After Rashir was able to get Lourdes to calm down, she tried to put off telling him what had happened but he forced it out of her. She knew Rashir's anger issues were terrible and she didn't want him to go off and get himself into trouble over her problems. Once she explained what had gotten her so upset, she could see him getting visibly angry. His jaw was ticking with his fists clenched at his sides and his nostrils were flaring. He walked her back to the group and made her sit down with everyone and told her that he'd be right back. She reluctantly explained to the rest of them what happened, and by the time she was finished, Rashir had come back with split knuckles that he was trying to hide, but she saw them anyway.
Everyone was immediately concerned for her and the boys were on their feet when she told them about the man but she heard Rashir whisper to them that he 'Handled' it and they calmed back down. She pursed her lips at the fact that Rashir had found the guy and fought him, just because of her but she kept quiet and refrained from scolding him.
"You still feel like going out to eat Lo? We can just go back home-"
"No!" Lourdes cut in, she plastered a fake smile on her face, "Of course we can still go," She insisted while they packed their things up. It was around 6 and their reservation at the restaurant was at 7:30, but the drive was going to be at least 45 minutes. Even though she wasn't really okay, she would feel terrible if they missed their reservation all because of her. It felt like she kept burdening them with her problems and she hated it. They were supposed to be on a vacation and she kept ruining it.
"Are you sure?" Nala asked.
"Yes," She reassured them, even though it was clear they were all still hesitant, "C'mon, let's go change," She grabbed her tote bag and began walking towards the car to get her clothes for the restaurant, not looking back to see if they were following her. She made it to the car before the rest of the girls so she waited by the door so Nala could unlock the trunk.
Once the girls caught up to her, they all gathered their things from the trunk and the boy showed them the way to the private huts that they could change in. Lourdes was excited to finally wear the dress she had packed specifically for a fancy dinner. It was a one-shoulder dress with a mix of different blues, green and black. It had a slit in the slide with gold rings that kept it together. She also packed a pair of green heels and her chunky gold hoops to match.
The huts had small showers so she quickly hopped in to wash the smell of the ocean off of her and got all of the sand out of her hair. When she finished, she dried herself off and got her lotion out of her bag, lathering her body in it. She slipped on the dress, smoothing it out, and looked in the mirror. It was a little on the tight side, but it fit her body like a second skin. She had packed some mascara, so she applied that onto her lashes, followed by some clear gloss.
She put her hair braids in a swoop ponytail, clipping some of the braids back and pinning them to the back of her head. When she was satisfied with her look, she stuffed her things into her tote bag and opened the door to the hut, looking around to see if the rest of the girls were finished. Gianna stepped out the same time as her and Lourdes found herself feeling envious of her outfit. She was wearing a black bodycon dress with the Chanel logo on the chest and black heels. She turned and spotted Lourdes with a relieved smile on her face and walked towards her.
"Thank God, I thought I was the only one still getting ready," She sighed in relief and beckoned for Lourdes to follow her. Lourdes fell in step with her as they made their way back to everyone who was waiting for them. Before they made it to the parking lot, Gianna stopped, making Lourdes stop as well and look at her with confusion. Gianna turned and had an apologetic look on her face.
"Lo, I'm really sorry for leaving you earlier, I should've known that sleazy ass guy was gonna try something when I left," She blurted, and Lourdes opened her mouth to stop her but Gianna held up her hand, "It was my fault and I just want to say I feel horrible,"
"Gia...I don't blame you for anything, it wasn't anyone's fault and you don't need to apologize," She insisted, grabbing her hand when Gianna still seemed hesitant, "Stop beating yourself up over it,"
Gianna was silent for a moment but she nodded and gave her a grateful smile. "Okay enough sad shit, let's go have a fancy ass dinner that we're not paying for," She enthused and Lourdes laughed.
"I can't even pronounce half of this shit," Nala complained from next to Lourdes, "Is it too late to sneak out of here and get a burger somewhere?" She hissed so the employees couldn't hear her.
"Yes," Lourdes deadpanned, continuing to skim the menu. Nala was right though, she couldn't understand half of what was on the menu and she found herself looking a few things up on her phone discreetly. The restaurant had Lourdes in awe. It was right on the water, so they were watching the sunset over the ocean. Mateo had reserved a table that was outside so they could enjoy the fresh air and get a front-row seat to the sunset.
