Dedicated to starfish_cuddles
Hello dear, thanks for the comments <3 I really enjoy reading them!!
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Also thanks for the HBD wishes guys, y'all really made my day 😆
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Uhum, also...
I wanna change something in the previous chapter...
Remember how Atsumu's mom used to be sick and Atsumu's dad paid for all the hospital bills?
I said that the sickness was tumor but let's change it into a heart problem lol...
Okay that's all, proceed by all means ~
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When Atsumu wakes up, infuse is already attached to his left hand.
His eyes travel down and he sees himself wearing a white polkadot patient gown.
Soft light escapes the gaps in the window beside him, indicating that it's morning.
His clothes from the night before, already washed and folded on the desk next to him.
Atsumu: Ughhh...
His head hurts.
His throat hurts.
Do you even have to ask about his asshole?
But then his brain starts to remember.
The things he did the previous day.
Tsunami of emotions are hitting him hard but before he can cry or have another panic attack, suddenly a nurse comes through the door.
Nurse: Oh, you're awake...
Nurse: *approaches him and checks his infuse*
Atsumu: *answers in his heart* <I wish I wasn't...>
Nurse: Everything looks good...
Atsumu: <What fuckin' part of this is good?>
Nurse: How do you feel, Sir... Miya?
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Atsumu: *gives her that sinister look of his*
Atsumu's eyes can be pretty intimidating if he wants them to.
(He might be the Walmart Sangwoo, but he still got that Sangwoo blood!)
Nurse: *flustered* Oh-uh... I-I'll call the doctor... *rushes out*
Atsumu: . . .
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Not long after that, a male doctor comes in.
Doctor: Miya-san, nice to meet you, I'm Doctor Ren...
Atsumu: ...Where's Doctor Haruki?
Dr. Ren: Oh... She's currently at the institution, but she will visit you soon... I'm sorry but until she comes, you'll have to settle with me...
Atsumu: . . .
Dr. Ren: Is that okay?
Atsumu: . . . . *purses his lips* *nods*
Dr. Ren: *grab Atsumu's hand to check his pulse*
Atsumu: *flinches*
Atsumu: <C'mon, c'mon... He's just checking you... You can't be like this forever...>
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Dr. Ren: *takes his flashlight out* Open your mouth...
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Atsumu: *reluctantly opens his mouth*
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His heartbeat increases as the action reminded him of the blowjob that he gave to the mafia boss the previous day.
Dr. Ren: Put out your tongue a little bit more...
Atsumu: <This is nothing... This is nothing... He's just doing his job... Don't chicken out now...!!> *hesitantly puts out his tongue*
Dr. Ren: Alright... *puts on the stethoscope* Now, let me listen to your heartbeat...
Atsumu: . . .
Dr. Ren: *about to put the stethoscope on Atsumu's heart*
Atsumu: *remembers that it's exactly the same place where he shot Claw*
Atsumu: *gasps and backs out*
Dr. Ren: Miya-san...?
Atsumu: *heartbeat off the charts* *breathing becomes heavier*
Dr. Ren: Just relax... I'm not gonna hurt yo-
Atsumu: C-Can I... just wait for Dr. Haruki??
Dr. Ren: . . . *looks at how afraid Atsumu is*
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Atsumu: Please...? *still trying to regulate his breathing*
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Dr. Ren: Alright... Cause you don't seem to suffer any internal injuries (based on the checking last night), I'll let you wait for her...
Dr. Ren: Just stay here and try to rest... *gets out of the room*
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Atsumu: . . . *looks at his trembling hands* I... didn't do it...
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He waited and waited...
Until finally, hurried steps approach his room.
His heart beats faster.
The setter's anticipation goes up.
But instead of the warm doctor, who shows up is an angry old man with a wrinkled looking-to-kill expression.
He walked straight to Atsumu and slapped his right cheek.
Before the blond setter could even recover from the sting, the old man pulled his shirt and stared into his eyes with pure resentment.
