(Karl's pov)
I felt a little bit better after getting some sleep, even though I woke up like around 12:20.
I was waiting for Sapnap to get in the call
I was getting stressful of how he would get out of the situation of him killing a person.
But hopefully that he's okay and safe, and doing better.
For the past few days, I felt alright... like nothing new happened.
It's just that dad is getting worse now and we can't do anything but watch crusade we have no clue what's causing him to get worse.
For me...
I don't really know what I feel.
I can't really feel "normal" at this point anymore.
I'm like 20 something or 23, I don't know... I don't even remember my own age.
Where the hell is Sap at.
He knows that I'm in a call and he usually gets here like a minute or seconds of me being here.
I mean while I can-ish wait for him I can get my memory cards...
But they do nothing so that idea is gone.
As I was about to leave the call, he joins. Huh.
"Sap?"
"Sapnap you there?"
"Sapnap!?"
"Sapnap!!"
[Sapnap] "AHHHH!!!"
"AAAHHH WHAT THE HELL!!?"
[Sapnap] "HAHA!! I got you!!!!"
"That's not funny!! You scared me!"
[Sapnap] "Aww did Karl get scared by his handsome boyfriend????"
"No I didn't shut up!"
[Sapnap] "Uhh sure you did?"
"No I didn't."
[Sapnap] "Are you sure?"
"Yeah!!"
[Sapnap] "I feel like you missed something that I said."
"No I don't think so."
[Sapnap] "AAAAAHAAAA!!!
"AAAAH WHAT THE HELL SAPNAP!!!? Again!!!???"
[Sapnap] "Aww did Karl get scared by HIS HANDSOME BOYFRIEND!!???"
"Yes! Yes you did okay!!?"
[Sapnap] "I swear to god I'm about to leave this call."
"Nononono!!!! I heard what you said before I was just kidding!!!"
"Looks like I got you too!"
[Sapnap] "Whatever you say."
"Sure sure... so... this is it? We're now dating?"
[Sapnap] "I mean yeah, I wanted this and so did you."
"But...your far away, you live literally in a different state."
[Sapnap] "Don't worry... we'll make it out somehow, like I could sexting you."
"Huh, yeah I guess you can do that..."
[Sapnap] "Don't worry Karl... hopefully soon we can meet each other and actually have physical touch. This is the only way we can really talk."
"Yeah... you're right."
[Sapnap] "You okay?"
"Yeah. I just want to see you already."
[Sapnap] "Stop it you're too cute."
"Stop it!"
[Sapnap] "Ugh fine, you're no fun."
"Noooo! Okay okay!! Your cute too!!!"
[Sapnap] "I'm going to love you for now on, no matter what. Okay?"
"Yeah. No matter what... yeah."
[Sapnap] "I love you Karl."
"I love you too Sapnap."
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(Sapnap's pov)
I later muted myself and took a break.
Stretched a bit and grabbed something to eat.
Ramen ofc.
Well... not of course because that's the only food I had.
Whatever, while I was getting it heated in the microwave, I had to use the restroom and... you know... use it.
Running through my head, the first thing that came up to my mind is...
"How are we going to meet up?"
Like see each other in person, because we never done that... obviously...
But like with everything happening to him... I don't know... I think it's the wrong time...
I don't know man... no time is the right time...
*sighs* I can't really tell the future so I guess I have to see...
I quickly got off the toilet and got out of the restroom.
I went back to the kitchen and get my ramen out of the microwave.
Use a fork and moved it around the bowl to cool it down a bit.
Starting eating it slowly, not cause it was hot... well yeah because it was still hot.
Then later I handle the hotness and ate the rest fast.
Finish it off with a water.
Cleaned myself up and went back to my bed.
I started off the window and glazed at the outside world for a few minutes...
Clouds... cars...buildings...people walking... the sun setting... couples...
Fucking hell im that lonely...
I seriously need like a roommate.
I mean I have a empty room that I'm not using...
Whatever.. I'll think about that later.
Grabbed my phone and tried to call Karl, but he didn't answer.
Ringed again.
No answer.
Again.
No answer.
Again.
Answer.
[Karl] Hey...sorry sap for not answering.
"No your good...is something happening that I'm interrupting?"
