Harry
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And I'd sing a song, that'd be just ours
But I sang 'em all to another heart
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Yesterday I wrote the song and we decided to call it watermelon sugar, Niall and Liam came up with the name, they told me the lyrics reminded them of hanging out with family and friends, and having a barbecue and spending time with the people you love
sure thats what its about, after that we all went out to eat, Patrick of course tagged along but Matthew didn't, he said he had something to take care of
Zayn found this Italian place, Geno's we all sat down and had good conversation about everything and anything, Esme was sat right next to Patrick and I was straight across from her, I had to look at him touch her arm and glide his slimy hands up her forearm in a sweet manner, esme just looked uncomfortable the whole time but she wasn't stopping it
she couldn't, they had to of scared her straight, there was no way that she would go along this easy, I tried to have fun and I could tell she did too but we just couldn't, we were both thinking of how we were gonna fix this
when all went back to the hotel after dinner and since it was pretty late and the rest of them were tipsy we went to our rooms to sleep, I saw esme follow Patrick and he closed their door behind him, I didn't see her for the rest of the night
I got a little bit of sleep but it was better than nothing which was what I got most these last few nights, I woke up early and had some breakfast brought up to me, it consisted of your easy bacon and eggs with buttered toast, it brought me back to esme and I's first morning after the swing
she was so cuddly and sweet that Morning just wanting to be with me and I wanted it too, I just wasn't aware of it yet but I went with it because she felt right, I would do anything to go back
I packed up all my stuff getting ready to leave Nashville, putting all my clothes and necessities away, I leave my hotel room at around 5 in the morning and I wait for everyone in the lobby, slowly the group starts to come down few by few, first was Ember and Lou they came down and they both looked very very tired and that meant one thing
they both said good morning, ember's eyes staying on mine a bit longer than usual and I see the slight glint of guilt in her eyes, deep down I know she felt sorry for me for what I'm having to go through but she should feel worse for es, she has it worse
a couple minutes later I see the elevator open and I see Zayn, Liam, and Niall trudge out of it, Niall slumps down next to me and he lays his head on my shoulder, "you tired ni?" I ask him and he nods, "just a little bit didn't get much sleep, my room is next to embers" he groans and I see ember smirk
"sorry bout that" Lou speaks up and niall flips him off, I hear the elevator ding once more and I see Patrick step out and he's alone, my eyes shoot to him and he walks slowly towards me I see his face and for a flash of a second I see fear
"what's wrong" I ask and he looks down, "where's esme" I ask him more urgent this time and he looks back to the elevator, "in our room" he whispers and I stand up, I look down slightly at him and he can't look me in the eye, "I didn't do anything but you should go up there" he says and I push past him, I hit the elevator buttons as hard as I can maybe if I hit it hard enough it will work faster
"Harry" I feel ember come up behind me and I turn to her, she lets out a breath and I look at her, "hey she'll be alright do you want me to come with?" she asks and I shake my head no, "c-can you just take my bags to the bus and we'll meet you guys on the bus in like 15 can you tell the guys to stall for me" I ask her and she nods I hear the elevator ding and I step in letting it close
I don't know what to expect, Patrick didn't explain anything to me, what if she's hurt or scared? the elevator feels like I've been in there for hours when it opens and I rush down the hall to the last room, I see the door is slightly open but I don't see esme, I walk in the room and I close the door behind me for some privacy
I see the bed in the middle of the room its trashed but I don't see her yet, I walk to the side of the room by the kitchen and I see what looks like water all over the floor, I look closer and I see broken glass on the floor scattered as well
I step around it until I get to the kitchen counter and I see Esme leaning against the brown cabinets as she cries into her knees, I kneel down to her and I touch her forearm and I hear the gut wrenching scream come out of her and I flinch from the noise
"esme" I whisper and she lets out a loud cry into her knees again, "esme look at me" I say desperately and she lifts her head just slightly so I can see her beautiful hazel eyes
"talk to me" I whisper to her and she shakes her head and she leans it back down on her knees looking down to the wet floor tile
"what happened?" I ask her and I hear her soft cries become louder, "everything, how is any of this fair" she snaps and I shake my head, "none of this is fair" I say back and she stands up, I see the new cut on her cheek along with the dried up blood that runs down it
I see her sleep shirt which is one of mine is all cut up like someone was trying to stab her and I step closer to her, "who did this?" I ask him and she shakes her head, "actually this time I did" she raises her voice and I take her shirt in my hands, "how did you do this" I ask her confused and she steps away from me
"well first I was trying to stab myself with one of Patricks knifes I found but he took it from me and when I couldn't find it I threw the center piece at the ground and one of the shards came back up and cut my cheek" she says in one breath and I stare at her in shock
"w-why-" I try to ask her but she cuts me off in anger, "because none of this is fair and your acting so calm about all of this its like you never cared about me in the first place" she yells and I scoff, "you think I don't care about you? all I do is care about you Esme, I'm just good at hiding my feelings so Matthew doesn't take them for granted" I yell back and she stomps away from me, "you do care about me then?" she asks quietly and I nod
I feel the heartbeat run through my chest and I hear the blood pump through my ears as I feel myself step closer to her, "I do care about you I love you" I say and she shoots her head to mine, I see her eyes dart to me and I feel the sweat drip off of me
"what?" she whispers and I keep my eyes on her once again, "I love you esme" I say and she lets out a breath
"you love me?" she asks and I feel my heart drop, she doesn't love me, she would of said it by now
I nod my head not able to say anything else and I see a tiny smile appear on her lips, "I love you harry" she says back and I walk to her fast and I press my lips on hers need her right in that moment
I feel her soft lips on mine, its been too long since I've been able to touch her and kiss her but she's worth the wait, I feel my hands grip the sides of her shirt and I bring her into me, my lips desperately attacking hers and she goes along
a few seconds later we pull away and I see her smiling up at me, "I love you" she whispers and I can't help but smile back at her, "I love you" I say and she snuggles into my chest
"we have to get going love" I say and she shakes her head, "I just wanna be here with you" she whines into me and I nod, "I wish we could my love" I feel sad as I say it and she pulls away
"when we get to Arizona I have a surprise for you" I say and she looks at me, "what" she asks and I smile, "the Grand Canyon" I say and I see her eyes light up
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