we all need someone to confide in, right?
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fb = flashback
(Derek is whatever age you want him to be)
MATURE AUDIENCES
Max's POV
Well, it has been one hell of a week. My life has changed drastically from what it used to before I was put into the whole world of the supernatural. Who would've ever thought this whole thing was ever real? It was always something joked about but once you're on this side of the world it is so hard to get out of.
Anyways I'm in the bath currently, as usual, this week, soaking in my regret of what I've said. Gosh, I'm such an idiot.
a few days ago
"Derek! We don't kill people." Scott asserted, noticeably becoming frustrated as Derek continued to ignore his words.
Derek swiftly turned around, standing one-to-one with Scott and they each stood taller for their stances of the argument against one another, "I do."
My heart started to beat quickly at the thought of what could happen if this continued to go further. Everyone else in the room just watched them, as I, and did nothing but there is always one person willing to take the hit for everyone else.
"Scott." I called out to him but he didn't back down under Derek's eyes so I decided to go to him.
I took hold of his arm and he turned to look at me, his gaze now softer, "Go take a breather outside."
He gave me a nod but didn't go without giving Derek one last look before heading out the door.
Once the door had closed, I turned to face him disappointed, "Derek."
His face deadpanned and he quickly moved towards the stairway, to which I had to follow behind. Once I had made it up the stairs he was looking out the window, just staring, and I stood behind him momentarily to give him time to cool off.
I lightly placed my hand onto his shoulder and said his name once again, "Derek."
He turned to face me, still noticeably tense, "What do you want Max?"
"Are you alright?"
"Sure if wanting to kill Scott is reasonable for you."
A laugh slipped but I regained my composure to continue our conversation, "But he's right. We, outside of your pack, don't kill people unless we have to. If t-they're a threat to all of us and never more than that."
He rolled his eyes at my words and turned to look out the window. I stopped talking and took a few steps to stand next to him, bringing his hand into mine and entwining our fingers.
"I'll stand with you Derek but that one thing is not something I'm willing to agree on! I can't believe that you would even argue about something like that with him, he's a freaking teenager. We haven't been in this long and it's not easy to get used to Der."
I let go of his hand and turned his head to face me, "And as much as I love you-"
"What'd you say?" He asked me shocked at the mention of love within my sentence.
I exhaled, finally realizing what I had said, and looked at the ground quite nervously to repeat myself and looked back into his eyes, "I'm in love with you Derek, and...I just can't help but say that I love you."
Laughter broke out after finishing my sentence and I looked over to see Erica, too embarrassed to say anything more I ran down the stairs past her, ignoring the calls from Derek as well as the others.
present day
I was so embarrassed after that and still am, to be honest with you. But I shouldn't care, right? Because it is over and done. UGH who am I kidding? You just don't get over a guy that easily who is just...perfect. He has his days but he's stood with me regardless of how he feels about the rest of the pack and I just can't help but know he and I belong together.
After sitting there for a while, I finally decided to take a shower again and head to my room to get dressed. I walked in, not noticing the figure on my bed until I went to put my clothes there.
Screaming I grabbed onto my towel only to realize it was Derek. Not like anyone would be able to save me since I'm at home alone.
"Derek. Towel. Knock. Did you even knock?!" I asked exasperated, still searching for air somewhere in the atmosphere.
"I came in through the window since it was open and besides I've seen you naked before it's not that big of a deal." He responded, shrugging his shoulders.
I scoffed at the memory, "Well that-that was an accident, okay."
"Sure."
I gasped at him and threw a pillow I had lying on the floor, "You're disgusting!"
He laughed at me, causing me to smile at him because I couldn't help it. His expression became serious soon after, "I came here to talk to you about the other day."
"It's okay, we don't need to because I realized that you probably don't love me back." I smiled at him even though on the inside I felt like I was burning in a fire for hours even though it had only been a few seconds.
He stood and strode over to where I was standing, "Max, please listen to me."
"I'm listening."
"You didn't give me time to say anything before Erica interrupted but I wanted to tell you something."
I grabbed my clothes and turned back towards him, "I need to get dressed real quick. So can you turn around because I don't want to walk back to the bathroom."