[Karl] Y-yeah kinda I'm seeing my dad again... I kinda have to go.
"Shit I'm sorry bro...please text me when your done.
[Karl] I will, we'll talk later. bye sap.
"Bye Ka-"
He ended the call when i was saying his name.
I definitely interrupted something important.
Fuck.
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(Karl's pov)
[Doctors] "I'm truly sorry mrs.jacobs but he's going to have to be in a coma."
...
[Karl's mom] "I-Impossible!!! Y-you can't stop this!!!?? NO!!! NoNoNoNO!!!"
[Doctors] "I'm truly sorry...we physically and mentally cannot avoid comas...I'm sorry...you'll have today, tomorrow and the day after that...to see him...awake...I'll leave you some space...sorry."
...
[Karl's mom] "T-This can't be real...honey? Can you hear me!!? Honey please talk to me!!!" Mark!!?"
[Karl's dad] "I'm sorry my love..."
[Karl's dad] "I...I promise to get better..."
...
[Karl's dad] I've failed...I'm sorry..."
[Karl's mom] "I-I don't want to lose you!!"
[Karl's dad] "Im scared...to lose you..."
...
[Karl's dad] "where's my son..."
[Karl's mom] "Karl...honey...please come here..."
...
[Karl's mom] "Your dad...wants to talk to you..."
[Karl's dad] "oh...Karl...my son...don't be scared... I should be scared because...I don't want to forget your mom and you...."
"me neither dad..."
"I don't want to lose you and mom..."
[Karl's mom] "Karl you won't lose me...please...don't let yourself say that."
"mom...im scared that i might be dad..."
[Karl's dad] "you won't...don't let yourself be like me..."
"i-i can't...dad...I don't want to lose you and I don't want you to lose me..."
[Karl's dad] "don't cry son...I will always remember you...I promise..."
[Karl's dad] "don't cry my love...I will never forget you...you are in my heart...and so is Karl..."
i can't lose him...
I need to write this down...
but I don't want to leave him...
I can't do both...
s-shit...
I don't want to lose my dad...
I don't want to lose my mom...
I don't want to lose Sapnap...
I don't want to lose anyone...
help me...
...
...
...
It's been 3 hours...
It's 2:55am...
I can't sleep...
wait...
didn't I need to text someone...
I can't sleep...
I guess I can call him.
Please answer...
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(Sapnap's pov)
I woke up from a vibration coming from my phone.
I saw Karl was calling.
I quickly answered...
"Karl?"
[Karl] sorry, I can't sleep...
"Nonono your good..."
"Are you okay?"
[Karl] yeah...well...no im not...
"Can I ask?"
[Karl] he's dying sap... he's about to go through a coma sap. I'm scared...
"I-I I'm so sorry...don't be scared... I-"
[Karl] I'm scared... what if I end up like him?"
"You won't be like him...don't say that..."
"Please..."
[Karl] "I'm scared....I don't know what to do..."
*sighs* I really can't say anything...I need to say something than I'm sorry...
"I wish I was there with you...I know how scared you are."
"Please...try to calm yourself...please keep writing in your journals..."
[Karl] I'll try...
"Please. I love you...so much...I want to be with you to comfort you..."
[Karl] I love you too...i can say the same thing...
"I'll be right back... I got to use the restroom..."
[Karl] "okay..."
I run to the restroom and looked at myself at the mirror.
Messy hair...red tired eyes... a light pink scar from my right eye (childhood)...a tired face...a shirtless body...tears...
tears.
I sit down on the floor and think...
Fuck...fuck... fuck, why can't this all be avoided!!?
Why us???
I look down at the floor and looked around my body... thighs, leg, stomach, arms.
why...
I rubbed my forehead and left the restroom.
"Karl?"
"Hey...I'm back"
"Karl?"
"Karllll..."
Soon found out that he went to sleep...
I guess I should sleep too...
I left my phone on the call and left it charging all night...
goodnight karl...
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Yes I'm back and sorry for something months I left.
I mean only because highschool was in the way and I thought it was better to let this a side for a while and wait until like summer to get back.
And now it's summer and I'm back lmao.
I'll focus more on completing the chapters and this book hopefully finish it around August or September but I don't know, we'll see.