"What is this all about?"
I hear a familiar voice say behind us.
~Y/n POV~
I froze in place.
"Y/n?" I hear the voice ask again forcing me to slowly turn around..
"T-Taehyung-" I say with a smile.
Taehyung looks at us still in disbelief.
"You knew? Why didn't you tell us?"
His voice got a little louder than it was a few second ago.
"Look we wanted to but we didn't want to bother with more information yet until we knew for su-"
He cutt me off before i could nervously finish my sentence.
"That doesn't even make sense. Jimin and i are the ones living with this mental illness not you. Dont you know how much we've worried?"
Teahyung takes a deep breath.
"How scared i was?- No how scared i still am?" Taehyung adds.
I look down to my feet in guilt.
"Taehyung im sorry we-" Jungkook tried to talk but Taehyung cutt him off to.
"No! Don't!" Taehyung now yells not wanting to hear another word.
"..."
There was a short silence.
"You know... You don't seem that different from your mother. You keep secrets and that just makes it worse!"
Taehyungs comment immediately made me face him. I was surprised to hear something so sudden.
"If you kept a secret that would protect us i would understand. But not this! We deserve to know!" Taehyung yelled louder by each sentence.
I hear slow footsteps coming towards the kitchen.
"What secret?" Jimin asks confused yet a little disappointed.
Taehyung started breathing heavier.
"Hey- hey... Calm down Taehyung its okay. Explain it to me." Jimin says suprised patting Taehyungs back.
Taehyung fortunately calmed down by Jimin comforting him. He points at me with a serious face.
"She kept another secret." Taehyung says his breathing calming down.
Jimin raised a brow.
"She did?" He says as he looks at me trying to find out the truth.
Taehyung shakes his head a little.
"Wait not only her. Jungkook and that new guy there to." He adds pointing at them.
"No! Not Hoseok! We just told him!" I add and i feel Jungkook pinching my arm secretly.
"Ow!" I whine looking at Jungkook.
"Why did you say that!?" Jungkook whispers angrily.
I look back at Jimin and Taehyung.
"You told him before you told us?" Taehyung says surpised yet angry while Jimin was getting annoyed.
"Told what!? Tell me!" Jimin yells now impatient.
That's why is should've kept my mouth shut...
"They were looking for a way to help us but they do everything without telling us first. Its just the fact that she kept another secret. And even something that should be shared with us it only brings confusion, she told that stranger first before she told us! And its about us!" Taehyung explains still angry while Jimin furrows his brows while listening.
Jimin looks at me making me gulp.
He sighs rubbing his temples looking like he was thinking.
"You know what Taehyung. Her lesson hasn't sunk in yet. Lets go." Jimin says while pulling Taehyung with him.
"What!? Where are you guys going!?" I say worried going after them.
"To the woods! Think about the last time and what i told you then! When we come back everything will be explained to us. Everything that includes all of us!" Jimin says angrily.
I sigh in worry Jungkook and Hoseok coming towards me.
"Wait! Jimin!" I run up to Jimin grabbing his arm stopping him.
"Y/n... Let go." Jimin says calmly shaking off my hand.
I look over at Taehyung with pleading eyes.
But he ignored it...
They left closing the door loudly on their way out.
I looked back at Jungkook and Hoseok.
"What do we do?" I ask sitting on the couch.
"They know now... We should tell them everything." Jungkook says as Hoseok sits next to me.
"Yeah... I'm sorry its as if i made everything worse." Hoseok apologises looking down in guilt.
I pat his back.
"No its not your fault. Things like this happen and now we can tell them and tell them about what we are planning to do and test." I explain in a low voice feeling down.
I remember the words.
"You are like your mother."
Normally it would be a good thing but... I know he meant it in a bad way.
"Hey... He is angry now but he doesn't hate you. Neither of them." Jungkook says smiling at me sitting next to me.
"Maybe we should share all our secrets we have fought about secrets for as long as i can remember." I say nervously.
Even about... Hana.
"Hoseok you need to be here to." I say looking at him.
Hoseok looks suprised slowly nodding still wondering why.
"Okay but if i get called i need to go. Hana can come back anytime. You never know with her." Hoseok says not sure when she would come back.
She does indeed show up randomly whenever she wants...
"When will they be back? Its definitely the first time this happened. Normally we would go after him but... I think they need to clear their head." Jungkookexplains worried.
