Warnings: 💔
I sat in my condo. Crying. Finishing my third tub of ice cream. Re-watching the notebook.
My laptop was open, I was reading some articles which is why I started crying in the first place.
Did Chris Evans and girlfriend Y/n break off their engagement? Sources say the couple is taking some time apart.
We think Y/n Y/l/n and fiancé Chris Evans have ended their almost one year relationship. What happened? We will never know.
Chris and Y/n have been rumored to have ended their relationship. The lovebirds have not been active on social media and have not been spotted together.
It had been almost a week since I spoke with Chris. Since RDJ's party. I was an absolute mess. I couldn't be away from him. I missed him so much.
"Hey I brought..more ice cream...damn you're crying again?"
I tried to talk but it was too hard. I looked at the computer and then at Nikki who was scolding me.
"Ugh don't pay attention to that."
She closed my laptop. I reached for more ice cream in the grocery store bag and dug into it.
"Chris doesn't deserve you anyway. Y/n, if all he does is make you suffer. I mean if you broke up with you, it's for a reason."
"N-no." I said hoarsely.
"No? No What?"
"He didn't break up with me."
"Then why are you crying? Why haven't you spoken to him in like a week?"
"B-because—I—I broke up with him."
I sobbed more, Nikki was stunned. She came to rub my back. As I cried more into a pillow.
**FLASHBACK TO CHRIS'S HOUSE A WEEK AGO**
"Good morning handsome."
I turned to face Chris. We had sort of made up last night. He wanted to sleep on the couch but I didn't let him, so finally he fell asleep next me.
I turned but he wasn't there. I got up and saw he was in the kitchen drinking his protein that he takes after a workout.
"Hi." I spoke softly.
"Hey."
The tension was definitely still there. I don't know why Chris is overreacting about my kiss scene with Seb. I mean I did feel something but I'm not going to leave him for Seb. I love Chris.
"I just need to know—"
"God Chris! I thought we were done talking about that."
"—What did you feel?"
"Something different Okay?! Why do you want me to be this emotionless person. It's normal for me to feel something when I'm about to kiss someone."
"Well whatever you felt made Seb think he could take you from me."
"He's just confused." I rolled my eyes.
"Confused? He confessed his love for you yesterday! In front of everyone! In front of me."
I was so tired of arguing with Chris. I walked back into his room and grabbed my clothes that I had here, shoved them into my bag, and continued to walk out the door.
"Where do you think you are going?" Chris grabbed my arm.
"I just need space Chris. I-I can't keep listening to you bring this up! You are always going to use this against me and I don't like that."
"So you're breaking up with me? Really? After everything we've been through?" He raised his voice at me slightly.
"No! It's just— I need space. To think."
"About the kiss?"
"CHRIS STOP IT! GOD!"
He finally dropped it and crossed his arms. Realizing he might've went too far.
"Here."
I was so caught up in anger. The type of anger that makes you do regrettable things. I slipped my engagement ring off my finger and placed it in his hand.
Chris had no words. I had texted Happy to come get me. He always drove fast. I hopped into the car and Happy drove off.
**PRESENT TIME**
"Y/n! Why would you give your ring back? Are you stupid?"
Nikki scolded me as I told her what happened between Chris and I.
"I couldn't anymore Nikki. Chris, he just kept going on and on about the stupid kiss! Like what does he want me to do? Obviously I couldn't tell him this but Seb is attractive! He's cute! Of course I'm gonna feel something when I kissed him."
I shoved more ice cream into my mouth.
"Oh god Y/n. You are in a love triangle! With marvel's hottest men! AH!"
"Nikki this isn't a good thing. I-I made a mistake and I want Chris back. But I don't know how to talk to him."
"Well has he texted you at all?"
"No I've been scared to text or call him."
"What if you try dating Seb? I mean like you said he's pretty hot."
"No! I will not. Yes he's cute but I could never do that to Chris. They're best friends, well used to be anyway...and I'm still so in love and completely head over heels for Chris—I know I have the ring back but it was just the heat of the moment, I still want to marry him."
"Okay then I'll take Seb." Nikki let out a small laugh.
"He's all yours." I comforted my growing headache.
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Some time later, I finally showered and put some fresh clothes on. My sister had left to do rounds at the hospital.
