Lalisa POV
"Mommy please, let me come with you, don't send me to Aunt Joohyun" my kid says. He wanted to come with me and Jennie to our date. I really want to bring him with me but It's different when I'm having my alone time with Jennie for sometimes
"Baby listen to Mommy, I promise I'll bring you with us next time. It's out of town and you still need to attend school tomorrow . We don't want you to get tired. Don't you love Auntie Irene?" he just pouted and stomped his feet about to cry. I fix his collar and ready to go to his school
"I love Auntie but I want to be with Mom too" he whined
"Come on baby, stop sulking, there's always next time okay? I'll fetch you later and drive you to Auntie's house, alright?" but he just cried so I have to pick him up then rub his back
"It's okay baby, I love you always remember that"
I leave him crying in his classroom, his teacher told me she can manage my sulking son but I stay for a while to see if he will stop from crying. Thank god he did
Jennie will come at three in the afternoon. I decided to clean our house to kill the remaining time. I remember I told Jennie I am quitting being her secretary because I wanted to pursue my dream of becoming a designer. I want to start my own business, building my own name that can make me proud of myself because I finally made the right decision for myself.
Jennie said she will think about it but I don't think she can argue with me this time or even stop me, this is my dream and I'll make it happen. And I wanted to prove to my Mom that I can stand by myself, hoping that someday I can make her proud of me again
I feel so overjoyed today, Jennie promised to take me on a date and send me where she would bring me. I can't explain the happiness I am feeling. I'm holding on to her promises because whenever she promises something, she'll fulfill it whatever.
She spends much more time in her work than doing her responsibility as a wife and a mother of our child, I always understand her. She's too eager to expand her company, there are times that she's a million miles away from us and it scares me death worrying about her health condition. There's also a time when I needed her so bad and I can't reach her that caused my breakdown, until now she doesn't know my feelings somewhat unexplainable unlike before that I am very certain, I am in love with her hundred percent.
But we are married and I thought that perhaps it was just because I missed her so bad. Need her by my side at night. Our son needs her as well, I noticed my son stopped asking for her Mom and I think he's already used to not having Jennie around. But when I'm mentioning her Mom just like now, he will ask if he could see her Mom for a second but I couldn't.
Jennie needed to realize that she's slowly losing her family or it'll be too late
My phone vibrated, bringing me back to my senses
Calling : Unknown
I furrowed my brows at the caller but I still pick up the phone
Lisa : Hello?
J : Lis?
Oh.. him
Lisa : Jungkook
Jungkook : C-Can you come over?
Lisa : Jungkook, we talked about this. We can't talk anymore, I forgive you and I told you it's better if we don't see each other anymore
Jungkook : Please Lisa...
Is he crying?
Jungkook : We're still best friend, I need you..
He sobbed
Jungkook : Dad died this early morning
I gasp, covering my mouth. It's been a year since Uncle and I met. Oh god, what kind of person I am. I forgot I still have a family who is willing to offer their shoulder for me. God, this is so messed up
Lisa : I.. I, oh god Kook I'm sorry. I'll see if I can come over, I am very sorry for your lost
Jungkook : I need you
I bit my lips. I couldn't make a drastic decision, Jennie will go crazy. Maybe I can sneak for a day when I know Jennie isn't around. He's still my Uncle and he has a space in my heart
Lisa : Listen, I'll text you in this number. I'll try Kook, be strong alright?
Jungkook : O-Okay
Lisa : Be strong, Kook
I hung up the phone
I don't mean to lie to Jennie but it's best if I won't mention about coming to Jeon's. They are still my family and if Jennie found out I went there, I just wish her understanding
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"Hello there baby, how was school?" I ask my son who is now frowning. He's so cute! I peck his lips but he just pout
"Fine.." he said nonchalantly. I help him seat on the shotgun seat, he's unlikely not in a mood today and I know why
"Baby why are you like that to Mommy? We talked about this, right?" I said driving away
"But Mommy I really want to go with you" the red light appear and I stop my car then face my son
"I will buy you as many toys as you want tomorrow, I promise. Just please understand that today is your parent's anniversary okay? You know I love you very much, Can you give your parent's time with each other? Pleasee" I said with my puppy eyes and there he nodded and crawled on my lap, its okay I can manage driving with him on my lap
"Okay Mommy, I will get toys whatever I want tomorrow, promise me Mommy" he said pecking my lips multiple and we both giggled
"I promise, but only tomorrow. You already have a bunch of toys we should donate half" I said teasing him
"No Mommy! They are mine, I love my toys, they're just fine in my room Mommy. Don't give them away, I'm their master" he said lifting his both arms. So cute!
I start driving again and bring him to Irene's. I stayed for a minute because he requested and I left after he played with Irene's dog. He hates my cat, just like Jennie. They said my cat was a snob when it was not. They are so mean to my cat
I prepared myself within 2 hours. I wear my White long sleeve dress, light make up and let my hair fall with a little bit curly and two inch heels. I look at myself in the mirror with a satisfying smile in my beautiful face
I sit on our couch and wait for Jennie. I look at my wrist watch and it says 2:54 pm. Good, maybe she's on her way now. God, I'm so freaking excited
3:20 pm. "It's maybe because of the traffic"
3:57 pm. "I guess overtime meeting"
I tried to call her but she's out of reach. I texted her and got no replies. Just a little bit more
4:30 pm. I'm pacing back and forth now for a freaking hour and she's not still here!
5:10 pm. "Damn you Kim!"
I tried to call her again but she's not picking up. I called her other secretary and said she's still in a meeting. Great!
6:45. "That's it!! Fuck you Kim!"
I marched onto the dining room and grabbed a bottle of wine and chug it down. I gulped the lamp in my throat, biting my lips to prevent from breaking down
I seat on the ground still holding a bottle of wine like I am mad at the universe when truthfully, I am beyond mad at everything
I heard the doorbell rang and I'm expecting my wife's face but I heard a giggling. I hear Irene's calling me, she went in this room and rush on my direction
"Omygod Lisa!" she called, worried evidence on her face "What happened" she asked getting the bottle out of my hand
"Sue your friend" I said sobbing and tried to get the wine in her hand but she stop me
"Enough Lis, come let's get you in bed. Fix yourself, your son just upstair"
"I'm.. tired.." I said crying hard on her shoulder
"Hey don't say that.. everything will be fine I'll talk to her" but nothings change, the anger inside me still burning
"Mommy" I heard my son coming towards me and I quickly wipe my tears but it's no use, it's still coming out "Mommy who made you cry?" He said cupping my cheeks "No-Mommy don't c-cry" he said as he started to cry with me. I heard Irene sigh
"I'm d-done Irene.. she should give me a very clear and acceptable reason or everything will be a mess.. I swear!" After I said that, I take my son's hand and we walked back upstairs. He was still crying and asking me why but it was not the time to tell him. I tucked him with me inside his blanket and he slept in no time.
I cried until I fall asleep,
Before, she's just busy but still managed to join us for dinner, tucked our son in bed and even sang for him to fall asleep. The days of her absence in our house went weeks, months and almost a year flying everywhere in the world.
Sometimes, when I'm alone in our bed, I am starting to question my love for her that I find ridiculous because as far as I remember, I would die if she left me.
My heart has its own decision and whatever the outcomes, Jennie is the only responsible.