"Whatchu getting Matt?" Nico asked from the end of the table.
"Risotto au Homard," Mateo replied and the group collectively looked at him with confusion
"The hell is that?" Rashir scrunched his face up with disgust. Mateo pulled out the menu from in front of him and skimmed through it until he stopped on a page and pointed to something on it.
"Lobster Risotto idiots,"
The group all let out "Ohhh's" excluding Gianna, who had been to enough french restaurants in her lifetime to basically know most items on the menus. Lourdes continued looking through the menu and settled on "Salade Verte" which was just some sort of special salad and some garlic bread on the side. She closed the menu and turned to Rashir who was quieter than usual.
Ever since he had come back from the bar with split knuckles, he seemed to be deep in thought every time she looked at him. She hadn't had the chance to ask him about it though, they never had the opportunity to talk in private. She nudged him and he stopped staring into space, glancing at her with furrowed brows.
"You okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine," He replied, taking a sip of the cocktail he had ordered. She could tell he wasn't but she chose to drop it, nodding hesitantly instead. "You excited? It's yo' big day tomorrow,"
"Eh, it's not gonna be any different than any other birthday. Besides the fact that we're in the Bahamas," She shrugged, playing with her straw, "But I'm excited to have my first legal drink,"
"Drinking ain't even allat," He waved her off, "You decided what you wanna do though?"
"I don't know, I kinda wanna go kayaking or something? We don't even have to drive anywhere, we can just do it in the water behind the house," Lourdes had always wanted to go kayaking or paddleboarding in the ocean. She rarely had ever been to the beach, but when she was looking at things to do in the Bahamas, kayaking had come up and piqued her interest. She did more research and found out about paddleboarding too, so she decided she wanted to do at least one while they were there.
"Kayaking? Ain't that the shit with paddles?"
"Yes dummy, but it looks fun! Two people can be in the kayak at once so you can go with someone if you're so scared," She teased him.
"I'm not scared bruh, it just sounds like a lot of fucking work," He complained and she rolled her eyes. He was a star college basketball player and trained almost every day of the week but paddling in a kayak for 30 minutes is where he drew the line.
"Stop whining you big baby, it's not even that much work if two people are doing it,"
"Knowing you, you gon' get tired within 5 minutes and Ima be doin' all the work,"
She hit his arm and he laughed, "No I wouldn't, shut up," He continued teasing her until their waiter finally appeared to take their orders. Everyone was hungry since they had barely eaten beside the little snacks they ordered at the beach.
Lourdes was eyeing the rose cocktail Rashir had ordered, wanting to taste it at least once. He caught her staring at it and he asked if she wanted some, making her nod enthusiastically while he chuckled. As she sipped from his glass, she ignored the looks she was getting from the girls, pretending not to see them as she continued talking to him.
The girls had been pushing for her to tell him about her feelings the entire day and she kept dodging their demands, assuring them that she would tell him eventually. The problem is, she really didn't know when 'eventually' was. She had everyone around her telling her that he liked her back, but she couldn't help but doubt them. Rashir was a popular, attractive guy and she really couldn't see how he could like someone as mediocre as her.
"Okay okay, I wanna make a toast," Nico stood up abruptly, interrupting everyone at the table's conversations. His cheeks were slightly flushed and he had a stupid smile stuck on his face and Lourdes could tell he was tipsy. Nala hissed at him to sit back down but he ignored her, continuing what he was saying.
"I wanna say, I'm very very very very—"
"You're very what nigga?" Rashir cut him off, making the table snicker. Nico glared at him, clearly upset that he had interrupted his speech and was silent as he waited for the table to quiet.
"It's okay Nico, you can continue," Lourdes said while giggling, making him glare at her as well. When the table sobered up, he heaved a dramatic sigh and continued with his speech.
"As I was saying, I'm very happy that y'all are my friends. Y'all are like my second family now, and I'm happy we here," He finished while everyone smiled at his confession. No one expected Nico to belt out something as heartfelt as that, but they were glad that he was able to express his feelings.