Derek groaned at my words, "Just get dressed while I talk to you."
I gave him a look and he finally obliged, "Thank you."
I quickly shuffled around to put on my clothes and some deodorant before saying, "You can turn around now."
He turned back towards me, giving me a cheeky grin, "Anyways as I was saying....that I wanted to tell you something. I've only told this to very few people in my life but I love you too."
My eyes widened and started to glisten with tears, "Really?"
"Yes and I was shocked that you were the first to even say those words and even feel the same towards me but there's one thing."
There's always a "but".
"What is it?"
He wrapped his arms around my small frame and I looked up towards him, "I can't be with you until you graduate high school."
I let out a few sniffles at the mention of this but he was right, it would never work out that way, but it was something I was not willing to accept at the time.
"I want to be with you."
His grip became tighter, "And you will, just not right now."
Tears flowed down my face freely and steadily, they just wouldn't stop, "I can't do this."
He let me go and took my face within his hands, rubbing my cheek ever so lightly, "You can and will get through this. It'll go by quickly."
"Okay." I agreed, letting go of him.
"We'll stick together through everything, remember that. I'll stick with you." He assured me, giving a sad smile.
He placed his lips against my forehead, giving me a kiss, and I savored it for as long as I could.
"Love you." He stated once again before heading towards the window and jumping out.
I watched him as he got into his car and drove down the road. I was left alone, feeling cold once again.
time skip and summary
A month has gone by since I'd confessed my feelings towards Derek and things have surely changed. Our communication and relationship had also done the same. I was dating Isaac after that month and we had lasted for around 6 before he cheated on me with Allison. Then a bit after that I had a fling with Aiden and it was great but then he was taken from me.
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Lydia came to find me while we were in the school, "Max!"
I ran down the hall towards her, "What's wrong?"
"Something's not right, I-I mean that I think someone's about to die."
"Okay, I'll go find-"
Scott came down the hall with my twin brother next to him, "You're not going on your own."
I rolled my eyes, "Fine Stiles, let's go you guys."
I waved my hand and went towards the door but I stopped in my tracks as I heard Aiden's name being called.
"Aiden." My eyebrows went together and I hurriedly went out the doors.
I looked around and called out for his brother, "Ethan! Where are you?"
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him run into the tunnel (i think that's what it is) and further inside I saw Aiden pull out the Oni's sword from his abdomen.
"Aiden!"
I started to go after him but I was pulled into Stiles' arms, "Don't."
Struggling to pry his arms off of me I finally stopped and my body shook at the thought of not being able to see Aiden again, "Stiles, please! Please let me go."
His arms stayed wrapped around me, hugging tighter, "No Max you don't need to see that."
Ignoring his words I begged once again, "But Stiles please!"
present day
And then Braeden came into town, that's when we had to go save Scott from Kate and the Berserkers. That's when I knew he wasn't going to come back, at least not for a while.
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A knock sounded at my door and I rushed over to it, on the other side I found a brooding Derek, "Hey!"
I smiled at him and moved to the side so he could come in, "It's been a while since you've last been here. What do you need?"
He smiled at me, "I came here to tell you that I'm going to leave with Braeden and we're going to go live on our own for a bit."
"What?" I asked, astonished at his plans.
"I just wanted to come by and tell you instead of leaving without a word."
I stared at him as I realized what we could've had was finally coming to an end, probably for the rest of our lives. My chest started to tighten and it became so hard to breathe.
Hurriedly I opened the front door, "Get out."
"Max-"
Interrupting him I responded, "Please Derek!"
He nodded and went out the door, without turning to look at him, I slammed the door and paused against it. Finally, my body started to shake, tension was released as cries raked through me. The stress and pain I was feeling just consumed me.
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Once Aiden had died, I still had about a year and a few months until I was going to graduate and from that day Derek had left, I decided to envelop myself into school and forget about him. I helped Scott with the pack and most of that stemmed from helping Liam to become a calmer werewolf along with being a student. A bit after that our pack member, Kira, had left to focus on controlling her kitsune powers and that meant having to leave Beacon Hills. It left Scott to be single and he was upset about her having to go with the Skin Walkers but he was able to overcome it as the weeks passed.
