im so tired bc basically
i got just enough sleep last night that i cant go back to sleep but also not nearly enough that im awake so
im just gonna lie in bed and complain
did u know i actually went a pulled put that chart just now bc i forgot which word to use
YAWN
what r u doing thinking about how i posted a chapter feb 18, DIDNT TOUCH THIS BOOK FOR LITERALLY 2 MONTHS, updated april 9 and then posted 4 chapters in the span of 9 days
hi its 5:38 pm and i just took the best nap ever
i can always sleep better in the car for some reason idk like i take the best naps in here
weve been driving for like a hour and 38 minutes i have been asleep for an hour and 14 so gn again
hi its 10:27 pm and weve been at home for like ten minutes and im in bed and we were in the car from 5 to 10 and i was asleep the whole time and im still tired so goodnight
can u tell how carefully and slowly im tying my fingers and brain are literally incapable of moving faster than this right now
ok actually goodnight
wait no
as we were pulling into our driveway there was a secret bunny meeting going on on our lawn
they were all huddled up in like a circle
and scheming probably
ok actually goodnight now
hi next day things
its 6 pm
i spent like 7 hours making a cake today
10 am - 5 pm
no maybe thats 6
idk
idk its a mess kinda
its the cake i said i had to make that looked like mac n cheese
it doesnt actually look that much like mac n cheese Um
ya its a chocolate cake
i made molding chocolate for the macaroni part
and then white chocolate ganache or something for the cheese
so time consuming
and then i didnt even end up eating it bc i didnt want to
no im going back to typing like this in like
tiny lines
thats where my sentence ends
just wherever i start a new line
bc i
talk slow sometimes and take breaks in between my words
but then most of the time
i talk super super fast and no one knows what im saying so
they just ignore me
ya thats what happens most of the time
do u think my parents will let me make mac n cheese for
dinner
bc
actually i dont feel like eating dinner
idk
i didnt eat lunch so my mom will probably get mad at me 😐😐
ya idk im tired gn
realizes its 6:07 pm
goodnight anyways
hi its been 5 hours wyd just woke up from my nap
now i have a lot of math homework bc i slept through my 9 pm alarm that i set so i would have enough time to finish my work before midnight but yknow
still tired
hay its 1:02 am i just finished my homework and had a caprisun 😕
ok feeling bored and lonely wby
ya i am not excited for school in a few hours 7 hours is not
enough time to myself rn 😕😕
also ya basically my teachers do Not like me
bc basically
computer science :
i didnt show up for class for the first like 5 weeks of school and then had No Idea what we were even doing in that class and then i got kinda good at it but do not turn my assignments in on time
science :
idk actually this is like my favorite class and on my report cards and stuff my teacher always leaves a comment saying im doing good in her class bc i always have a 100 in or something and then class starts and shes like i dont like u lol
math :
OK i am good at math. and my teacher is like Um she actually hates all of us ya we will be working on an assignment and will ask her a question or something bc SHES OUR TEACHER ?? and she will be like yes 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 ya idk
art :
ok art might be my best subject maybe my teacher likes me actually she says im good at it and validation 😫😫
pe :
i sit in bed and dont get up or do anything during his class and i send him angry emails like every week
history :
HELLO HE IS THE BEST TEACHER OK. he is like the only one that realizes we are virtual and not all of us are comfortable with talking in front of the class and gives us options to not share in front of the class so thanks best teacher
english :
Um ok Best Teacher she is kinda oblivious about things kids in our class shouldnt be doing though people will literally make ableist and racist jokes and she will be like hahaha dont say that haha but she has a really really strong southern accent and is pretty nice about late work So
ya that was me talking about my classes
anyways
i cant feel my hand bc im holding my phone in a weird way 😫
roll
ok i am tired goodnight
actually wait i was rewatching btr right
i was saying something what was i saying Um
ya no im not going to sleep I am Not tired
maybe i am
hmm no
ya ill watch something or read a book or something
ya i posted this and then came back just now to delete half the chapter because i suddenly got really unsure if i wanted it in here
goodnight
wait a minute who are the 20ish people reading this and not saying anything Um i did not see u there hi
ya bc i have posted this chapter two times and keep coming back to edit it and add more so i have just unpublished it so i can keep talking oops u love me
anyways should i go to sleep bc if i do then i can get sleep but if i dont i get more alone time before i have to get up for school But i can sleep during the school day Or have alone time in between classes and lunch
or i can just do that thing where i turn my phone on airplane mode and curl up into a ball under my blankets and lay in the dark for hours at a time and talk to myself and be comfortable
ya ill do that see u in the morning losers
gm its morning 😕😕
class starts in 45 minutes im gonna go have breakfast and get ready or whatever and then lie in bed for 20 minutes and then ya
SIGH
what
ya so the other day i was thibkng
and.
wait
one sec gotta rearrange my brain
streeeeeeeettch
I SWEAR I BRUISED MYSELF GETTING MILK THIS MORNING
HELP OK I JUST GOT OUT OF FIRST PERIOD RIGHT AND I WAS GOING THROUGH MY OLD WORD BOOK BC IM THINKING OF REPUBLISHING IT AND
WHY DID I SAY : THIS BOOK
anyway SO
i am so tired Um
also also also also im like 97% sure theres a spider in my room
but also
im not gonna do anything about it 😕
i want subway WAIT
wait whats somethifn weird u wat u probly eouldnt est tofether
bc i get bread and eat marshmallsow and peantu buterr together ism jrs tasty
ya its also oribablt rhw walrst thkng i do but thags kn be jts tasght kkls
YA WE HAVE 4 WELLS LMD SCHOOL LEFT YYAAA
axtuallt wait nk 5 bjt lne lf them ks fimals sl it doesnt coildnt
Um what js a good lexile schoore
what even is a lexile schore bc we test for it lile
every sememsyer but isk whag it is
ans jr said dor mt feade the average score is 975 to 1025 but i got a 1491 so
bit i dont know if its even taljknt about the same lexile Um
ya rhis js roo much good nught😕
ya bx j say goodnight whevenr i am done talkingile mo not goodnivjt its 3:18 lm and i just got out of school
editinf shkuld bx leetgy easy bc lf all the red linesbjt i dont proof read most of rhe time oops 😕
my dinigers just feel like jelp and i type some letters before the other ones bc im thinkinf kf the words wjichnks why wheatverbi say lokks like a lot of randlmbl lsters a lot of the tome oops
anytime any song on fine line plays i think about how kidz bop changed strawberry lipstick state of mind to strawberry milkshake