited to play!" Tumatalong Sabi pa nito bago nag mamadaling umalis sa harap ko, napailing Lang Naman ulit ako dun dahil for sure Ang naintindihan Lang nito ay ung play part
Hayss... But anyways I have my own business to deal with
Agad Kong pinatay ang apoy Ng niluluto ko but I make sure na luto na iyun bago tuluyang lumabas sa kitchen
Actually I don't know where to go kase Hindi ko naman Alam Kong asan si Zack but then I just find myself walking inside our room
And there he is standing in the veranda while looking straight to my eyes, Parang inaasahan na talaga nitong dadating ako
"Really Zack? You totally used zef on me" Buntong hiningang Sabi ko at ibinaba Ang dala kong bulaklak sa night table na katabi ko, I heard him chuckled
"Cause I know she'll convince you, she's to cute for you to resist, which is I'm so rights cause your already here" he said, then nag lakad palapit sa akin, Hindi naman ako umalis sa pwesto ko at tiningnan Lang sya
Ng tuluyan na itong makalapit sa akin ay medyo tumingala ako kase matangkad sya sa akin, agad namang pumunta sa ilong ko ang perfume nya at hinahaluan iyun ng amoy Ng sigarilyo which is I find really tempting and attractive for his cent
"Look... I just---what Happened on the hospital is not really my real intention, at ayoko ding paabutin pa Ng bukas Ang gulong ginawa ko" nahihirapang Sabi nito, finding the right words for his explanation
" I... I didn't mean to say such hurtful things to you... It's just that---"
" Na inunahan ka Ng init Ng ulo mo? Na hindi mo nanaman nacontrol ang sariling galit mo? Hindi mo nacontrol ang sarili mo to burst out like that? I am right? " Pag dugtong ko na sa sasabihin nya, nag buntong hininga naman Ito dun
" Yes... A-and I'm really sorry, I'm truly really sorry Erza, Nangdilim Lang talaga ang paningin ko nun Kay Claire" he admitted while saying sorry to me
I sighed, bakit kase Ang bilis mawala Ng galit ko sa kanya? Isang sorry nya Lang Parang nawawala na agad ang mga ginawa nyang pag kakamali sa paningin ko
Tsk! Ito Rin Ang dahilan Kong bakit lagi akong nasasaktan, masyado akong mahina, Hindi ko sya kayang matiis, rupok!
But I won't blame him too Kung nagalit sya ng ganun Kay Claire, si Claire Ang dahilan Kung bakit na kapasok si Lucas sa hospital at kamuntikan na nitong makuha si briar, pero I still can't believe sa part na nasaktan nya si Claire Ng ganun
But then again, Alam Kong Hindi pa sapat Ang sorry nyang Ito, pero Ang rupok ko kase masyado para Hindi iaccept Ang sorry nyang iyun, specially Kung ganito ngayun na napaka sincere nito at Kita ko talaga sa mga Mata nya ang pagsisi sa nagawa nya
"Fine, sorry accepted, Basta wag mo na ulitin Yung pananakit kay claire please, I know I don't have a right because I'm just your wife on paper but still Yun Lang Ang hinihingi ko na Sana wag mo nang saktan si claire, Alam Kong Meron syang rason" mahabang pahayag ko dto, and try to convince him
" Yes I promise, and no, you have rights since your my wife, not because on paper and so but just simply as my wife, meron kang rights over me, nasabi ko Lang Ang bagay na iyun sa hospital kanina dahil sa galit ko, but I didn't mean it, and I'm sorry for saying such things to you" he responded back at me then cares my cheeks, i just smiled dahil Hindi ko Alam Ang sasabihin ko
Wala eh, nag wawala nanaman Ang puso ko at Hindi ako nakakapag isip ng maayo, I know I'm too old to feel like this, I mean I'm already 28!! For goodness sake!, I'm getting old and I wouldn't be surprised kung madhid na ako, pero Hindi Yun ung case dto kase feeling ko Parang teenager akong kinikilig sa mga sinasabi ni zack
Dto sa side nyang ito ako nainlove, and probably I'll still love him Kung laging maiinitin Ang ulo nya at Kung nag susungit sya
Loving someone doesn't defind his/her imperfection flaws anyway, kase pag Mahal mo Mahal mo. Kahit sya pa man ang pinaka masamang Tao sa mundo, you can't change the fact that you love him/her and your willing to accept everything about that person, you'll take all the risk blindlessly because of love...
