We could all be dead very soon,
So please hold me until I can't feel
Anymore,
I'm sorry for the way I tested your patience,
Making you stick beside me every second we were together.
I'm sorry for the way I would hug you,
And cry into you when I was most broken,
I knew you would tense up when I would tighten my grip on your ribcage,
And sob louder than the last time.
Now the storm inside me has taken ahold of you,
Making you sad like me.
Your smile is fake, a facade of the silent hell we've both been through,
Which wasn't supposed to happen.
I wanted you to tell me everything was going to be okay,
I wanted you to hold me and whisper words into my head to suppress,
I wanted you to kiss my tear stained face,
I wanted you to put your hand on the heart that was cold as the day you were taken away,
Right now,
I wish I could hear you say I care too much and I smoke too much,
But if you can't see me now,
That's not a need to me anymore,
You were taken by a girl more happier,
More peaceful,
And saner than me.
I was a mess,
I couldn't function properly when I was around pleasant human beings,
She was the complete opposite,
She was well collected,
Well coordinated with the words that flowed from her mouth,
Unlike myself.
I tried to change for you,
I tried to become happier,
Because you always said "For me..."
Well, now it's
"For yourself..."
And to be honest,
I'm not liking it...
I wanted you to be here,
I wanted you to see me graduate,
I wanted you to see me happy,
I wanted you to see me fight,
And I wanted you to see me win...
You were never a bad person,
The poor mirror lied to you.
I showed you that you weren't a bad person,
That you were good enough for me.
But now you've left,
And the world I once knew is caving in on itself.
Decency and order isn't a virtue anymore,
And how I wished you were here to hold me.
Now the stars are falling to the earth,
Seven trillion tiny wishes crash landing on a planet full of shattered dreams and broken heartstrings.
How do I wish I was beside you right now,
Watching the world end together would've been a dream for you,
But it would've been Déjà Vu for me...
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Inspired by the song, Six Degrees of Separation by The Fray
-S.K.M