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Mila POV
Angelo left an hour ago since his mom called him home so I'm in my room by myself watching tv to distract me from the anxiety I felt.
My necklace turns cold on my chest and I look down at it to see it was black, Felix then appears.
"I see your boyfriend left." He gets on the bed.
"Have you come to antagonize me some more?" I mumble.
"Maybe maybe not." He cracks a smile. "You wanted me to protect you didn't you?"
My eyes glance to his knuckles noticing the bruises on it as he runs his hand through his hair.
"What happened?" I grab his wrist to look at the bruises.
"I just dealt with something." He replies shrugging.
"Something that involves you beating up that guy...?" I let his hand go looking up at him.
"Mhm."
It's quiet after that, neither of us saying anything while we laid next to each other on the bed. The silence felt a little suffocating and I couldn't help but ask,
"Is he dead?"
"No but he wished he was." He pulls me closer into his chest sighing.
I decided to drop it not interested in hearing any more. My curiosity shifted to something else, his past.
"Is your mom still alive?"
A moment goes by before he decides to answer.
"Why are you asking?"
"I'm just curious...I guess." I turn my head to the side to look at him. "And also if you're human how come you're a demon now?"
"I'm half human, my dad is a demon." He replies without looking at me.
"Oh you're a cambion..." I drift off finally understanding but then something else peaks my interest. "Uh so who's your dad?"
"Asmo—"
My door swings open suddenly making both our heads turn.
"Mila I've been..." Maria drifts off as her eyes meet Felix's.
"Is this the guy you've been sleeping with behind Angelos back?" She glares at him.
Felix raised his head tilting it ever so slightly to the side.
"Hi." He flashes a charming smile as his eyes glowed gold momentarily.
•••
After I explained everything to her over from the beginning, she was now sitting across my room by my desk staring us down from my bed.
"I know you said he's a sex demon or whatever but he looks human though except there's that thing with his eyes."
She glares at Felix from across the room clearly on guard.
Felix gets up walking towards her. "Come here."
She looks at him unsure as he grabs her hand pulling her to the bathroom and I watch on confused.
They enter the bathroom and he shuts the door behind them. I sit on my bed waiting for them to come back out.
It's quiet for a few moments until I hear moans. My eyes snap to the bathroom door.
W-what is he...?
The moans gradually get louder and my heart sinks. I couldn't describe how I felt, it wasn't jealousy I was just...hurt, once again by Felix.
I look down at my hands realizing I was shaking.
It's been happening a lot lately, right before my panic attacks start I'd start shaking.
I gulp hard trying my best to swallow the anger and the sick feeling I felt in the pit of my stomach as a large lump formed in my throat.
The moans die down a couple of minutes later and after a few minutes, the bathroom door slowly creaks open but I don't look up at them.
"That should satisfy me for a good hour or two." He comments.
"So you were uh telling the truth...I'm sorry." Maria apologizes but I remain quiet.
"Mhm, it's fine." I mumble softly.
I glance up at her and notice how her legs were trembling. Quickly looking back down gulping my feelings down as it threaten to spill over.
Fighting back my panic attack I snap the hair tie on my wrist. Maria notices of course approaching me.
"Are you anxious or something? You only do that when your anxious." She goes to touch me but I flinch away making her stop.
"Mila whats wrong?"
"Sorry." I quickly apologize. "Can you just...leave please?" I ask quietly.
"Oh um sure." I look up at her and noticed how her eyes glanced over at Felix. "Uh later Felix."
"Mhm, later." He replies indifferently too focused on something on his phone.
She blushes quickly turning back to me. "Sorry again about not believing you about um this...I'll go now, feel better..." She drifts off giving me a wave before leaving.
I don't return it staring blankly at the door as it shuts snapping my wrist harder the skin becoming sore.
"Can you stop that?" Felix sighs getting on the bed again. "You'll open your cuts."
I ignore him staying quiet continuing with my snapping. My hurt was slowly turning into anger and my snapping was easing what little control I still had left from letting that emotion slip out.
"Bruh can you stop? It's annoying—"
"Shut up." I mutter quietly but he hears me.
"What?"
I slowly turn my head to look at him. "I said shut up Felix." I repeat coldly.
My comment sets him off grabbing my throat.
"Watch who you're talking to." He warns.
"Yea just...let me go." I look at him warily.
He doesn't move keeping his hand wrapped around my neck increasing my annoyance.
"Felix. Let me fucking go." I ordered firmly.
He presses on the sides of my neck cutting off blood flow to my head making me pleasingly dizzy.
"I wonder why you suddenly think you can talk to me like that."
His eyebrows crease for a moment in thought before they shot up in understanding.
"Oh, you're upset because I ate out your friend?" He chuckles. "I kinda forgot you're in love with me."
There's a twist in my chest at his words but I remain composed.
"I don't care." I lie.
He brings my face closer to his. "Really? Cuz you look pretty mad. Maybe you're jealous?" He muttered amused.
"Fuck..." I glare at him. "You." I spat angrily.
He kisses behind my ear and down my neck. I shudder biting my lip pushing at his chest.
He licks the sweet spot on my neck. "Mhm you sure you're ready for that again? You not still traumatized?" His question seemed more riddled with genuine concern than teasing.
I remain quiet not reacting to his words. However I couldn't help but falter when his teeth nipped my neck making me flinch.
A whimper slips from my lips making him chuckle deeply before pulling away with a smirk.
I hate him.
"I love you too." He smiles replying to my thoughts.
I paused staring at him, I know he wasn't being serious but just hearing him say it made me oddly happy?
•••
"Honey I'm back." I look up from my laptop to see my mother walk in with several bags.
My face remains blank. "Yea hi." My reply was bleak.
I've hadn't talked to her since that night. Even though she tries to engage with me several times, I've refused to talk to her, since she continues to treat me like a crazy person.
If Felix was gonna be found out by anyone it should've been her.
I glance beside me at Felix's sleeping figure rolling my eyes.
"I bought you some clothes." She smiles at me trying to ease the tension.
"Thank you." I reply genuinely.
"Mhm."
It's quiet for a moment and I expected her to leave but she speaks up again.
"So I found some different doctors we can go to...I also talked to a priest." She offers hopeful.
"For the last time, I'm not crazy and I'm not going to a medical doctor for them to convince me that I am when I know I'm not." I mutter.
"Mila it's nothing to be ashamed of if you have some sort of...disorder or something." She tries to reassure me but I just look at her with a crazed expression.
"So what? I'm mentally unstable now? Is that what you're implying?" I glare at her.
"No that isn't—"
I shake my head not wanting to hear anymore.
"I'm tired, so can you please leave?"
"Alright." She sighs leaving the room. "Love you, night." The door shuts after her.
I sighed looking up at my ceiling. "Ugh." I grumble annoyed.
Felix suddenly pulls me closer to his chest groaning. "Can you not? You're disturbing my sleep."
"I'm not even doing shit." I huff.
"You're annoyed and I can sense it, so get rid of it." He replies.
"Sorry." I sighed again but then remember. "Hey, you never told me who your dad is."
He groans. "Another time, now shut up." He replies gruffly.
I glare at him, rude much?
He opens his eyes which were currently gold. "Don't glare at me." He replies annoyed before closing his eyes again going back to sleep.