"Well just wait." Hoseok says in the quiet room as we wait.
Hoseok breaks the silence again after while checking his phone from time to time.
"So... You all just live with Y/n?" Hoseok says randomly looking at us with big curious eyes.
Jungkook laughs a little.
"Well... Actually 6 to be honest."
Hoseok looks confused.
"What do you mean 6?" Hoseok says counting us. He widens his eyes.
"Yes thats the total count..." Jungkook adds sighing.
"You plan on living like that much longer?" Hoseok asks surprised.
As i was about to answer Jungkook shaked his head.
"No. To be totally honest i have been looking for some apartments. But after things go little better. I'm planning on taking the boys with me." Jungkook says looking at me.
I've never head this before.
"We should stops hiding things. But you should understand. You are women living with 5 other guys." Jungkook adds with a smile.
"Y-Yes but what about the-"
Jungkook cutts me off.
"I told you. After everything goes well with everyone then we will move out. Jim doesn't originally live with us anyway he has his own place to."
He is right... It wouldn't be bad to have some privacy. But after everything is taken care of.
I don't want to let them go... Yet.
I couldn't help but feel sad thinking about Jimin leaving
Jugkook told me a very deep secret.
I should probably tell about Hana to.
"Jungkook i have something to tell you its about Hana." I say immediately catching not only Jungkooks attention but Hoseoks to.
They both sit straight and i see Jungkooks eyes fill with worry.
"I've been waiting for you to tell me about it. You acted so weird." Jungkook says as Hoseok still looks at us clueless.
"What did she do?" Hoseok asks worried.
I close my eyes tight preparing to say it even though i didn't want to...
It's better to say it...
~Jimin POV~
I wal through the woods Taehyung following me.
"Jimin! Slow down!" Taehyung yells from behind me.
I came back to reality looking back at Taehyung stopping in my tracks and sitting against a tree.
"I'm sorry... Let's sit here." I say breathing heavily.
Taehyung sighs sitting down in front of me.
"Look... Shouldn't i have told you? I didn't know you were gonna drag me outside." Taehyung says jokingly putting his hand on my shoudler hently squeezing as if to make me feel better.
"No its good that i know. I'm not angry i just hope that this will spill out all the secrets she has." I smile looking at him.
Taehyung smiles back taking a deep breath enjoying the fresh air.
"Not to ruin the plan or anything but... Don't you have secrets to?" Taehyung says raising a brow.
"I don't have-... Maybe." I change my answer thinking about it.
About her mother... And her brother.
"I know i got angry at Y/n for keeping a secret away from us and we do have fights like this everytime. But if we keep a secret like that from her than its basically the same she did to us."
Taehyung explains still caring deeply about Y/n despite the fact he just got angry at her.
"Yes but... Its to protect her-"
Taehyung cutts me off shaking his head.
"But she did the same. To protect us from any fear. We have the same unamed mental disorder that could gulp us down any moment leaving us in a non stop living hell. If we heard about any tests we would be scared."
Taehyung explains thinking back about the conversation he overheard.
"Yes but Y/n lived her whole life as a lie. I don't wanna bring it up yet. She should find out herself. I don't belong in the family anyway..." I say releasing a deep sigh.
"Are you sure youre not gonna tell her? I mean i understand that her brother is a jerk. But they're still related."
I shake my head very sure of the fact that im not gonna tell her.
"I can't get in between that. I'm not gonna tell her what her mother did either. Her mother is sick and i don't want Y/n to hate her. She will regret it when she passes on." I show my feelings Taehyung slowly nodding along.
"You did tell us." Taehyung quickly adds making me face him with a dead serious expression.
"Youre saying i shouldn't do that anymore?" I say with threatening tone in my voice
Taehyung smiles a little nervous laughing it off.
"Nono! Its good that you told us."
"Okay then... Its your choice. But if i were you i would've told her the same day." Taehyung adds one last time as if giving me advice.
"Well it's hard! Its hard to tell her!" I yell frustrated.
I didn't yell at him. I yelled near him.
But i don't think he knew that since he looked down.
"Honestly its quite scary living with Y/n since i don't know what ill do. Just like last time i almost choked her. What if i wake up and notice that i did something? Not just with Y/n it counts for Jungkook and the others to." I add expressing my worry again.
