Nayeon's pov
It's almost sunset, and we're here near a hill and I don't know why jeongyeon decided to watch the sunset here if we could hang out on our balcony and watch this beautiful view
"Nayeon come out", jeongyeon said as she's crossing her arms waiting for me to come out, I sighed and opened the door,
I had so much fun today and a lil bit dizzy because we took a small shots earlier at the picnic,
I closed the car door and looked at jeongyeon, she smiled, "what's with that face? You're trying to look cute again, sorry not sorry it doesn't work"
She said and grabbed my arm
She take off her jacket and put it on the ground, "Sit here" she said, "how about you? Your jacket isn't that wide"
I said crossing my arms, "I'm fine sitting on the ground"
I shook my head, why you have to be so sweet like that jeongie?! You're making my butterflies go wild!
"Sit or make out?", She asked giving me a serious look, I sighed, and yeah I sat on her jacket, she sat beside me and hold my hand, "It's almost sunset, just a little more"
She said and kissed my hand, I smiled,
I really had a great time with our friends today, our anniversary is so much fun having them!,
And jeongyeon... She's all that I need to be happy...
"I need to tell you something"
She said, I looked at her with confusion, She smiled but I see sadness in her eyes, "
I cupped her face, "jeongie, what is it? You're making me nervous, really"
I said, She kissed me on my lips
"I'm leaving.."
She said,
Wait...is this freaking real?!
"Are you kidding me??!!"
I asked, she shook her head, and I saw tears starts dripping from her eyes,
I felt pain...I don't want this...
I don't need this..please tell me this ain't true...I would surely gonna suffer if jeongyeon would leave...
What about us? I can't take it.. knowing she's not around..
"I promise..I'll be back after four years..."
She said, I smiled and wiped her tears,
It feels so hard in my heart..
I can't bare this...
"This is for our future Nayeon..I'm doing this for us, I promise I'll be back..."
She said, Jeongyeon...why?
"Do you think we'll still work?"
I asked, She nodded, "I believe in us.. I'm sure we'll make it, right?",
I turn my back on her and hugged my feet, my tears starts flowing, nonstop, I started sobbing,
"I..I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU.."
"I CAN'T..."
"I DON'T KNOW..WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO US..."
"J-JEONGIE...I CAN'T!"
She hugged me from behind,
We kept that way as the sun goes down..
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"Let's go"
She said as we calmed ourselves down,
I don't think we can do this..
She's far..very far..
I don't think I could do it
"Jeongie.."
I called, She looked at me, I stood up, she do the same..
I'm shaking, I don't wanna leave her..
But..damn..
I don't think we'll work..
I don't think we'll be fine far from each other..
I don't think we could do it..
"I-i don't think we can.."
I said, She looked at me with confusion,
"I thought you're fine with it, Nayeon..It's only four years.. we can make it work"
"DO YOU THINK I COULD TAKE IT?!, NOT HAVING YOU BESIDE ME?!,
I DON'T THINK I COULD DO THAT!,
I DON'T THINK I CAN DO IT!,
IT STILL FEELS DIFFERENT HAVING YOU BESIDE ME!, AND THINK OF ANY OTHER NEGATIVE THINGS THAT COULD HAPPEN WHILE WE'RE FAR FROM EACH OTHER!"
"Nayeon you're being selfish.."
She said, I nodded my tears falling nonstop, "I DONT WANT TO LOSE YOU! YOU KNOW YOU COULD STUDY HERE!"
"Nayeon..just understand me..I couldn't do that"
She said and approached me, she hugged me tight,
Jeongie you're making it even more hard..
That hug..
That smell..
That voice..
Everything about you..
I don't wanna lose it!
"You are my everything.."
She said with her shaky voice
"Then don't leave."
I said
"Do you think distance will tear us apart Nayeon don't you trust us?, Me?"
"Jeongie.. I trust you.."
I said
"Do you want me to achieve my dreams? Or not?"
"CALL ME SELFISH! BUT I DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE!"
"We'll get through this, trust me!"
"IF YOU LEAVE! THEN IT MEANS YOU'RE LEAVING US BEHIND!"
I said, I know this words are too immature but I just don't think we could do it!,
I'm being so moron!
I know I know!
"I'm sorry.."
"No..."
She let go of the hug, "I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU!.. MAYBE YOU DONT LOVE ME AFTER ALL!"
She shouted, it was my first time hearing her shout like that..
She walks towards her car and get inside..
I could feel my heart broke into pieces hearing her leave..
Jeongie...
I'm..sorry..
I love you so much..