Atsumu's ex-dad: I'VE WARNED YOU...!!! I'VE WARNED YOU, YOU SHAMELESS LITTLE FAGGOT!!!!!
Atsumu: *stared right back into him with just as much spite*
Atsumu's ex-dad: IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO MY WIFE, YOU'RE DEAD, YOU HEAR ME?!?! YOU'RE DEAD!!!!
Atsumu: *pushes his hand away from his shirt* DON'T FUCKIN' TOUCH ME!!! YOU'RE NOT MY DAD ANYMORE!!!
Atsumu's ex-dad: WHO THE FUCK WANTS TO TOUCH A SLUT LIKE YOU?!?!
Atsumu: WHO THE FUCK TOLD YOU TO COME TO MY ROOM?!?!
Atsumu's ex-dad: YOU HOMO LITTLE SHITTT!!! YOU'RE A DISGRACE TO THIS FAMILY!!! *puts on a picking a fight expression*
Atsumu: GET OUT!!!
Atsumu's ex-dad: *about to punch Atsumu*
Atsumu: GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!!!! *throws his pillow at him*
Three nurses suddenly come into the room.
Nurse 1: What happened here?!?!
Nurse 2: *holds Atsumu who almost jumps from his bed*
Atsumu: *so enraged, he feels that his heart could burst from hatred alone*
Nurse 3: *holds the old man* Calm down, Sir! This is a hospital!!
Atsumu's ex-dad: Let go of me!!
Nurse 3: I suggest you leave now before I call the security!
Atsumu's ex-dad: *gets his hands off the nurse* There's no need for that... I'm done here... That slut ain't worth my time anyway, *points at Atsumu* he never did!
Then the old man just storms off, leaving Atsumu in a hurt-stunned-wrathful state.
Various other emotions that he can't explain flood his heart, it's almost too much for him just to breathe.
He's too hurt to be angry, but too angry to cry.
Nurse 1: *gives Atsumu his pillow back* It's okay, it's okay... You're safe now... It's okay...
Atsumu: *still trying to regulate his breathing from the high tension* Can you just leave me alone??
The nurses exchange nervous look with each other.
Nurse 2: Sir...? *about to touch his arm* Sir, are you oka-?
Atsumu: *pulls his arm back* I'M FINE! Would you just leave me alone?!?! *looks to the side, hiding his face from the nurse that asked him*
Nurse 2: *pulls her hand* C-call us if you need anything, okay?
Atsumu: . . . .
The nurses then finally go out.
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When Osamu opens his eyes, all he can see is a slightly blurred figure with a concerned look.
Osamu: S-Suna?
Suna: *tries to hold himself from tearing up* It's Rintaro, you dumbass!
Osamu: S-sorry... Old habi-whoa!
The grey-haired hitter immediately feels a tight hug from on top of him.
Suna: What took you so long?!?! You scared me...
Osamu: ...How long was I out?
Suna: Much longer than me *pouts*
Osamu: -__-"
Osamu: How much longer? *rubs Suna's head and kisses his forehead*
Suna: *lets go of the hug and blushes*
Several... hours? I woke up this morning . . .
Osamu: Ughh... *headache* So... what happened?? How could we-... *eyes widen* Where are the others?!?!
Suna: . . .
Osamu: Rintaro, where's my mom?!?!
A sad expression cover Suna's face.
Suna: She's... in the ICU...
Osamu: What...??? *shocked and worried*
Suna: They said that the taze triggered some heart problems from her past...
Osamu: . . . I . . I need to see her! *tries to get up*
Suna: *holds him back* Wait, you just woke up... The doctors haven't checked you yet... We need to make sure you're okay first...
Osamu: I feel fine... I need to know her condition *tries to get up again*
Suna: *holds him back again* Don't worry, they did a surgery on her last night... She should be fine soon...
Steps can be heard outside.
Suna: The doctor's coming... It won't take long... I promise...
Osamu: . . .
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Not long after that, dr. Haruki comes into Atsumu's room.
The setter's eyes direct towards the opened window, but his gaze was empty.
Dr. Haruki: ...Atsumu?
