𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐝 in the hospital bed of Paradis as you looked out the window of the fourth floor of the building. The skyline of Paradis was truly beautiful. It was something that you would never stop loving while you were here.
It had been five months since you first came to Paradis and you had been hospital bound since you arrived. You were told that you may never move your left leg again let alone walk. But you still had hope that your leg would heal and you would be able to explore Paradis on your own without a single care in the world.
Johnny on the other hand had been staying with the Survey Corps since he couldn't live out of the hospital unlike you. But Johnny did visit you everyday. He would talk about how Jean and Connie would take him on trips with their ODM gear and how he felt like a bird flying through the sky.
You always thanked Captain Levi when he would take Johnny to see you even though the thought of a hospital made him sick to his stomach. He was a big germaphobe you learned over your time being here.
You had gotten close with other Survey Corps, some of them even coming to see you often just to chat with you. You would always listen to what their days were like because you couldn't experience anything new as of the moment and imagining doing the things they did made your days a little brighter.
Though it did take time to warm up to the Survey Corps over the five months you did. They understood how you felt towards them and slowly tried to make things up to you which was something you apperatied them doing. They could have just dropped you in a ditch when they arrived here but they didn't, they tried to befriend you.
Once you could finally stand being in the same room as any of the Survey Corps they gave you a history lesson according to Hange. According to them members of Marley were brainwashed, this confused you on how you were brainwashed but Hange said they didn't think you were just because of how you treated them when they first arrived; instead of calling them vulgar things you let them into your bakery with open arms.
It was hard to wrap your head around but you did believe them because it did make sense to you at least, it made sense of everything that was going on in Marley while you were there and all the oppression that happened to the two groups on the island over the years.
But even though you did believe them it was still hard to forgive and forget in this situation simply because of how Marley was the only home you had ever known even if it was bad. It was where all your memories were and now abandoned family bakery. You could only mourn the feeling of home knowing deep down it was best not to return to Marley.
Your head perked up when you heard the sound of a knock on the door of your room. You turned your head towards the door as you saw it slowly open. When the door was wide open enough to see who it was you saw Eren. Your situation with Eren was hard but a little more each day you hated him a little less, but you still did have a lot of hate for the boy. But something about seeing him lifted your mood.
"Hello Eren." You spoke gently, you lifted yourself up from laying down and rested on the headboard of the hospital bed looking towards Eren. Eren's hair was in his messy bun and his clothes were casual. A shirt, black jacket, and dark pants. An outfit he often wore.
"Hi Y/n." Eren said, he fully walked into the room and you saw a brown paper bag in his hands. He shut the door behind him and walked into the room more taking a seat at the chair next to your bed. "How have you been?" You asked the boy who was shifting in the seat trying to get comfortable. "I've been good, just training with Mikasa even though she can go for days on end with no break." He chuckled. You knew he wasn't wrong Mikasa could really work out for the end of time if she really wanted to.
"What's in the bag?" You asked him. He looked down at his hand almost forgetting what he had brought you. "Oh right." Eren opened the bag and pulled out a glazed donut wrapped in a cloth. "I asked Johnny to help me make some for you. Your mom's recipe book was really confusing for me." He said. You took the donut from his hand and looked at it in the cloth.
Though it only was a donut you couldn't help but feel your heart swell. The small act of kindness was something you couldn't get past, you hadn't had a donut in almost five months which was the longest you ever went without eating one.
"Thank you Eren, that means a lot to me. I'm sure Johnny enjoyed helping you as well." You said with a faint smile on your lips. You placed the donut onto the side table and looked back at Eren who had a ever so small smile on his face as he looked at you. "Your welcome Y/n, it's really the least I could do for you." Eren spoke.
The quietness in the room seemed tense, it was weird. There were never any tense moments with Eren but ever since that day there has only been tense silence. You didn't know what to say to him and he didn't know what to say to you which only made you more tense.
"I'm sorry Y/n." Eren said. You turned your head to Eren and looked at him. "Eren stop apologizing-" "But how can I not? I ruined everything for you. I ruined everything between us over stupid memories that I was supposed to follow." You looked at Eren whose face was in his hands. You picked up that this was something he didn when he was visibly upset.
"Eren I understand, you only wanted to follow the memories because it;s all you knew. It's all you could do." You spoke, "I was such an idiot though I didn't need to follow them." "You didn't realize it." You tried your best to reassure Eren. "I just want you and I to go back to the way things were before I did that." "Things take time Eren-"
"I don't have time!" Eren shouted, taking his face out of his hands to show the tears that were flowing out of his emerald eyes. "You what?" You asked, confused over his meaning that he doesn't have time. "I'm going to die Y/n. I saw it in my future. I'm going to die and there isn't a single way I can stop it."
Your whole body ran ice cold, you didn't know how to react. You didn't know if Eren was just pulling some sick prank or if he was being serious. Judging by how upset he looks you knew he was being truthful.
"How? When?" You questioned. Eren stayed silent, not responding to your question. "Eren, when?" You asked him. "In five and a half years. I've been counting down my own death." He said, his breath hitching from his sobs.
You couldn't believe the words Eren said, was he really going to die? How was he going to die? Why did he have to die so soon?
"That's why I have been trying so hard to have you forgive me, I just want the time I have left to be spent with you Y/n and all my friends. I just want to die a happy man." He sobbed. Your hands gripped the sheets of your hospital bed as you realized how your life really was a roller coaster that only went down from there.
"Eren," You began as you looked at him. His sad green eyes looking at you tears flooding out of them like running sink water. You put your hands on his cheeks and wiped his tears away with your thumbs. His body almost instantly relaxing after your touch soothed him. He missed the feeling of your body on his.
You looked into the boy who taught you how to love other people, the boy who also sought freedom. You realized no matter how much your mind tried to tell you that you hated the boy in front of you your heart would always over power those thoughts with how much you truly loved and cared for him. It broke your heart knowing how you couldn't spend the rest of your life with him. But you wanted to make the time he had left with you count.
"I forgive you."
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Hello! There is only one more chapter after this one I think that's pretty crazy how I almost am done with my first story haha. But I hope you all are well! I am doing pretty good. I really hope you guys enjoyed this chapter!! Much love and stay safe!! <3