"I umderstand how you feel. Not to be kind but i literally do." Taehyung sits closer to me.
"Hey we will be alright. Sometime in the future you'll see me with 5 kids and a wife you wish you could get."
He laughs it off sligtly bumping me with his shoulder.
I couldn't help but let out a laugh.
"5 kids... That's a lot to take." I say with a smile.
I can imagine that... It fits him.
"Honestly since i have been in middle school Y/n was always the one in my mind. I never knew why." I explain making Taehyung look at me.
"But as i entered the beginning of highschool i knew..."
Taehyung waits for me to finish.
"I knew that i loved her." I finsih the sentence making Taehyung jump right back up.
"What? You never said it like that! I mean it was obvious. But still hits different." Taehyung yells making me sush hi. immediately looking at our surroundings.
"Don't talk so loud!" I quietly yell pulling him down.
"Sorry..." Taehyung mumbles under my hand covering his mouth.
"Yes! Don't make me regret telling you."
There was a short silence.
"So you mean you only want to be with her?" Taehyung asks surprised.
"Yes... I think so. But now is not the time to think about it." I respond in a low voice.
Now is really not a good time.
"I mean things have happened between us. A lot has happened actually." I say as i think back on all those things.
"Yeah... I know." Taehyung responds a little disgusted looking at his hand.
There was a awkward silence this time.
"Let's go back... It hasn't been long but its better to be quick." I say breaking the painfuk awkward silence.
Taehyung nods as i stand up. He grabs my hand as i pull him up.
~Y/n POV~
It's better to say it...
"Well Hana and i-"
All of a sudden the door opens hearing the footsteos come closer to the living room.
I immediately stop look back at the hall.
Seeing the familiar faces walk into the livingroom.
I see Taehyung smile at me unlike before.
I felt a big relieved feeling spread through me making me smile back.
"So i guess we can talk about this now."
We all look at each other nodding.
But i could still see the curious expressions in Hoseok and Jungkooks face.
"Yes." I answer Jimin as he sits down in a chair.
Taehyung sits in the other looking around the room to wait for someone to start speaking.
"Hey Y/n." Taehyung calls out my name in a soft voice making me immediately look at him.
"Yes!" I say actively sitting up.
He laughs a little.
"I'm sorry for... You know- Yelling at you like that." Taehyung says avoiding my eyes.
I smile widely at him.
"Its okay Taehyung. You just wanted to stop this mess so that we can finally get moving."
Taehyungs eyes widen and he nods a smile appearing on his face.
Jimin looks at me and Taehyung rolling his eyes.
"Yeah yeah okay! Lets talk now okay?"
Jimin says as if annoyed.
"Yes let start with you two." Jungkook speaks before i could looking at Taehyung and Jimin.
"Let just get to the point. We want to help you and try our best to give a peaceful mind. What we think triggering you is your past." Jungkook adds looking at them.
Jimin looks at Jungkook confused. Taehyung looked just as confused ss Jimin did.
"Why our past?" Taehyung asks.
"Well we seem to think its because you can't let your past go yet. And that are things that trigger you... And that is hard to let go of since you two think about it all day everyday. Thats why we first need to have individual converstion with both you." I explain Jungkook nodding a long.
Jimin and Taehyung were deep in thought.
"You mean talk about it? In detail?" Jimin asks with pain in his voice.
"Without hiding anything? Or telling the truth?" Taehyng adds as we again nod.
"I know its hard but its better to get it all out and that we can finally start. I'm sure you both have noticed that the medicine is starting to work out and highering the dose is unhealthy for your body. We already highered it but highering it more will go to far."
Jungkook explains walking towards them standing in between the chairs putting both his hands on their shoulder. Gently squeezing it as if to comfort them.
"Yeah... Okay." Jimin responds in a low but peaceful voice putting his hand on Jungkooks sqeeuzing it gently.
"Thanks." Jimin adds.
I break the silence.
"I still have a secret..." I mumble trying to speak up about Hana.
And reveal my worries...
All the heads were now looking at me. I could tell Hoseok was waiting the whole time for me to speak up about it. If i didn't im sure he would bring it up.
"What?" Jimin asks quite satisfied that i wanted to speak up about something that has been bothering me.
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Well here goes nothing...
"Its about-"
All the eyes were focused on me waiting for me to spill it...
I can tell them!