It was just me watching 10 things I hate about you. I haven't done anything or gone anywhere since I broke up with Chris. I've been ignoring my agent Sara's calls—she wants me to do all these commercials and audition for new roles but I can't.
I walked to my front door to open it when I heard a knock.
"Hey Y/n—if we could just talk..."
"Come in Sebastian."
I motioned him to sit on my couch. I sat across from him, fixing my clothes to look busy.
"I'm sorry. I-I never meant for you and Chris to break up. I just I couldn't hold back these feelings I have for you. I've had them ever since I saw you at your movie premiere. But Chris already has his eye on you so I backed off."
"Seb. I just wished you spoke to me about how you felt. And not say it in front of Chris and the entire marvel cast."
"I know and I'm sorry. I need to know if you felt the same. Because I know you did doll. I saw it in your eyes."
I sighed.
"Yes Sebastian. I-I felt something but it's normal. You are an attractive guy and a great actor so of course I felt something. But, I-I'm sorry but I don't feel that way."
He bowed his head towards the ground, disappointed in my answer.
"So I'd never have the chance?"
"I'm sorry but I'm in love with Chris and you guys are best friends. I wouldn't do that to him..."
At this point he had gotten up. Thinking this was going to be different.
"...What?" I said when he mumbled something but I couldn't hear.
"Nothing. I-I'm sorry again Y/n."
He opened the door and left. I had just sat down when I heard a knock again.
"Seb Im sor—Jensen?"
Jensen stood on the other side of the doorway. In a black leather jacket. Some dark jeans and a gold chain.
"I read that you and pretty boy broke off the engagement. So I came to see if it was true."
I rolled my eyes at him.
"It's true but we're getting back together." I completely lied and tried to close the door.
"Don't mind if I do—thank you."
Jensen walked into my condo, uninvited.
"This is nice." He looked around.
"What do you want Jensen?"
"Okay. You don't like small talk that's fine. I'll be blunt then. Get ready because I'm taking you out on a date."
"You're funny. Get out."
"One date Y/n."
"No."
"Just One."
"No!"
"It'll be fun! C'mon you've probably been cooped up in this place, eating ice cream and watching sad movies right?"
I stayed silent.
"Exactly. So, put something sexy on and I'll wait here—wow this couch is really comfortable."
Jensen was cocky and was definitely used to getting what he wants. He plopped onto my sofa and scanned me up and down.
I sighed and went into my closet to find something casual. Nothing sexy. I only dress sexy for Chris.
I put on a jean jacket, some leggings and some sneakers. I grabbed my bag. When something fell from it, I bent down to see what it was. I turned it over.
It was a photo of Chris and I from our trip to Boston. With his family. A tear fell my eye.
"Okay when I said I'd wait for you I didn't mean all night. Chop chop." Spoke Jensen from my living room.
I smiled at the photo and put it in my wallet. I walked out and Jensen stood up.
"Finally. Hey didn't I say to wear something sexy?"
"Do you want me to go with you or not? If you do I'd drop the attitude."
"Yes ma'am, after you."
Jensen opened the door and I walked out into the hallway. We made it to the elevator and said hello to Liam.
"Where are you kids going?"
"Leave that up to me. Grandpa."
"Bye Liam." I smiled.
Jensen and I kept walking towards the front. I almost slammed into the door. I wasn't used to opening them since Chris always opened them for me.
Jensen's dumbass was obviously not a gentleman.
"Jensen!"
"Oh shit. I'm sorry."
He finally jogged back and opened the door. I was stunned when I saw an all black chevy camaro. With tinted windows.
"What? You thought pretty boy was the only guy with a nice car?"
We hopped inside his car and it smelt like Jensen's cologne. He wore a different one than Chris. But the one Chris wore was still my favorite.
"So where are you taking me?"
"This ice cream place, that I've heard about."
Jensen took me to this ice cream parlor on the outskirts of LA. It was in the middle of a shopping mall. Outside. Then a wide park attached next to it, where people were walking.
I got *fav frozen yogurt flavor* since I was tired of eating ice cream, and Jensen paid for me. He also got some too. We stepped outside the parlor and began walking around.
"So Y/n? Where are you from?"
"New Jersey. You?"
"Kansas born and raised."
"Country boy huh?" I smirked.
"Never that, I'm actually the opposite."
"Right. So what is it that you do? Other than be a cocky playboy?"