Currently, I'm at Scott's house, doing homework, but mostly lying around because who actually wants to do homework late at night?
"Max?"
I opened my eyes when Scott called my name, "Yes?"
"Are you alright?"
I nodded and picked up my pencil to do the problems I had been staring at for the longest.
"Let's take a break." Scott insisted, taking my pencil from my hand.
"Scott I n-"
"This isn't due until next week, you're already far ahead of everyone else Max."
I groaned and moved to the other side of the bed, closing my eyes once again.
"You're so rude Max, I was talking to you." He mumbled and laid down on my back.
"You're too big for this Scott, my lungs are being crushed and they're dying."
"My heart dies for you all the time." He replied trying to make me laugh and I scoffed at him.
"That's a new one."
He finally rolled onto the other side of the bed and looked at me, "How've you been, honestly?"
"Fine, I'm just tired or bored. I don't really know." I said and he laughed at my facial expression.
"Why are you working ahead of everyone with all the stuff we have going on?"
"Why aren't you?" I chuckled, playing with the curl in his hair.
"That's too much work!"
We laughed at his exclamation and continued with our conversation, "Have you started seeing anyone, Max?"
"No."
"Why not? You're an amazing person and you should be in the game." He nudged me smiling and I couldn't help but do the same in return.
"I don't know-it's just hard after everything that has happened. I got cheated on, then one of them died, and Derek." I paused, still hurt by the painful memory, "You already know what happened with that."
"I know it hurts but you can't dwell on it for too long and let it take over your life, Max. There are other people out there that are just waiting for someone to have that connection with."
I gave him a pitiful smile and looked back at the ground, "I'm not good enough for anyone."
"But you are, Max. Why are you even thinking that way about yourself? What those two did isn't your fault, they just failed to realize what was in front of them."
Dejected, I ignored his words and continued, "Something's wrong with me Scott, I don't know. What I have just isn't what people want nowadays and-"
Scott took hold of my face and brought his lips towards mine, kissing me. I melted into him, becoming addicted to his kisses, and I wrapped my arms around his neck, my fingers became entangled in his hair before he pulled me into his lap. After a bit, he flipped us over to where my back was on the bed and I stared at him breathlessly.
"Are you okay with this?" He asked and I nodded, bringing him towards me so I could initiate our kiss.
His fingers glided under my shirt, caressing down my sides, and he brought one of his hands onto the side of my face. He kissed me so fiercely, leaving me with a burning sensation on my lips (metaphorical), and me wanting more. Sitting up I pulled off my shirt and he pushed me back onto the bed. I was slightly startled by the action but I still enjoyed the roughness he was putting me through. After doing this he stared at me transfixed before breaking out of it, placing bites and kisses along my neck and jaw.
I bit my lips to stop myself from letting out moans and he took note of my actions, "No one is here so there's no reason for you to hold out on me."
Acknowledging his statement I replied, "Okay."
He gave me one more kiss on the lips before he moved his kisses down my body, stopping at the waistband of my pants before he pulled them off, throwing them clean across the room.
"You deserve this, Max."
My hands moved up to pull off his shirt and I unbuttoned his pants, leaving him to remove the rest, "Turn around."
Freezing for a second, I started to get nervous but he guided my body, leaving lingering touches to help me stay calm.
"Don't worry Max, you can tell me to stop at any time that you want me to." He assured me, and that gave the comfort that I needed.
Once I had turned around, spreading my legs to the sides of his, he wrapped one of his arms around my torso and the other across my chest. His hand tenderly skimmed my belly and down into the cloth that kept him from seeking what he desired. I gasped at the feeling of him rubbing my clit in long circular motions, adding a hint of pressure that made me lose my focus momentarily. My hands took hold of his arm that was across my chest to keep myself stable from his slow torture.
"Look at you just unraveling in my arms, Max. I'm going to make sure you feel good by the time we finish this." I trembled at his words and over time his constant praise started to make me wet as he continued teasing me.
Taking a deep breath to talk calmly, I asked him one question, "How long are you going to keep teasing me?"
At these words, his fingers plunged into my opening and I gasped at the sudden intrusion, "You tell me."