"I'm really deeply sorry Ezra... Please hayaan mo akong makabawi sayo for all the years na sinayang ko, I'll prove myself as your deserving husband and man this time" he said before totally closing the gap between us for a kiss, hinayaan ko Lang Naman sya dun because I don't know what to react for that moment
There's something on me na gustong tumalon sa saya but I hold myself because that so not me
I felt his lips move softly on mine and I just find myself fallowing his every move, may mga sariling mga utak din Ang mga kamay ko na pumulupot sa leeg nya at pinadaan iyun sa buhok nya
That makes him more alive dahil ramdam ko Ang pag kasabik nito sa bawat halik na binibigay nya, then not that long enough ay naramdaman Kong umangat na Ang mga paa ko sa sahig but we're still kissing deeply and intensely
Parang nabuhay din Ang lahat Ng dugo ko sa katawan because of his moves, it was full of admiration and that excitements me and lit a fire within us
His kisses went down on my neck, to my collar bone and shoulder. Sipping, marking and memorizing every corner and curves of my skin, Nakasuot Lang kase ako Ng off shoulder dress Kaya mabilis syang nag ka access sa mga iyun, Hindi ko narin nga namalayan na nag lalakad na pala Ito papunta sa Kama namin because I'm so going crazy on his touch for me to notice it
I know to myself that I want him too more than he does, and I'm not stopping myself from that to do so, siguro it's time for me to do something that I want for myself at once for all over this years, kasal narin Naman kami so it's not a bad thing to do since Hindi Naman kami nag Honey moon Ng ikasal kami
I guess I'll note this as our first night...
"Damn... You really is making me crazy Ezra... I already wanted to get inside of you...fast! Sh*t!" Zack groaned within the kiss dahil Ng mag sawa na Ito sa leeg ko ay bumalik ulit Ito sa mga labi ko
" Then hurry..." I whisper back at him which makes him so work up, sabilis Ng pangyayari ay na malayan ko nalang na where already in our bed, naked, adoring each other's beauty...
"I love you... Ezra"
I guess my play time with zef will be postpone for a while.
**NEXT MORNING**
" Are you ready? " I calmly ask Zack while fixing his tie
It's already Friday and that means na ngayun Ang gagawin nyang operation for Briar, Alam Kong kahit Hindi nya sabihin ay kinakabahan sya and I can't blame him, his life depends on briar's life too
"How are you feeling?" He ask instead of answering my question, natigilan ako dun at Hindi ko malaman Ang sasabihin at gagawin ko
After what happened last night between us I find it too awkward already to approach him, akala ko nga Ng magising ako kanina ay panaginip ko Lang na may nangyaring sa amin but then nakita ko sya sa tabi ko Kaya medyo nag panic ako but still calm my self after
I didn't really talk that much either after what happened to us dahil I don't know what to say and do, and I'm sure I'll just imbarass myself in front of him
And yes despite of my body being in pain ay pinilit ko paring bumangon at mag intindi dahil everything should be in order kase it's briar's operation, dapat ay handa na Ang lahat bago pa man kami makapunta sa hospital
"A-ahmm I'm good just a little bit in pain---"
"did I hurt you that much? I'm sorry, I should have been a little gentler with you" putol nito sa sasabihin ko at tiningnan ako Ng may pag aalala, nakaramdam Naman ako Ng pag iinit Ng pisngi ko kase nag rereplay sa utak ko Kung anong nangyari samin kagabi
It's beautiful... But it's imbarassing when we talk it right now
" A-ahmm no, a-ayos Lang ako, more importantly is you, I mean, are you sure about your decision? " Sagot ko, trying to change the topic dahil malapit na akong kainin Ng hiya ko
He look hesitant on my answer at first but Hindi na Ito nag tanong pa, maybe na sense nya na ayaw Kong pag usapan Ang nangyari kagabi
I mean that's to awkward, and besides I just don't kiss and tell
"Hmmm I'm sure about my decision, it has to be today" he firmly said, tumango Lang Naman ako dun at tuluyan nang tinapos Ang pag ayos ko sa tie nya
After that ay humarap na sya sa full body size mirror na naandto sa room namin then medyo inadyas Ang buhok nya, nakatayo Lang Naman ako sa tabi nya while watching him in the mirror
Hindi ako nag sasalita o Kung ano man, Basta pinapanuod ko lang sya, and I'm so amuse on him kahit na his just standing there at walang ginagawa
Maybe I'm just happy and glad
Nagtama Ang mga paningin namin sa pamamagitan Ng salamin and I don't know but napangiti nalang ako sa kanya, and I'm so sure na Yun na Ang pinakamagandang ngiti na naibigay ko sa kahit na sino sa buong buhay ko
Pure happiness
He smiled back at me at mas nagpalawak iyun Ng ngiti ko, dahan dahan syang humarap sa akin at maharan akong dinala sa mga braso nya
" I... I love you Ezra " he whispered, bumilis Naman Ang tibok Ng puso ko dun dahil ikalawang beses na nyang sinabi sa akin yun
I really thought na sinabi nya Lang Yun kagabi Because he needed something from me, and I'm not going to be surprised kung Yun talaga Ang reason nya, but then hearing him saying it again now surprised... I'm not expecting na sasabihin nya ulit yun, at Wala akong mahagilap na salita to express my feelings towards him
I love him too that's the truth, I'll just look stupid if I will lie to myself but I don't think this is the right time to say it out loud in front of him, it's still early... Siguro saka nalang pag natapos na Ang lahat Ng gulong ito...
I felt his hug tightens and I just let him be, not that much long sya narin Ang bumitaw but before totally letting me go ay hinalikan pa ako nito sa forehead ko
"So?" Tanging nasabi ko nalang, hinawakan Naman nito Ang kamay ko
"Let's go, we still have work to do" he said tumango Lang Naman ako dun
" Let's go "
Hold on briar... You'll be better soon...
**END CHAPTER**
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