Atsumu: *lowers his head*
Dr. Haruki: What happened...?
Atsumu: Nothing
Dr. Haruki: *frowns and examines Atsumu better*
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Dr. Haruki: *eyes widen* *gasps* Who did this to you??? (referring to the slap mark)
Atsumu: Nobody
Dr. Haruki: *concern* May I see it?
Atsumu: *hides his cheek* It's been there from last night
Dr. Haruki: It looks pretty fresh to me...
Atsumu: . . .
Dr. Haruki: <Did he do it to himself?>
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Dr. Haruki: You know you can tell me anything, right?
Atsumu: . . .
Dr. Haruki: I'm here to help you...
Atsumu: . . .
Dr. Haruki: Don't you trust me?
Atsumu: . . .
Dr. Haruki: ...Atsumu?
Atsumu: I'm just not in the mood for a Q&A session, doc
Dr. Haruki: . . . Then, say something at least... Anything at all... It doesn't have to be about that scar... It can be about anything... You can even be the one who asks me if you want to...
Atsumu: I'm not in the mood for a chit chat either...
Dr. Haruki: Atsumu...
Atsumu: If you're not gonna do anything else then I suggest you to leave... You're just gonna waste your time here...
Dr. Haruki: You need to let me help you...
Atsumu: . . .
Dr. Haruki: I know it's hard, but if you'd just give me a chance to-
Atsumu: What do you want me to say, doc??
Dr. Haruki: ...
Atsumu: That I feel pathetic? Miserable? Nothing you say or do will change that, not unless you can stop me from dying...
Dr. Haruki: But you're not dead yet... No one knows when they're gonna die... Even I could die when I go back from here if I got hit by a truck... You can't just doom yourself before the time comes
Atsumu: *hurting expression* Doom myself? Hah! Like I'm not already doomed!!
Dr. Haruki: . . .
Atsumu: Look at me, doc! I have no future!! My twin brother is taking over my father's company soon and I dedicated my entire life on volleyball, the game that I never even won and might never will cause I'm now too fuckin' afraid to show my face to other human being!!
Dr. Haruki: It won't last forever... You just need some time-
Atsumu: And I'll be dead by then...
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Dr. Haruki: AIDS is not like cancer, Atsumu... If you take really good care of yourself you can even live until your old days...
Atsumu: <Take good care of myself?>
Atsumu: Are you suggesting that I should just give up volleyball?
Dr. Haruki: *concern*
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Atsumu: Ne, Haruki-san... Tell me... Why would I want to live a long life just to be a burden to everyone and not even being able to do what I love?
Suddenly the door is knocked from the outside.
Dr. Haruki: *ignores it*
Dr. Haruki: You should continue your volleyball... If that's what you really want... You shouldn't give up on it... <Just like you shouldn't give up on life...>
Atsumu: *lowers his head*
Atsumu: It's too late, doc... Maybe you're right... No university would want a famous cock-sucker to be the face of their team anyway...
Another knock on the door.
Nurse: *from outside* Dr. Haruki?? There's an emergency phone call for you...
Dr. Haruki: *holds Atsumu's hand* Then think about your family or anyone who cares about you... If you can't be strong for yourself, then do it for them...
Dr. Haruki: *squats a bit* I'm gonna be here too...
Dr. Haruki: Atsumu...
Atsumu: *slowly looks at her*
Dr. Haruki: *holds Atsumu's hand tighter* It's gonna be okay... As long as you have us... It's gonna be okay...
Atsumu: *almost sheds a tear in front of her but he averts his gaze* You should answer it...
Knock knock
Nurse: Doctor, it's from Nurse Fujita and he said that it's urgent!
Dr. Haruki: ...I'll be back *goes to open the door*
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Writing a psychiatrist is hard, especially since I've never met one and I need therapy myself *smh*
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If it's inaccurate, I apologize... but I hope you enjoyed that, I figured y'all need a lil therapy session as well hahah...
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I think I'm gonna pick up the pace next chapter, but we'll see, until then stay safe!!