My body unwillingly fell against him and I moaned loudly as his fingers started to thrust in and out at a rapid pace, not too long after I started to feel my high come.
"Oh fuck!" I exclaimed and his movements increased as he simultaneously circled my clit leaving me a writhing mess against him.
I shortly succumbed to his movements and as I did, he turned my head to face him, bringing my mouth to his making my moans becoming a distant background noise.
"You okay?"
Giving him a nod he placed me back onto the bed and flipped me over onto my back, "Tell me to stop if it becomes too much for you."
I pulled him back onto me and placed a few kisses along his neck, he took hold of my arms and pushed them against the bed, running his fingers lightly against the skin of my arms before entwining our fingers.
The next few hours became a blur as we went through multiple rounds and in the end, we snuggled against each other. Our newfound relationship was different but it didn't keep us distanced from each other. The sound of my phone going off startled me and Scott laughed at my reaction.
I nudged him smiling before answering the phone, "Hello."
"I'm coming down the street now to pick you up since you left your car at home." Stiles said and I gave an okay before hanging up and getting dressed quickly.
I packed my school work in my bag, ignoring Scott's long stares at my quick movements. Once I had gotten all my things I turned to face him but not looking him into his eyes, "I'll see you later."
Without giving him time to say anything else I walked out of his room and rushed down the stairs to Stiles' jeep.
"How did things go?" Stiles asked me as I climbed in, throwing my things onto the floor.
Shrugging my shoulders I replied, "Just school work, the usual during school weeks."
Stiles laughed at my sentence, "Of course, you're worse than I am with doing school work."
"Shut up and drive!" I exclaimed, trying not to laugh.
"I'll laugh for you. HA HA HA!" I turned to look at him once again.
"I can't believe that you came out first. I should've been the one who was 10 minutes before you."
Stiles' face fell as he finally shifted the gear, "Too bad that didn't happen." He then stuck his tongue out at me before driving off.
next day at school
At my locker, I was getting my books for the next class of the day before I was finally able to go home and stuff my face with more food then do more homework of course. (be good students people!)
I saw Scott approaching me but I decided to stay focused on getting the "things" I needed in my locker even if I was done, but of course sometimes you have to twiddle around to not feel uncomfortable.
Scott sighed and placed a hand against my locker, "Please look at me."
Standing there momentarily, I finally gained the courage to turn and face him. I tried so hard to keep a straight face and seem somewhat confident but he just looked so adorable and I couldn't help but smile at him and the action was reciprocated, "You're so lucky that you're cute."
His face fell a few seconds after hearing what I'd said and he looked pretty upset, "What's wrong Scott?"
He swayed a little on his feet before starting to speak, "Do you regret what we did?"
I snickered a bit and blushed but I still answered him honestly, "Not at all."
Closing my locker I turned to face him, "Do you?"
He smiled at my question, "Nope but I sure as hell am afraid of your brother hitting me with his bat if he were to find out."
We laughed at the thought of that ever happening but I assured him that it wouldn't, "Do you really think I'm going to tell my overprotective twin brother that I had sex with our best friend?" He laughed and shook his head.
The bell rang so we had to go to our next class and thankfully we had this one together.
"Are you feeling okay? Was I too rough?"
"No, it was-great. More than what I was expecting." I admitted as we had walked into the classroom.
"We shouldn't risk such a good friendship so let's not go farther."
"That's true and it's better that way." I agreed, placing my things on the table and taking a seat.
He sat next to me and leaned closer, "Friends with benefits?"
Laughing I pushed him away from me, "Sure."
He chuckled at my reaction as he finally started to get out his materials.
Overall we did become exactly what we agreed on but we never told anyone about it. When no one was around...I had a bit of fun with the alpha.
[originally posted: May 28 2021]
[edited: Jun 23 2021]
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i cannot write smut you guys! it's so hard and i cringed the whole time but hopefully it was okay. this is also the longest chapter i've written (if i'm not mistaken) a whopping 3700+ excluding this part...and i'm tireddd so if there are any grammar mistakes lmk. this will be the last upload of this week but i will be back on monday/tuesday with a new chapter. have a great weekend everyone...also please stay safe and healthy!
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