"Wow is that what you think of me? I'm flattered—FYI I'm actually a hunter."
"Like a deer hunter?"
"No. The supernatural kind."
"Like ghostbusters?...." I giggled.
He stayed serious.
".....You're serious? You hunt ghosts? I don't believe that."
"Good cause I was lying." He said. "I'm the owner of a weapon making business. So."
"Hence the nice car right?"
"Yes. Great thinking Y/n. You're not just all pretty looks."
"You ass!" I slapped him.
"So what is it that you do exactly?" Jensen looked at me with his green eyes.
"I'm an actress."
"Wow what an interesting profession. You don't get tired of acting like someone else?"
"No Jensen. That's the whole point of acting."
I scooped more fro-yo into my mouth.
"So what did Captain America do anyway? I thought you guys were supposed to get married."
I took a deep breath, processing Jensen's question.
"I really don't want to talk about it."
"Fair enough. I just need to know what he did so that I don't do that for when we start dating."
"And who said we were going to start dating?"
"I said so. Just now." He let out a small laugh.
I rolled my eyes again.
"I'm still in love with Chris. I think you should know that."
"That's fine. But once you start falling for me you'll forget all about Evans."
"I'm not going to fall for you Jensen."
"Uh, Uh, don't be a pessimist Y/n! You can't tell the future." Jensen tried wrapping his arm around my neck but I shoved it away.
He laughed at this.
"So how long are you staying in LA?" I asked trying to change the subject.
"I'll stay until you agree to go out with me."
"Jensen! Are you not listening? I'm not going to date you!"
"You see there's those words again. Why do you say that if you don't know."
"Because I know Jensen! I know my own self."
"Mhm. Okay. No need to get riled up. To answer your question truthfully. I'm here in LA on a business trip."
"Thanks for actually answering. And how did you even find your grandpa? I mean Liam?"
"Well I found him on Facebook. I messaged him. And next thing you know I was flying to LA."
"That's nice. I'm glad Liam finally met his grandson."
We stopped walking when I said that. I turned to Jensen. Confused.
"H-He spoke about me to you?"
"Yeah. He said he wanted to find you and your brother I think one day."
Jensen smiled at the connection.
"I love that man. He's the best." Jensen spoke
"So how old is your brother?"
"He's 22. Fresh out of college. His name is Jared."
"Oh, um, I have a sister who's also 22."
"Really? Well what do you know. I think that will make the perfect double date!"
I shoved his arm off of me. Jensen is so annoying with the dating.
"Hey Hey, I'm sorry. I'll stop." Jensen chased after me.
"Are you always like this with other girls? Or it's just me?"
"What other girls? Because you're the only beautiful one I see in front of me."
I couldn't help but blush. We shared a moment and Jensen reached to tuck a strand of my hair behind my ear.
I took a second to admire his handsome face. Light freckles scattered around his nose, pink lips, green eyes, messy brown hair—he wasn't ugly. I guess I was staring too long that Jensen took advantage of this and leaned forward to attempt to kiss me. But I turned my face away.
"I can't—" I whispered.
He let go of my face and nodded. Then I watched as he ran to the balcony that was separating us from the waterfront. He got on it.
"Jensen! What the hell?! Get down!"
"Not until you agree to one kiss."
"That's not funny! I already agreed to the date! Now get down."
"One kiss Y/n!"
"No!"
"Yes!" He shot back.
A little old woman came to help us.
"Are you okay kid?!" She shouted at Jensen.
"No! You see that beautiful girl right there! She won't kiss me."
"Oh honey. Would ya give him a little smooch? Look at what you got him doing."
The little woman told me. I sighed. This kid was really crazy.
"Fine Jensen! God! Just get down! You psycho!" I shouted.
He hopped down and swiftly made his way over to me.
"Thanks hun." Jensen winked at the old woman who was now walking away.
"You are so annoying." I gave him cold eyes.
"I'll do anything for a kiss."
"Just one kiss Jensen! I swear if you try anything else!" I crossed my arms.
"Yeah yeah. Come here."
He grabbed me and pulled me close. He smiled when he noticed my cheeks heated up. Gently, his hand went cup my cheek. I just stood there, leaving him to do all the work. Once he leaned in, I licked my lips before he kissed me. His lips were soft and actually felt kind of nice.
When he pulled away I still had my eyes closed.
