Esme
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You make me feel good
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I brought Harry out into the middle of the sea of people and I put his hands on my waist, something about tonight was different. everything felt better, heightened, brighter. His touch felt more strong, the way he looked at me felt like his eyes never left me, his lips were more eager
I wanted us to let loose, to feel whatever we wanted to feel, to do whatever we wanted to do, I was tied down to an abusive relationship anymore, I felt free for once. I didn't have anyone to please but myself and Harry was a bonus
I looked behind him and I saw Ember staring at me in awe which I was weirder out by did I do something different, she didn't look mad she looked sort of proud I think is the emotion, I just didn't know why
I saw her climb back on top of Lou and they went back to making out on the leather couch, I see Niall now doing body shots with a random blonde he found here and I saw Liam found a blonde as well and they're sipping the bottle of vodka Liam has has since we got here, I see Zayn sitting on the counter with the same girl as earlier and when I look in front of me I see Harry, my Harry staring down at me but when I look into his eyes I don't see my sweet harry, he has a look of lust on his face it makes me nervous but intrigued
I hear a song come on and I see everyone cheer and run to where people have been dancing around us, I see Ember and Lou make their way over by us and she dances with him trying to have some fun but Lou is kind of the rock hard type so it looks funny
I feel Harry's grip tighten on my waist and he pulls me close and I hit his chest, I gasp and look up to him, "are we gonna dance?" he asks and I smirk, "let's let loose baby" I say to him and he kisses my lips but he doesn't pull away right away, on lips dance with each other and I start to sway my hips as Harry holds them
I pull away and he moves his lips to my neck and he gives me soft kisses leading from my collar bone to behind my ear and I feel myself start to breath heavier, he's never done anything like this before but I like it a lot
I feel the music pump through my veins and I leave my arms on his shoulders dancing with him, he doesn't move like I am but it's better than Louis, I feel Harry's lips suck onto my collar bone and I let a small whimper, "harry" I whisper his name and he bites down making me gasp louder, I know no one is concerned with what were doing so that makes me feel better
I feel his wet lips trace my neck waiting for a place he can leave another mark and I keep dancing to the song listening to the lyrics
I'm the baddest baby in the atmosphere
Tell me what you want so we can do just what you like
You make me feel good
La la la la la
I dance to the lyrics without a care in the world, I'm finally letting loose and it feels amazing, addicting almost
I see Harry moves his mouth away from my neck and I see his eyes look at mine again and I see the look of lust has grown larger, I see Ember walking towards us and I take a breath, "hey Es having fun?" she yells because the music is very loud and I giggle, "yes, are you having fun?" I ask her and she nods, "Lou sucks at dancing but I can manage" she shrugs and she hands me and Harry shots, I look to Harry and I throw mine down my throat feeling the burning sensation coat my throat and I give her the shot glass back, I see Harry do the same and I feel Ember kiss my cheek
"ok I have to go find my dancing man, I'll see you guys later" she winks walking away and I look at harry, I've caught my breath now but I still feel my gut twisting in excitement and fear, I'm not that experienced in bed, I've had sex with Patrick but it wasn't good and I didn't even come, it was always pleasing him
I feel Harry grab my hand as the song ends and he takes me out of the crowd of people dancing, I see the black lights flashing little now as we walk into one of Nialls hallways, Harry opens the first door and I see a empty bathroom, I feel myself get shoved into the room and my back hits the wall as Harry stands in front of me, I look him up and down and his hand finds its way around my neck which makes my breathing increase again
I feel his leg in between both of mine and he moves my head to look at him, "I can't resist you" he whispers and I hear the music pump through the walls but it's muffled now, I bite my lip and he looks down at my lips, "I can't either" I whisper and his grip gets tighter around my neck causing me move my head back to the wall making me look above his head, he lets go of my neck and I look back down to him
he presses his lips against mine and I groan into him, he feels amazing. he bites my bottom lip tugging on it and I moan. "fuck" I let out and he slips his tongue into my mouth and I do the same
"your addicting, can't get enough of you" he lets out in between kisses and I wrap my arms around his neck caging him into me, he kisses me harder and I know he's going to want more but I don't want him to do anything for the first time in Nialls bathroom and at random party
I feel my knees buckle as the kiss grows deeper and I feel his fingers run up the sides of my body making me hot, I need him
I pull away and he looks at me with concern, "let's go back to your house?" I ask him with a grin on my lips and he nods eagerly, he grabs my hand pulling me out of the bathroom and he weaves through the crowd not saying goodbye to any of our friends
he opens the car door for me and I get in and buckle quickly and he does the same racing off to his apartment
we get there in record time and he pulls me to the stairs of his house unlocking the door and we get inside he looks at me and I want towards the living room
"I don't want to lay down on this tonight, lets use it for something else" I say looking at the swing and he lets out a breath shaking his head
"your going to be the death of me goldie" he says and I smirk
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