"Awe, thank you, Nico," Lourdes said, putting her hand on her heart. "Y'all are basically my first family, and I'm really grateful that we were able to become friends this year. And thank you Mateo and Gianna for sponsoring this trip, I can't thank y'all enough,"
"We should have a toast," Aaliyah raised her glass and they copied her.
"Cheers to new friendships," Nala raised her glass, "And relationships," She smirked at Lourdes and Rashir when she said that, making Lourdes roll her eyes, but she raised her glass and joined in when everyone said cheers.
Later that night, Lourdes laid in her bed, watching Bad Girls Club on her laptop and sipping on some water she had gotten from the kitchen. It was late and she wasn't anywhere close to falling asleep, so she was catching up on some episodes.
They had gotten home from dinner hours ago and she was positive everyone was asleep. Usually, Nala was up as late as her but as soon as they had gotten home, she scampered off to Nico's bedroom, waving at the girls with a smirk on her face so she knew that she was preoccupied.
Lourdes had enjoyed the dinner, they spent the time laughing and making fun of the things that were on the menu. After Nico's little heartfelt speech, their food came and she could honestly say, she had never had a salad that tasted that good. She refrained from ordering another one to take home, instead stealing a piece of Rashir's steak which she also thought was delicious. Rashir had swatted at her hand when she reached for another piece though.
Aaliyah ended up driving the girls home since everyone else drank some sort of alcohol and she didn't. Lourdes had gotten a bit tipsy off of the sips of Rashir's drink that she kept sneaking, but she sobered up by the time they made it back to the house. She laid down in the bed and snuggled into a pillow while she watched the girls jump the poor replacements and run them out of the house.
She doubted she could ever be on Bad Girls Club, after watching the way they bullied Kailie on season 16 and how the Clermont twins got their things destroyed on season 14, she knew she wasn't cut out to be on the show.
She was still a little upset when they canceled it when she was about to turn 21 though.
She heard a knock at her door and paused the show, confused as to who it could possibly be, she could have sworn everyone was asleep.
"Come in?" She answered, sitting up in her bed. She breathed a sigh of relief when she saw it was Rashir, relaxing a bit as he shut the door behind him.
"I saw yo' light on," He gestured to her lamp.
"What is it?" She asked when he stuck around at the door, not making a move to come closer.
"Nun, I was just bored and no one else awake,"
"Do you wanna watch Bad Girls Club with me?" She smirked.
"Ain't that the show where they fight all the time?" He asked and she nodded. "Aight, I guess," He shrugged. She patted at the seat on the bed next to her and he sat down with his head against the headboard. She laid back down next to him, positioning her laptop so it was in between them towards the end of the bed.
They watched in silence for a while, Rashir let out little laughs under his breath when some of the girls said funny things during their confessionals and she saw his eyes widen when some fighting happened. She watched with him, but she was distracted by his presence. She wanted to talk to him about what had happened at the beach, but she didn't know how to bring it up, His knuckles were still bruised and she couldn't help but stare at them while he watched the show, biting her lip, knowing that she was the cause of them.
She abruptly sat up, pausing the show and he looked at her confused. "Whatchu do that for? It was getting interesting," He whined but she chewed on her lip, making him lose his playful smile. "What is it Lo?"
She turned to him, playing with her rings to avoid eye contact, choosing to be straightforward instead of beating around the bush. "Rashir why did you fight that guy?" She asked.
"Ion know whatchu talkin 'bout Lourdes," He sucked his teeth, "I ain't fight no one,"
"Rashir I can see your knuckles! You went and fought him when I've told you that I don't like violence," She exclaimed and he scoffed, shaking his head.
"He put hands on you Lourdes, I'm not gon' sit here and act like he didn't get what the hell he deserved,"
"That's not for you to decide! I handled it, you didn't need to do anything else. I was fine," She insisted, throwing her hands up in frustration. She didn't need anyone else fighting her battles, she was fine with handling things on her own.
"Fine? Lourdes, you was practically havin' a damn panic attack! What the fuck was I pose' to do? Just let you sit there when it was obvious you was distraught over some shit? Nah, fuck that, I handled it, and Ion regret it at all. Niggas can get the beat the fuck up if they think they gon' put hands on you," He finished his rant, clearly angry. She was silent, taking in what he was saying. She lost the energy to fight with him, he wasn't going to change his mind and neither was she.
