Life isn't about who is at fault, it's about who reacted with toxicity, disregarding all accountabilities.
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Mikaiela's POV:
Halos mamatay na sa manhid yung hita ko dahil sa ulo ni Ney. Nakatulog na kasi siya habang umiiyak, hindi kasi siya mapakalma ng maayos. Napatingin ako sa orasan ng side table ni Theo at napansin kong mag-iisang oras na pala syang wala.
Pinagmamasdan ko lang yung mahimbing na tulog ni Ney nang tumunog ang phone ko;
|From: Theo|
Just wait for me, may nangyari lang.
Ay, walang heart? sabagay, nagtitikiman lang naman kami. Eh wala namang emoji ang titi diba?. Napakibit balikat nalang ako sa iniisip ko at naghintay ako ng maayos dito sa kama. Mejo di ako komportable sa bahay nila, lalo na't nalaman kong wala na pala yung biological mother ni Theo, at mukhang hindi sila tinatrato ng maayos. Kaya naman pala ganun nalang niya tawagin yung babae.
"Sorry natagalan" sabi ni Theo habang pumapasok sa loob ng kwarto nya.
"Ano ka ba? wala yon, tulungan mo nalang ako dito sa kapatid mo. Nakatulog na eh" he didn't say a word, binuhat nalang niya si Ney at iniayos nya ang higa.
He offered his hand and I gladly took it. Dumeretso na kami pababa since tahimik bigla ang bahay nila. Saan kaya napunta yung mga tao dito kanina? Hindi na ako nagtanong dahil mukhang nagmamadali si Theo sa gagawin namin.
"San ba tayo pupunta?" tanong ko sakaniya na may halong pagkairita.
"Basta, you're gonna love it." inirapan ko lang sya at tumawa naman sya ng sobra. Hindi ko alam bakit parang gumaan yung loob ko sa pagtawa niya.
"Pano kapag di ko nagustuhan? anong gagawin mo?" he smirked and gave me a kiss.
"I'd fuck you there until you scream in happiness" bigla namang namula yung pisngi ko sa sinabi niya. Seryoso ba sya dun? well, payag naman ako.
Napatawa naman sya sa naging reaksyon ko. Hindi ko na nga alam kung bakit unti unti nag-iiba na yung pakiramdam ko kada naririnig ko yung tawa niya. Hindi ko alam, baka may kabag lang ako. Bored na bored ako kaya tinuro ko yung radio ng sasakyan as a sign na nagpapaalam ako kung pwede ko bang buksan. Tumango naman si Theo, sign na pwede ko siyang buksan.
I'M GETTING RIPPED TONIGHT
R.I.P THAT PU-
BWISET NAMAN NA KANTA YAN. Bigla nalang humagalpak sa tawa si Theo dahil sa mabilisan kong pagpatay ng radyo. Sa sobrang bored ko, in-interview ko nalang si Theo. Very efficient diba?
"Oo nga pala, bakit famous Psychologists yung mga pangalan nyo?" tanong ko kay Theo. si Carl Jung, Karen Horney, at Erich Fromm kasi ay famous psychologists.
"My mom was a psychiatrist" napatingin ako sa biglang pag-iba ng itsura niya.
"was?" I asked simply.
"She died." simpleng sagot niya. Alam ko namang patay na yung mama nila dahil kay Ney. Pero syempre dahil wala naman akong matopic might as well tanungin na tin siya about dun.
"Oh, I'm sorry" I simply said. I really sympathize with him since pareho kaming nawalan.
"No, it's okay. She committed suicide, nalaman niyang may kabit yung tatay namin. It was a hard time for us, especially for Ney" nag-iba bigla yung ekspresyon nya. Hinawakan ko sya sa balikat at hininto nya yung sasakyan.
"Imagine being a psychiatrist and you died cause of suicide? ni hindi ko manlang sya napigilan" I hugged him tightly. He is crying right now, akala ko talaga okay lang na tanungin ko sya.
"It's never your fault." I whispered as he started crying.
We never knew how much a person suffers unless they actually inhibit their signs privately. This is why I always think about mental health. Hindi ko kayang sumuko kasi kung sumuko ako, alam kong domino effect yun sa aming magkakaibigan.
After a while, tumahan naman sya at inistart nya ulit yung sasakyan. It's good na hindi sya naghesitate mag-open up sa akin. I am kinda comfortable towards him.
"My grandfather died too" sabi ko sakaniya.
"I figured that out the first time we met, you had a twin sister, right?" tanong niya sakin ng may sincerity. I looked at him and smiled, hindi naman siguro ako masasaktan kung ioopen ko.
"My parents never expected twins. Kaya biased sila sa kapatid ko, yung lolo ko lang talaga kakampi ko. Pero he died, I don't know kung anong dahilan ng pagkamatay niya since hindi ako pinayagan sa burol o libing manlang. My sister used her influence on my parents to make me look like I'm the bad guy. But I'm over it na, I even changed my given name para di na connected names namin - since may asawa naman na siya" at first I thought na I would burst out into tears pero hindi.
"You're brave enough to get out of that set up" I smiled as he hold my hand.
Nasa kanto palang kami ng pupuntahan namin, tinigil na ni Theo yung sasakyan. He got out of his car and opened the door for me. Aalisin ko na sana yung seatbelt pero pinigilan niya ako.
"I'm gonna blindfold you first" nagtaka ako sa pinagsasabi niya.
"Theo anong katarantaduhan nanaman ba to?" tanong ko habang inaayos niya yung blindfold sa ulo ko. Career na career pagiging sweet Theo ha?
"You have to see this Sasha, trust me babe. You're gonna love it" inakay naman ako ni Theo pababa ng sasakyan.
Kabadong kabado ako habang naglalakad. Nakaramdam ako ng damo sa paa ko, nasaan kami? Kung gusto niya ako tikman sa damuhan, papayag naman ako sa pinas eh. Bat kailangan pa nya akong dalhin dito sa Taiwan para barurutin lang sa damuhan?
"Stop biting you lips Sasha, I might forget this thing that we're doing cause I'm gonna do you instead" sabi ni Theo habang hawak ang balakang ko. Sobrang init ng bulong niya, parang may naglalarong kuryente sa likod ko.
Tinanggal ni Theo yung blindfold ko and to my surprise, this was the most beautiful thing that I have seen in my entire life.
A/N: Kunyari sunset, wala akong makitang maayos eh.
It was almost sunset and we are in a field of sunflowers. It's yellow everywhere, ang sarap sa mata.
I was looking at him and he was smiling at me. This never felt so peaceful. I cupped his face and kissed him as the sun sets slowly. We kissed until we lost our breaths, I was smiling so wide.
"How did you know that I love these?" I asked Theo with amazement. Hindi ko kasi talaga inopen sakaniya pagiging fond ko sa color yellow.
"That's easy, I saw your office. It was full of paintings and sunflowers. I immediately thought about this, you deserve this rest" sabi nya habang akbay akbay ako.
I have never felt security in a man's warmth ever since my grandpa died. And now that I am feeling it again, hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. I'm just gonna enjoy the moment now.
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XOXO,
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