After making out, we finally detached our lips.
"You see. That wasn't so bad was it?" He spoke.
"You're still annoying."
"Mhm. Do you want to try that again?" He smirked.
"Shut up."
"You're starting to like me! Admit it!"
"No. Shut up before I regret kissing you."
"So you don't regret it?! Haha! You are so going to be mine Y/n."
"SHUT UP!"
"Hey. I'll take that as an acceptable answer."
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As days went on, I began filming for criminal minds. It took my mind off of Chris.
Believe it or not, Jensen was starting to rub off on me. He was pretty nice if you removed the cockiness and the childishness. These days we've just been hanging around my condo watching movies and playing board games. Nothing else.
"Hey Liam. Where's that grandson of yours?"
"Upstairs probably waiting outside for you."
I thanked Liam as I entered my building.
"Hey babe.." he shouted when he saw me get off the elevator.
"Don't call me that Jensen. We're not dating."
"We should be though."
I unlocked the door to my condo and Jensen walked in behind me.
"So when am I gonna meet my sister in law? Nikki is it?"
"She's not your sister in law Jensen."
"Hey? What's with the pessimist attitude again." He spoke
"Shut up."
I didn't know how I felt about Jensen. Obviously I still loved Chris and I missed him, I wanted him back. Jensen was like a friend that over welcomes their stay and you don't know how to get rid of them. I wanted to be nice sine he was Liam's grandson and I loved Liam so.
"So what do you wanna watch? Avengers? I know you're a marvel fan..."
I smiled at Jensen remembering. These past couple of days we've been talking more and getting to know each other—as friends. I frowned when I remembered that Chris never wanted to watch avengers with me.
"Yeah. Avengers is fine." I sighed.
Jensen was laying on the couch. I sat in the loveseat that I had next to my sofa. We were half way through the first avengers movie when I heard a knock on my door.
I got up to get it.
"Chris?"
Chris was on the other side of the door—he was holding flowers in one hand and my favorite chocolates in the other.
I haven't seen him in like two weeks.
"Can we talk?"
I nodded and gulped down the nervousness because I remembered Jensen was in my living room. Chris stepped inside.
All I wanted to do was jump in his arms, kiss his lips and beg him to take me to the bedroom. But I had to control myself.
He sighed and finally spoke.
"I-I am a wreck without you baby who am I kidding. These two weeks have been hell. But it made me realize how stupid I was and how much i overreacted and I'm sorry—I treated you like that..."
"Y/n?! What's the hold up? The movie is start——oh well if it isn't my girlfriend's ex."
I closed my eyes when I heard Jensen's voice.
"Chris—I can explain it's not what you think it is!" I shouted.
Chris placed the flowers and the chocolates on the small table near the door. And walked out.
"No Chris wait. Please." I ran after him.
He turned around fast, very heated.
"I can't believe you moved on so fast! I mean it's like I meant nothing to you Y/n! It's like you don't even want me back!"
"No baby, you mean everything! Of course I want you back—Jensen is a friend!"
"A friend?! He just said you were his girlfriend."
"Okay I know he's an asshole but that's just the way he is. I-I'm not his girlfriend."
"Why did you do this to me Y/n? Hm? Did I not show you enough love? I-I—" he stopped talking and turned around.
"Chris please."
He kept walking and I kept yelling after him. When I heard the elevator doors closed. I knew he wasn't coming back....
I walked back into my condo.
"You couldn't keep quiet for two seconds?!"
"Hey this is a good thing! He's gone now!" Jensen spoke.
"You see Jensen, it's not a good thing. I needed him back. I wanted him back and you knew that."
Tears began falling from my cheeks.
"Forget about him Y/n! I am perfect for you. Chris is old news!"
"No I will never forget about him because he's the love of my life."
"Are you saying you don't feel anything for me? Not even after our date? After that kiss?!"
"The date you forced me to go on?! Or the kiss you manipulated me into giving you?! Yeah no. I didn't feel anything!"
"That's not true." Jensen kept adding.
"Get out Jensen."
"What?"
"GET OUT."
Jensen grabbed his jacket and left, looking at me once more. I sobbed into the pillow on my couch.
I was this close to getting Chris back....
~whew, very emotional once again. I have to keep y'all on your toes I'm sorry! For all my Chris lovers like myself—don't worry he isn't going too far😩.....~