"I'm not worth getting in trouble for," She sighed, looking downward. He lifted her chin up with his fingers and looked directly into her eyes.
"You are worth it Lourdes, Ion ever wanna hear you say some shit like that again in yo' life, aight?" He said firmly, making her gulp at their proximity. She didn't trust herself to say anything at the moment so she chose to nod instead. "Good," He licked his lips, not making a move to let go of her. Nothing could be heard except for the sounds of their breathing and the faint noises coming from outside.
"Tell me you want me to let go," Rashir stared at her lips while he talked. She swallowed, not saying anything as she stared back at him. She didn't want him to let go. Now would be the perfect time to tell him about her feelings but she didn't think she could get the words out.
"I don't want you to," She whispered back. He smiled, leaning in and closing the gap in between them and when their lips finally connected, butterflies erupted in her stomach. The kiss started off almost agonizingly slow until he picked up the pace, massaging his lips with hers. He let go of her face and grabbed her waist, lifting her up onto his lap so she was straddling him and pulling their bodies together.
He squeezed her ass, making her gasp and he took the opportunity to dart his tongue into her mouth, tangling it with her own. She moaned and she felt him smile into the kiss. He detached his lips from her own and she pouted, sad at the loss of the feeling of his warmth. She quickly recovered when he moved to leave kisses on her neck, trailing downwards and she let out another moan at the sensation. She was panting heavily as he trailed back upwards, connecting their lips again and she unintentionally began grinding on his lap.
He reached out to steady her, groaning and she didn't think she'd ever heard a sound sexier than that. "You want me to stop?" He said, looking straight in her eyes and she shook her head. He smirked, saying nothing as he flipped them over so he was hovering on top of her and she was laying down on her back. He kissed her again, sucking on her bottom lip which was driving her crazy, and she held back another moan as he lifted her shirt, leaving soft kisses down her stomach as she squirmed.
He finally made it to her shorts and tugged them down, leaving her just in her tank top and a pair of lace panties. He groaned at the sight, licking his lips but looked up at her, "I'm gonna make you feel good, is that okay?" He asked and she nodded. "I need words baby," He instructed.
"Yes, that's okay," She absentmindedly replied, eager for him to start. He smirked at her eagerness and kissed in between her thighs, slowly pulling her panties down and leaving her bare.
"You're ready for me huh?" He chuckled as he lowered his mouth down to her core and she frantically nodded. He sent a slow lick to her folds and she shuddered at the feeling. He he took her clit into his mouth, sucking on it and simultaneously pushing one finger into her, knowing she couldn't handle two.
He hummed as he ate her out, making everything ten times more intense for her and leaving her a mess as she attempted to cover her mouth to smother the moans that were coming out of her. He sped up the pace as he pumped his finger in and out of her while still using his mouth to satisfy her.
"Rashir—oh my god," She moaned when he eventually inserted two fingers inside of her. She pushed his head deeper into her and he chuckled while her eyes were rolling into the back of her head. He kept his eyes on her the entire time, the faces and the noises she was making satisfied him even more. When she began to shake, he sped up, making her moan extra loudly.
"I'm gonna c—cum," She stuttered out, gripping his hair tightly as he didn't show any signs of slowing down.
"You can do it baby, cum all ova my face," He encouraged her. His words were the final straw and he felt herself let go, moaning louder than she thought was possible and feeling her legs shake. She came down from her high, still sensitive and twitching, staring up at the ceiling, still in shock as to what just happened.
He disappeared to the bathroom and came back with a wet towel. He told her to stay still as he cleaned her up and she obeyed, too tired to move anyways. When he finished, he tossed the towel into the dirty clothes basket, returning to the bed to find her passed out. He chuckled to himself and lifted the covers on top of her, getting in the bed beside her and turning off the light.
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hey y'all 😁 so they FINALLY did something sexual, are y'all happy?? lol just kidding! i was gonna update later in the weak but i got a burst of inspiration so here y'all go! don't forget to vote and comment!